hmmm...oh the sleepless nights and the lazy days. i think it has something to do with the fact that i sit in my bed on the laptop with all my free time.
i have been so lazy lately. waiting for the enery to come, it doesnt,
the motivation has been terrible. the only thing i have motivation for is being lazy.
on another note,
the guy im "friends with". things have been quite cool,
we hve hung out for a few weeks now and have had sleep overs.
i have yet to have sex with him
is bizarrre, weve been friends for so long that i dont want to fuck shit up unless i know it is going to be something.
i guess we are both thinking the same thing. i will have to admit that lately my sex drive has been in overdrive and i have been thinking of sex 24/7.
i wan the real thing though not just some shitty realtionship that lasts a few weeks month or years
i want the marriage
stability
domestication
all that crazy shit
....
i am a dork when it comes to that shit.
something i believe has caused alot of realtionships to end so quickly, becauae i tend to date boys that have peter pan syndrome.
i want a man
someone that sweats more than i do at their job
someone that works a fulltime job and has life goals.
ood luck to me huh
i have been so lazy lately. waiting for the enery to come, it doesnt,
the motivation has been terrible. the only thing i have motivation for is being lazy.
on another note,
the guy im "friends with". things have been quite cool,
we hve hung out for a few weeks now and have had sleep overs.
i have yet to have sex with him
is bizarrre, weve been friends for so long that i dont want to fuck shit up unless i know it is going to be something.
i guess we are both thinking the same thing. i will have to admit that lately my sex drive has been in overdrive and i have been thinking of sex 24/7.
i wan the real thing though not just some shitty realtionship that lasts a few weeks month or years
i want the marriage
stability
domestication
all that crazy shit
....
i am a dork when it comes to that shit.
something i believe has caused alot of realtionships to end so quickly, becauae i tend to date boys that have peter pan syndrome.
i want a man
someone that sweats more than i do at their job
someone that works a fulltime job and has life goals.
ood luck to me huh
not a matter of just dumping, since we're married and have kids. the reason i am still there? a looooooot of backstory. in most cases i'd agree on the cheating, but after considering the circumstances i decided he deserved another chance.
and while he does things that upset me or make me feel crappy, he does MORE things that are pretty generous and sweet. you'll probably get a more complete picture as my journal goes on...
it's a long road and a lot of hard work.