Saturday seems to be blog day it seems.
This week has been another funny one. I'm feeling a little better and a little worse. I watched Fahrenheit 9/11 which nobody who knows me can believe I hadn't seen before. I've been avoiding it. I was reasonably clued up politically at the time it was made, and there wasn't much in it I didn't know already,...
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This week has been another funny one. I'm feeling a little better and a little worse. I watched Fahrenheit 9/11 which nobody who knows me can believe I hadn't seen before. I've been avoiding it. I was reasonably clued up politically at the time it was made, and there wasn't much in it I didn't know already,...
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So, another week under the belt, or over the shoulder if you prefer.
Immediately you can tell I'm in a better mood... Or not so much.
This week has been busy busy busy. I went up to a big fair in Birmingham and found a few decent things, then went to Northampton to see a friend (it's on the way back). Decent sales this week,...
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Immediately you can tell I'm in a better mood... Or not so much.
This week has been busy busy busy. I went up to a big fair in Birmingham and found a few decent things, then went to Northampton to see a friend (it's on the way back). Decent sales this week,...
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missbabyblue:
hey gorgeous!!! i finally got the internet!!!! yeahj! how have you been?? 
snarky:
I miss talking to you!
It has been an odd week. Nothing in particular has gone wrong but I feel... funny. I am gliding around with a Mona Lisa face, somewhat bemused, somewhat ok, somewhat not ok.
I can't quite work out how I feel.
Spring was springing. Sharp days but clear and bright as though reality had been intensified somehow. Then rain and wind. I felt like the trees...
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I can't quite work out how I feel.
Spring was springing. Sharp days but clear and bright as though reality had been intensified somehow. Then rain and wind. I felt like the trees...
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dreamergirl:
Something exciting hmm....
Well as i sat on the bathtub, I thought long and hard...
about meeting up again with the oracle.
Well as i sat on the bathtub, I thought long and hard...
about meeting up again with the oracle.
iggy:
Its going to be hard for me to cut out meat I must admit. You know, if you have the money for it, they do offer free range and organic meat, so you know it wasn't cruelly slaughtered or mistreated in life. That is the kind of meat I would eat, but I simply can not afford it...
Time for a new blog I feel. Not that I have anything in particular to say. I'm in a bit of an odd place at the moment. Feel sort of empty and pointless. I'm not quite depressed but I feel like I'm lacking something. I think it's odd being with someone for 7 years on and off, and then suddenly being 100% single, and having...
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benten:
its a japanese/eurpean hybrid lol, its fucking amazing and i cant wait for it to come out!! as for porn, i agree its dull, thats why i dont really do it anymore lol. x x
snarky:
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So about that update... Well, I've not really been around the last week or so. As I said, my Grandmother died last week. I've been looking after my mum, and sorting out a few of the arrangements. Haven't done much work as a result, and thus am out of pocket, but I still decided to go and blow some money on an ipod nano. I...
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snarky:
Thank you for the get well wishes last week, darling.
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Smile, Im one day coming to the UK to have tea with you!!!
I hope things are getting better for you, deary.
I am here if you would like to talk about things.
Take care.
xx
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Smile, Im one day coming to the UK to have tea with you!!!
I hope things are getting better for you, deary.
I am here if you would like to talk about things.
Take care.
xx
lil_em:
Yup, I know.
Just be darling, take care of you and keep in touch, that's all I ask.
xxxx
Just be darling, take care of you and keep in touch, that's all I ask.
xxxx
My grandmother died on Friday. This explains why I've not been around. Some of you may know she has been in hospital for some time. It became clear she wasn't going to make it this time a week or so ago.
I'll get a proper blog out tomorrow most likely.
Hope you're all doing very well. My love to you all
I'll get a proper blog out tomorrow most likely.
Hope you're all doing very well. My love to you all
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lil_em:
Happy Valentines for yesterday babe. I don't suppose you were in the romantic mood and anyway, I wouldn't imagine that V-Day would be a day you would embrace. But still, I hope you had a relatively nice day.
Sending you big hugs and kisses love.
xx
Sending you big hugs and kisses love.
xx
madi:
Hey, How are you? That is sad about your grandma, I just lost my grandpa last month. I think it was for the better, rather than living in suffering.
Happy late v-day, I'm doing alright, lonely, poor and bored, but alive and back on SG!
Happy late v-day, I'm doing alright, lonely, poor and bored, but alive and back on SG!
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persya:
the book is fiction
lil_em:
3 days its been and no word. I hope you are ok love, and I hope Granny is too.
I think of you every day and say a little prayer for you both.
xx
I think of you every day and say a little prayer for you both.
xx
There are times when David Bowie's Hunky Dory is the only thing that's going to get you to sleep, This is one of those times. I swore I bought that bastard on CD at some stage...
Fuckers!
Fuckers!
lil_em:
I don't even know what this blog means but never mind.
Hope you're ok mister, you've been very aloof in 2008
xx
Hope you're ok mister, you've been very aloof in 2008
xx
So! Busy week this week. Nonetheless, I have little in the way of exciting news. Managed to do some decent business earlier this week, enough to treat myself to a trip to the tailors. Yes, I really do register way up on the gaydar, but frankly, I admire the way homosexual men actually care about what they wear and how they look. I'm an honorary...
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tatianadanielle:
Thank you for the lovely comment on my page
lil_em:
Morning sweetness. Yeah, although the good mood didn't last and I ended up driving the cab on Saturday night mostly in tears. Still, all in all I had a positive weekend and I managed to go through it without contacting him, believe me that was incredibly tough, particularly in the cab when I had hours of thinking time! 
