alexandra

so after three hours at the doctor, blood drawn out of both my arms, a urine test, and a rectal exam (i know you wanted to know that), they concluded that they really don't know what is wrong with me.

the doctor gave me some fenegrin (anti-nausea) and sent me on my way.

but i am feeling better this morning. i guess i just have...
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skipping school again. i hate getting my period, it makes me miss the same classes once a month.

this weekend was spent reading cometbus and thrift store shopping like mad. bike rides and hoodies and finding a new coffeeshop. not working on the paper i need to be writing. working on journals instead.

tonight i'm going to see everything is illuminated with jenny. then this...
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so here's the article i wrote in support of pornography for my school's newspaper. it ended up being less an argument for porn as just a glimpse into my feelings about it. the issue comes out today. i am only a little nervous about the backlash.





My dream in life is to be a porn star.

Thats misleading, so let me back up a bit....
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dying from schoolwork.

procrastinating on my porn article. due today. haven't started.

haven't shot my set. have ideas. haven't got a photographer. working on it.

sick of complete sentences. sick of my stupid job.

but. critical mass today.

yes.

ohhh i loved the dvd! it was so much fun & it really made me want to get naked and shimmy around.

also it's been the primary highlight in a day full of homework and boredom. i've read a lot. i walked to the drugstore to pick up my birth control. boyfriend is off filming for the movie. soon he'll get home & i'll swoon...
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today i got my suicide girls dvd in the mail.

i'm making myself wait to watch it. i like anticipation.

whee!


also, i got ambushed at the last newspaper meeting--everyone wants me to write a pro-porn opinions piece. i said i might have too personal a stake in it, given that i am in the application process to become a suicide girl (if only i...
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sick day!

i'm taking a class this semester called sex and gender in cinema, and we are going to spend a good portion of our time talking about censorship and adult films. we're also reading books about porn (a mckinnon book taking the against stance, and a strossen book taking the for stance).

i am so fucking excited about this. porn is definitely one of my favorite...
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