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Its almost one o-clock Monday morning and I am sitting up here on suicide girl, I should have be asleep hours ago, my head is in a thousand and one place right now. None of which are on my test that I have ti take tomorrow afternoon. Sometimes I wonder what I am doing in school, in life. What is all of this leading up to.. I could die tomorrow and would I be happy? How many times in your life have you ever thought to yourself that you could die right then and be at peace.. I mean after all isnt that what it is all about we work out entire lives towards this illusion of what we are told is happiness by our friends, by our familys, by society.
Life at its most basic form is just a series of suffering with distractions along the way. I mean think about it what does everyone want, I mean really want it breaks down to five things Power, Money, Fame, or Success. Why? What comes with these, is this really true happiness or is this just enough distraction. I could go on to list examples of people who have all of this and are not still happy, but the fact is either you can relate to what I am talking about or you cant.
You might be thinking, what about love... Love This is the closet thing to being real Love can over power everything else it is the strongest of human emotion people will do lots of ridicules things in the name of love. But in the end what is it but another distraction. It cant last forever, no matter how perfect you think it is, it cant last forever. One of you leaves, or you get bored with each other over time, or something else comes along to place an obstacle in your path, some unknown force comes in and just takes them right away from you. This is worst because you cant prepare and you cant get over that no matter how much you try all you can do is cover it up and that pain is never really gone. You are left with the suffering.