Ok, so here it is. Ive developed a rather odd theory in my life. It originates because of how I feel about my life in the army. I know, I know, no one wants to hear me bitch and moan about that again, so I'll try to keep that brief. Anyways, because of my time here I no longer feel like any of this is real. not a single bit of my daily life(to exclude SG), its nothing but a big laugh. Im all grins laughing at just the weirdest things when im at work, because I cant believe its happening to me. not the healthiest mindset for a soldier to have. I used to be just the opposite, full of venom about the situation because it was a bad choice for me. now, all sorts of shit happens and i just laugh it off. or do whatever it takes to make it easy for me. for awhile i drank to assist this but ive cut down on the drinking, anyways, im here in germany with the army for another two years, some of that iraq time.
but on to my life as a tv show. which is what ive started comparing it to. Looking back I like to compare my life prior to the army as like a hit tv show. say, Cheers for instance. Theres a great cast of lovable charcters and it lasts a little while. then things change and some of the cast drops off the show, before you know it, its my turn to leave the show, but i move on to this spin off where Im the main character, but it isnt frasier, its like a bad version og beatle baily or something. occasionaly I make guest appereances on the original show, mostly thru phone conversations, but occasionally, during the sweeps, I come on for a few episodes and the shows regain some of that charm the original had. this second show is actually quit boring, and hopefully will be cancelled shortly so that I can rejoin the original show and try to regain some of the magic it once had.
I dont want to give up my friendships, I would genuinly like to know them into old age. particularly Matt and molly. those two have had so much influence on me. I used to be hardly human, i sometimes think, but they brought out the warm and caring person I like to think ive become. I dont think ill ever outgrow those two. and i'll almost certainly always have some mixed up feelings for molly. that should hamper any possibility of ever devoloping a relationship. But Im hoping i can balance that all out. Maybe if I find the right woman, I can just be friends with molly. ok, this is pretty long. Ive opened up a bit more than i intended. sorry if i bore you.
hmm, what song do i add to this journal?
HAPPENS ALL THE TIME by COLD
I STILL HANG ON EVERY WORD
IN A WORLD OF FADED MEMORIES
WHERE YOUR STILL IN LOVE WITH ME
I CAN SEE IT IN YOUR EYES
A LOOK AS IF YOUR MAJOR TOM HAS LOST CONTROL
I MUST HOLD ON THIS HAPPENS ALL THE TIME
I STILL FIND MY FAITH IN YOU
I CANT HOLD ON THIS HAPPENS ALL THE TIME
I STILL FIND MY WAY TO YOU
IF A DREAMS ALL THAT I GOT
THEN I WISH YOU IN A FAIRY TALE
WHERE YOUR STILL IN LOVE WITH ME
I CAN SEE IT IN YOUR EYES
A LOOK AS IF YOUR HERO FELL AND LOST HIS SOUL
This is the first chance ive gotten to really read the lyrics to the song, Ive been listening to it at their website for awhile, and i knew they were good but geez. thats some mighty fine lyric writing there scooter.
Fuck! Artist direct is selling the new cold cd for 5.99! i paid twice that. Also Deathcab for Cutie's new cd is only 9.99
but on to my life as a tv show. which is what ive started comparing it to. Looking back I like to compare my life prior to the army as like a hit tv show. say, Cheers for instance. Theres a great cast of lovable charcters and it lasts a little while. then things change and some of the cast drops off the show, before you know it, its my turn to leave the show, but i move on to this spin off where Im the main character, but it isnt frasier, its like a bad version og beatle baily or something. occasionaly I make guest appereances on the original show, mostly thru phone conversations, but occasionally, during the sweeps, I come on for a few episodes and the shows regain some of that charm the original had. this second show is actually quit boring, and hopefully will be cancelled shortly so that I can rejoin the original show and try to regain some of the magic it once had.
I dont want to give up my friendships, I would genuinly like to know them into old age. particularly Matt and molly. those two have had so much influence on me. I used to be hardly human, i sometimes think, but they brought out the warm and caring person I like to think ive become. I dont think ill ever outgrow those two. and i'll almost certainly always have some mixed up feelings for molly. that should hamper any possibility of ever devoloping a relationship. But Im hoping i can balance that all out. Maybe if I find the right woman, I can just be friends with molly. ok, this is pretty long. Ive opened up a bit more than i intended. sorry if i bore you.
hmm, what song do i add to this journal?
HAPPENS ALL THE TIME by COLD
I STILL HANG ON EVERY WORD
IN A WORLD OF FADED MEMORIES
WHERE YOUR STILL IN LOVE WITH ME
I CAN SEE IT IN YOUR EYES
A LOOK AS IF YOUR MAJOR TOM HAS LOST CONTROL
I MUST HOLD ON THIS HAPPENS ALL THE TIME
I STILL FIND MY FAITH IN YOU
I CANT HOLD ON THIS HAPPENS ALL THE TIME
I STILL FIND MY WAY TO YOU
IF A DREAMS ALL THAT I GOT
THEN I WISH YOU IN A FAIRY TALE
WHERE YOUR STILL IN LOVE WITH ME
I CAN SEE IT IN YOUR EYES
A LOOK AS IF YOUR HERO FELL AND LOST HIS SOUL
This is the first chance ive gotten to really read the lyrics to the song, Ive been listening to it at their website for awhile, and i knew they were good but geez. thats some mighty fine lyric writing there scooter.
Fuck! Artist direct is selling the new cold cd for 5.99! i paid twice that.
Also Deathcab for Cutie's new cd is only 9.99VIEW 6 of 6 COMMENTS
The Wall isnt healthy to listen to. Look what it did to the guy who sang it