alyssum

Well, turns out my mom's tumor is cancerous too. It's all just a huge waste of time. Finances, making myself a better person, trying to improve my body, huge waste of time. My body is a toxic time bomb and my only hope is to be a food nazi and go to the doctor and get poked and prodded until it's time to get chopped up again and filled full of toxic chemicals. Gee, maybe I'll be positive, maybe I'll be the first one in 3 generations it won't hit. In this world full of toxins where my hippy, no-drug-taking, tofu-eating mom even gets it. I'm fucking tired.