I guess i will finally admitt to myself how fucked up i am.
It seems that i have denied the fact that ive been suffering from what they like to call bulemia for about 12 years now. I have tried to convince myself that i am overreacting but fact being that i am now four months pregnant and i have not been able to take any pills. This is a huge wake up call to me. i have been mentally drained because i am having issues dealing with everything. its fucked! I always say i want to be a awesome mother( a good role model) and right now i feel so helpless, kinda like im letting my unborn child down. i am trying my best to deal with the weight gain, on the outside i laugh and am ok with it, on the inside i cry. 12 years of an laxative and duretic pill addiction and BAM, nothing.....I have always been strong and had incredible will power with everthin except this one. UGH!! well i guess things can only get better!!!!
wish me luck!
It seems that i have denied the fact that ive been suffering from what they like to call bulemia for about 12 years now. I have tried to convince myself that i am overreacting but fact being that i am now four months pregnant and i have not been able to take any pills. This is a huge wake up call to me. i have been mentally drained because i am having issues dealing with everything. its fucked! I always say i want to be a awesome mother( a good role model) and right now i feel so helpless, kinda like im letting my unborn child down. i am trying my best to deal with the weight gain, on the outside i laugh and am ok with it, on the inside i cry. 12 years of an laxative and duretic pill addiction and BAM, nothing.....I have always been strong and had incredible will power with everthin except this one. UGH!! well i guess things can only get better!!!!
wish me luck!
good luck hun, i know youll be ok and everytying will work out. youre a strong person.
we all have that one thing that hanuts us taht we cant quite overcome.
its always a struggle, but you seem like youre on the right path.
if you need anything, let me know.
-m