He cancelled.
Suddenly all of my insecurities and irritations bubble up, and I've had an argument with a shadow opponent 300 times in my head tonight while waiting for him to call me back. Mostly it's things that need to be said before I really am mad, because sitting on them is no bloody good.
I know this guy likes me. That's not the issue. The issue instead is feeling partly held at arm's length (which is a totally normal defense mechanism since he's got a kid to worry about) and thinking that he probably has no way of knowing how big a deal it was to me to mention that I'd be willing to hang out with him and the kid.
I don't really feel that I have to, of course. It was just my way of trying to make things a wee bit easier on him, wanting a little bit more time, feeling like I don't get enough.
I'm so used to guys who fall head over heels for me and want me around 24-7 that a slow and rational relationship seems...wrong. Although I suppose it's a sign of growing up or something. Maybe?
Suddenly all of my insecurities and irritations bubble up, and I've had an argument with a shadow opponent 300 times in my head tonight while waiting for him to call me back. Mostly it's things that need to be said before I really am mad, because sitting on them is no bloody good.
I know this guy likes me. That's not the issue. The issue instead is feeling partly held at arm's length (which is a totally normal defense mechanism since he's got a kid to worry about) and thinking that he probably has no way of knowing how big a deal it was to me to mention that I'd be willing to hang out with him and the kid.
I don't really feel that I have to, of course. It was just my way of trying to make things a wee bit easier on him, wanting a little bit more time, feeling like I don't get enough.
I'm so used to guys who fall head over heels for me and want me around 24-7 that a slow and rational relationship seems...wrong. Although I suppose it's a sign of growing up or something. Maybe?
and yeah, he changed her tattoo. it's one of those jesus-fish thingers...(she's really religious). it was supposed to have a black outline and be purple on the inside, but instead he just filled the whole thing in black and put a purple highlight on the inside. i wanted to punch the guy, but she seemed pleased with it... i reeeeally hated the guy. i even disliked him before he pulled that. eugh.