I'm also looking forward to working again with the business. Unfortunately though its not as easy as you would think as there are no other specialists in the field that don't want to blast everything out of the sky but still, where there's a will there's a way
Unfortunately the colleague can't do site visits either because of his personal circumstances and ailing health. You and that business brain of yours!! Mind you, I'm glad you don't charge! Hehe
10:10 on a saturday night and J has not long finished working? Are you insane? Having said that, you did go off exploring museums on a school day last week so I guess that's fair do's.
I can't tell you the amount of times I've wished I had a local near me that I would feel comfortable just popping into on my own. The only places like that I know are 20 miles away where my Dad used to drink. Still, it would only have contributed to me having a potential drink problem so maybe it's a blessing. I still don't know what to do about that particular issue either. Still, there's no rush.
Don't drink alone if you can help it honey, it's not healthy
Sending you lots of nice cuddles today as that's what I feel I could do with, and I'm thinking if you were drinking alone Saturday night, maybe you could to?
xx
I'm also looking forward to working again with the business. Unfortunately though its not as easy as you would think as there are no other specialists in the field that don't want to blast everything out of the sky but still, where there's a will there's a way
Unfortunately the colleague can't do site visits either because of his personal circumstances and ailing health. You and that business brain of yours!! Mind you, I'm glad you don't charge! Hehe
10:10 on a saturday night and J has not long finished working? Are you insane? Having said that, you did go off exploring museums on a school day last week so I guess that's fair do's.
I can't tell you the amount of times I've wished I had a local near me that I would feel comfortable just popping into on my own. The only places like that I know are 20 miles away where my Dad used to drink. Still, it would only have contributed to me having a potential drink problem so maybe it's a blessing. I still don't know what to do about that particular issue either. Still, there's no rush.
Don't drink alone if you can help it honey, it's not healthy
Sending you lots of nice cuddles today as that's what I feel I could do with, and I'm thinking if you were drinking alone Saturday night, maybe you could to?
xx
First update of the year eh?!
I haven't updated because I haven't had a lot to say really. The year so far has gone well, but quietly. My computer decided to be a bitch so I've forked out for a new and oh so fancy one. I really treated myself this time. It's shiny!
Otherwise work is going well enough, although I've been a bit...
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I haven't updated because I haven't had a lot to say really. The year so far has gone well, but quietly. My computer decided to be a bitch so I've forked out for a new and oh so fancy one. I really treated myself this time. It's shiny!
Otherwise work is going well enough, although I've been a bit...
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lil_em:
Of course I don't want to bloody strangle you, I want to squeeze you!!
That bollocking was completely justified and I've laid there all night saying exactly the same things to myself!
This is my own fault
xx
That bollocking was completely justified and I've laid there all night saying exactly the same things to myself!
This is my own fault
xx
lil_em:
Hmmmm, yes being right all the time can be a little irritating 
Still, you're human too darling, I will keep reminding myself you're not perfect!
xx
Still, you're human too darling, I will keep reminding myself you're not perfect!
xx
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lil_em:
I'm trying love, believe me.
Thank you for reading my shite too love, it means a lot to me.
Thank you for reading my shite too love, it means a lot to me.
daisy:
I've had the worst week ever, some pestering would be great.
I'm serious too.
I'm serious too.
Ladies and Gentlemen, I'm sodding off to Austria for a while to eat drink and be merry.
Photos when I return! :o
XXX
Photos when I return! :o
XXX
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trickynicki:
Happy Holidays and enjoy!
daisy:
Ooooh, LOTS of photos please.
Preferably snowy ones. Ones of you falling in said snow would be good too.
I like photo updates.
Can't wait.
Preferably snowy ones. Ones of you falling in said snow would be good too.
I like photo updates.
Can't wait.
How true a statement. How many do this. Women included. I'm almost 100 percent sure that even if one doesn't think he may be doing this, he or she does it by subconciously. Some stuff it away in the back of their minds and move on thinkng all is well. Than all of a sudden you wonder where all of these emotions are coming from. We have to "look" eventually and this can be to much for some. I'd like to be one to say I can learn from every failure or set back. Sometimes though, you get so many discouragement can set in making it almost impossible to see anything anymore. Time is always a weird lesson. It does however seem to bring you right back to an emotion or rememberance when you begin to step back into another relationship. Even platonic. I thnk some pain is so great that "detaching" is the safest way to avoid getting hurt.
gosh darnit life.!!...we need love but man...can't we have love and independance? To love and be free? Love and being able to breath? Just mutual coolness? I'v been told by a wise wise man..."It's way better to marry your best friend and not a lover" Well at this point in life I'd settle for that "best freind". I do not "need" to be married either. The whole word although suposedly meant to be set apart has taken on so many changes in this day. Just give me a faithful friend and I'll rest awhile.Plus it's just pressure one should not have to think about. Yet we do dont; we? It's like walking hand in hand along a river. Many see the giant rock (or small pebbles) building up slowing down the flow of the water. How some like to stop right here and decide to not move forward because the rock is to big. Better yet how some blame the pebbles on you. Usually we are the ones, not the rocks that hold us back from moving forward.
Yes it is water.
I wonder if that is oil in my other picture. I only made it a little darker in photoshop. It came out really nice and may be one of my favorite photos I'v taken.