ambrose03

What do you like more hugs or kisses?
hugs,they can be more intimate

If you had to make a speech on national TV tonight what would you speak about?
I'd do a really bad stnad up routine and totally destroy any chance I had of being a professional comedian

If you could have one band play a private show on your birthday, what band would...
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even drug induced sleep gives me odd dreams

To often my dreams are plauged by by a guilt both real and imagined, huanted by the things that might have been, and tormented by fears. It is becuase of these demons that torment me in my sleep that I choose to push my self to the edge of exhaustion so that I might shutdown into a dreamless stupor. What crime have I commited that...
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I have been accused of being to negitive. That is true, I am. I have tried to find someway of dealing with my pain, in either a healthly or unhealthly fasion. I don't drink, never really liked drugs, I can't ever seem to get a hold of friends when I need to talk, and no one ever returns my messages. The only thing I have...
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I should just admit I failed. Sell the house and roll the dice on my future.

god I wish I had someone to talk to sometimes

uh...yeah...thats all for now

New Year....new attempts?

attempt to finish my story....

attempt to feel happy...

attempt to be happy with someone else...

attempt to be finacialy secure...

attempt to bring myself back into the family...

attempt to fix all problems that come my way...

attempt to be there for my friends...

attempt to save the people I love from pain...

attempt to not lose my soul attemting...

So I took my dog to the vet for her yearly checkup...While sitting in the room talking to the vet I noticed a lump on the bottom of Kes' tounge...the vet looked at it, after much resistence on Kes' part lol, and decided that it should be removed. So I have to drop her off in the morning....and pick her up in the afternoon. wait...
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