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OMG, what is this mystery gift AND envelope I see before me?

I need to explain that I am a very disciplined person when it comes to Christmas and would never be tempted to open a present early BUT what I have received is really tempting! What's with the envelope too?! What is it?! Why does it say open the present first, then the envelope?! I'm just not sure I can wait another 10 days! Aaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh!

Big kisses to you darling and thank you.

Mwah!!!!!!!!!!

xx

Ahhhhhhh, that would make sense! Cool, so now I'm not so tempted anymore, that's good

Yeah, there was a label which showed it was from you. I typed a message for yours only they left it off obviously

Have a good few days honey xx

KFC have got to be involved somewhere along the line, they are scum!

Also, as much as I don't like BK either, I was employed by them for years as a teenager so I have a bit of an affinity for them.

If we don't speak before, have a lovely weekend darling, hope you enjoy it whatever you do

thanks darling !
it's not quite Louise Brooks...her hair is shorter in front...i like having the sharp angle though

You literally sent that last message to me as I text him to say goodbye.

That's it now J, I've done it and this time I know it's final. I feel sick, I could scream and I don't think I'll ever stop crying, but give me a minute and I may just be ok!

Fucking hell..............

Hopefully speak to you tomorrow chicken.

Hope you had a lush weekend.

Big hugs and kisses to you.

xx

Sorry I've not been in touch sooner. I've been really confused and not sure of anything anymore, if you know what I mean.

I then spoke to a friend of mine today, at length. I realised a few things today which I had no idea about before, and so it's been a funny old day really and I've had a few things that I had to do today.

I'm still all over the place with him and my family and work and everything else, but I'm trying to be more positive and not beat myself up quite so much. I'm seeing my friend again on Friday and I'm really looking forward to it.

The boy goes on holiday tomorrow and good or bad, I'm looking forward to it and dreading it all at once. It's going to be a challenging week but one I feel a little bit more ready for.

I'm out in the cab again tonight, so I won't get a chance to blog but I will try and do one tomorrow maybe.

I hope you're ok darling, you certainly sound busy! I hope this message finds you well and happy and I send you a small kiss on the cheek and a bloody big bear hug

Hello you - how are you? You not speaking to me today?

xx

Hehe, you're absolutely right. I'm paranoid in case you haven't already noticed! Always thinking I've upset people etc.

Yeah, the glorious English sea side - I live right on the South Coast darling, near Portsmouth ish. So if you ever have call to be down this way, you ought to give me a shout.

Bah to the bloke, I like that. He is mewing like a spoilt kitten, isn't he. I am also indulging him far too much, I know that but I don't know what else to do. The thought of never hearing from him again is just too much to cope with

If I told you what he's been saying this afternoon you'd die, it's so over the top! He's on his way here now to drop his front door key off - I've got to give it to my dog-sitter tomorrow while I'm away dreaming naughty things about Mark Owen. Hell, I'll be dreaming naughty things about Mark Owen and the rest of them!! Hehe

Hope you're having a nice mid-week, no doubt there'll be an update very soon, if you haven't lost the will to live over it all yet!!

xx

Not that exciting but still, our hero has spoken..................

Good morning sweetheart. Yeah, I love it when that happens, that we're both thinking of each other at the same time, bless! Hehe

I agree with you on the whole counselling thing. And even if we're not meant to be together, I've already said to him, he'll forever be alone if he treats all his girlfriends like this. He knows where he's going wrong but he insists there is nothing he can do to change it. To me, if he loves me that much, he'll have to get counselling, with or without me there, I don't care, just get it sorted already will you! I know I also have issues from my ex/childhood etc, and I am in the process of trying to get some help for that (I've been in and out of counselling for years so it's no biggy for me). I haven't told him any of this though so I guess I need to eh. To be honest, the only problem we've really had since we met was lack of communication, but obviously that's key to any successful relationship.

Since I did my blog last night, he text me asking if I was free tonight. When I said what for, he said maybe dinner? I reminded him that Slavia Prague v Arsenal kicks off at 7.45pm - he said he doesn't mind missing it (blimey!) or we could get a takeaway. I said ok - I went out to an animal rights meeting last night. He then text a couple of hours later saying I didn't sound too keen. He really is on the back foot now! That felt good! I just said of course I'm keen otherwise I'd have said no and left it at that. No doubt he sulked a lot after that as he didn't contact me again.

I text him this morning saying hope you slept ok. He text back blah blah blah. Then I said something about being out til late last night - he texts me back then - fucking outrageous - I hope you weren't out shagging or on a date. How rude! Still, it's obviously got him thinking eh.

Fucking men!!

Not you of course, you're smashin'

PS: The whole work thing isn't going so well. I'm still spending far too much time on SG and others and not actually achieving much, well, the bare minimum if I'm honest. The problem is I'm obviously finding it difficult to focus and when you're writing a consultancy study, focus is essential!! Doh!! Keep up the good work darling, you're doing well!!

Where the fook do you keep finding these things?! How do you know they even exist?!

I have a lot to learn it seems............. x

If one good thing came out of today, it was that beautiful song you sent me, thank you soooooooo much!

I kinda missed out on the whole Radiohead thing but after listening to this, I want to buy the whole back catalogue.

I've requested that you be my friend; I too only have friends that I want to keep in contact with so I hope you accept.

Thanks again

you are very right...thank you

Well with the drink it always leads to something interesting happening atleast

Good to see that you are still kicking. I haven't heard back yet from KSU, so I don't know whether or not I will be in Russia this summer. I'm kind of screwed if I won't. As such, I have no idea about any sort of London plans this year.

Are you still breathing??

Mate its been an age, and although you have a warm place in my heart, I realise you`re hardly here.

I`m doing some spring cleaning. You wanna stay on my list?

Hope to have your reply sometime this year

Cooo-eeee How the devil are you old chap?

Haven't seen or heard from you in an age! This will have to be rectified at some point during the year.

Love and kisses
Michelle xx

Hey.

Happy Birthday.

Happy birthday, comrade!