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amillahhighlife

Chicago (Middle Mecca) But not for long

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Saturday Nov 24, 2007

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Alone in the studio
I decipher the facts
Hands to my wrists covered in microcrystalline wax
black paint, spray cans pink and gold
Imagine visions of my future after 33 yrs old
had I died earlier during this Jesus age
If that had been my fate
maybe I would have done more to amaze
astound those around me
live life profoundly
Instead theses demons hound me
no matter the town or county
almost as if there was a bounty
upon my head and happiness
Out to usurp my pleasure
take the coil from my nappiness
Walk road perilous
eyes open for peril
Face reflects feral
my soul hidden in this camoflauge apparel
Stepping of the F Train on Smith & Carroll
I can't believe the tarot
keep my eyes on the sparrow
walk the straight and narrow
cuz the path ain't getting wider
puttin out this fire
attempt to rekindle a new
damn i lived a life of struggle
so I'm owed my due......

Damn I lived a life of struggle
So I'm owed my due.


faye:
PLEASE DON'T TAKE THIS THE WRONG WAY cause I love what you wrote.

But honestly, life...owes you nothing BUT the struggle. We all struggle, in different ways yes but I don't think that it's right to look at someone and be like, they have it so easy. I think we both know that everyone in this world walks around with the hugest front and a fake smile. How many people in your life have you ACTUALLY known? Known all of their past, all of their present, all of their secrets?

Things go up, things go down. In the end it's up to YOU to make you happy. That was my big lesson of 2007.

YOU don't like your life, you're the only one who has the power to actually change it. And that is the hardest thing to do sometimes. Because when you're down, when you're lost, and blind so that you can't see a way out. It is the hardest thing to do to find the courage and the strength to get back up again. But we do it. Some of us do it time and time again.

That struggle is never ending...I hope yours gets a little easier soon though.

After I read this I wanted to call you, just to talk....but then I realized that it's like going on 11pm on a Saturday night. haha Hope you have a good one.
Nov 24, 2007
browngirl:
that's dope that you're so close. we should chill sometime. i feel your poem too, i can relate. the world does owe us & i'm taking my payment out of it's indebted ass everyday. lol.
Nov 25, 2007

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