had probably one of my top three e experiences on saturday night. it usually makes me pretty happy, but this time it made me incredibly *chatty*. j. often gets to the 'talking phase' while rolling, but this was a first for me. usually i just feel happy and mellow and horny.
so we talked. for hours. i felt really articulate and clear in my thinking. and i was able to say things i had been thinking about in the best possible way. or, at least, it felt that way. heh.
in fact, i was communicating much better then than i am now in this journal entry. bah.
i am not sure if it is about listening, or concentration, or getting older, but my memory seems to be failing me a lot lately. i can't remember if i have told stories or not, i forgot where one of my favorite restaurants was the other night. i spaced on having coffee with a friend last weekend. i have always had trouble remembering names. just tonight during a commercial i forgot what movie i had been watching two minutes before.
i keep thinking that if i just listen better, apply myself a little more, that this will improve. but i really don't know. how do i measure it? i know it's possible with the name thing, but...it's troubling. and embarassing. even when no one notices but me.
so we talked. for hours. i felt really articulate and clear in my thinking. and i was able to say things i had been thinking about in the best possible way. or, at least, it felt that way. heh.
in fact, i was communicating much better then than i am now in this journal entry. bah.
i am not sure if it is about listening, or concentration, or getting older, but my memory seems to be failing me a lot lately. i can't remember if i have told stories or not, i forgot where one of my favorite restaurants was the other night. i spaced on having coffee with a friend last weekend. i have always had trouble remembering names. just tonight during a commercial i forgot what movie i had been watching two minutes before.
i keep thinking that if i just listen better, apply myself a little more, that this will improve. but i really don't know. how do i measure it? i know it's possible with the name thing, but...it's troubling. and embarassing. even when no one notices but me.
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I never tried the letter e...my shows were always brought to me by the letters l, s, and d. And the number 11.
Listen, if it's important, you'll remember it. I just turned 35 and it's all coming back to me now.
I'm glad you had a good time on E. It's been years since I've done it (and I do miss it a bit) but I found it to be a healthy thing to do every four months or so. I gained quite a bit while I was on it....even if it was chemically induced, I knew there was peace, love, and contentment within me. Kinda like dreaming--even if it's not "real"experience, you can find things within you that you might not see otherwise...