You have friends are all around you...could be people you already know, could be people you just haven't met yet. I find you to be quite an interesting young woman, should be no worries for you to strike up some new acquaintances. Take all of the cruft and discomfort of the moment, take it in, process it, deal with it, and then let it go. Sounds sort of contrite for me to say that so succinctly but it is the boiled-down truth. Sometimes you just have to let go.
Happy early birthday to you.
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