I am so grateful right now because I'm starting to feel better and come to life for the day. Not that I have not accomplished a lot, i have been up since around 4 and moving around doing stuff since about 7:30 including draining some weird thing that has been full of liquid protruding from my dog ......he was pissed but now there is no 3 inch bubble hanging off the side of my dog making me worried. I mean if I didn't drain it what if he ripped it open on something like when he drags himself army style across my rattan living room carpet to scratch his stomach that thing could have exploded and there could have been an infection. My dog is tiny and old and he has no teeth he has enough problems and while I reiterate that he was pissed and I'm sure some how PETA will find my ass and crucify me I think that my little Bowbie is better off for having been rid of the growth. Sigh it's not like he's traumatized he is laying in my bed all comfy and he is very spoiled and has eaten his fill of his regular grilled chicken thighs and cheese and has been outside to play plenty of times throughout the day
Enough about the dog. I am back to being grateful that i feel ok because I have been feeling really depressed very often and I'm not sleeping well I'm having weird nightmares and night sweats and I'm feeling like there is no point to anything. I really hope that stuff passes because I am usually so upbeat and hopeful. Even the songs and mental prompts that I'm usually able to use to get myself together have not been working AT ALL. Working out has not been working Maybe If I keep working on writing the stuff down so that I at least have an outlet for my worries about health and money and self worth and comparing myself to family members and people that I know that just seem to be doing better and even the Olympians that I have been watching every damn night that have just done at there age more than I will ever do in a life time. I wonder if other people roll this stuff around in their heads all day. i wonder if there is a way for me to stop
Enough about the dog. I am back to being grateful that i feel ok because I have been feeling really depressed very often and I'm not sleeping well I'm having weird nightmares and night sweats and I'm feeling like there is no point to anything. I really hope that stuff passes because I am usually so upbeat and hopeful. Even the songs and mental prompts that I'm usually able to use to get myself together have not been working AT ALL. Working out has not been working Maybe If I keep working on writing the stuff down so that I at least have an outlet for my worries about health and money and self worth and comparing myself to family members and people that I know that just seem to be doing better and even the Olympians that I have been watching every damn night that have just done at there age more than I will ever do in a life time. I wonder if other people roll this stuff around in their heads all day. i wonder if there is a way for me to stop
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angelsarenymphos:
I'm on more medications than i can count. he has been to the vet a bunch the vet is a freakin moron Bowbie is doing great the only difference is he doesn't have a 3 inch fluid blister hanging off his stomach so now you can rub his belly which I'm sure he will appreciate
imoutahere:
i hope you feel better soon. hang in there. your strong. good luck to the puppy!