androgyne

i will update my blog properly before holiday
i will update my blog properly before holiday
i will update my blog properly before holiday
i will update my blog properly before holiday
i will update my blog properly before holiday

note to self

is concerned about many things

I am not the kind of person who loves. I do not have notions, expectations or even wants of unconditional love. My whole being is based on rational, Machiavellian objectivity. Love is not different. I can only care for somebody as long as it is in my interest to do so.

I am a demanding boyfriend. Not only am I narcissistic, an insomniac, megalomaniac with...
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So, i have had a rather lovely weekend. Recently my girlfriend has become a little lost and i felt it was my job to help her find herself again. I am not entirely altruistic, but then i know of little unconditional love. She looks after me in many many ways, and so i love looking after her in many ways. Plus, when she is happy,...
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sigh. well i am up unable to sleep again. atleast my gf didn't fall asleep as she did lastnight and not bother to turn up, but i am left largely un-fulfilled. I had a looovely night Monday, the sort of perfect togetherness you never expect to get after 2 and a bit years 2gether. Since then though i just haven;t quite been able to monopolise...
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so... i am finally getting around to updating this thing. truth is that i have been very very busy at work and so am a little out of the loop with the forums and this place in general. but i think i am feeling pretty good on the whole, my public side especially. Since finishing University i have gone from interview to interview being told...
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I just watched the new series of House! Much acclaim has been made, and I must admit, as of last seasons recruitment drive for new doctors I have been totally hooked. Likewise, the new double episode was typical of Hugh Laurie, more implausibly unlikely sick scenario's in which I am unsure if they are diagnosing medical conditions or ordering Korean food. Never the less, I...
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I'm currently feeling very dominant, and uncomprimisingly so. I think my girlfriend isn't feeling equally submissive and is probably in need of a hug rather than a spanking, but I feel like if I back down then it will leave me looking weak and the next time I am dom it will have less value and impact. So I'm digging my heels in in the...
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So, I'm feeling pretty good 2day. Last night I was awoken by a nice domme girlfriend in anything but a sweet mode, which in my book is like the purrrrfect way to wake up Indeed, it's left me feeling remarkably sweet. Hmm tho, I am not quite sure what to do with my bank holiday, so I am sitting here pondering my next move...

sooo, anyways... my last blog was a little raw I feel. Since then I've been to bruges and I'm feeling less nutty and recently, my (in)significant other has been going through the same kind of intellectual awakening I did a few years ago. This has saved me the uncomfortableness of deciding whether I should help her on her path, knowing she will probably be less...
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