I'm down to two clean pages in my little journal, so...
It's that time, again:
i'm afraid of commitment. i'm afraid to express my feelings.
I think those two are interconnected. I cant help but think of turtles.
i'm way too good at lying. Lying's just switching words, acting the opposite of the way you wanna act. Sometimes exaggerating.
Instead of saying a coat looks...
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It's that time, again:
i'm afraid of commitment. i'm afraid to express my feelings.
I think those two are interconnected. I cant help but think of turtles.
i'm way too good at lying. Lying's just switching words, acting the opposite of the way you wanna act. Sometimes exaggerating.
Instead of saying a coat looks...
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I got really high and bought a bunch of cereal and no milk. that sucks....so hard.
and it's 2am and everythings closed. cept for the ghetto and fucking wal-mart.
admittedly, the ghetto is closer, but a white-boy in one of the all night "gas stations" buying milk is both suspect and a rather quality targeting system.
but it's still safer than wal-mart.
buh-dum-chss...
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and it's 2am and everythings closed. cept for the ghetto and fucking wal-mart.
admittedly, the ghetto is closer, but a white-boy in one of the all night "gas stations" buying milk is both suspect and a rather quality targeting system.
but it's still safer than wal-mart.
buh-dum-chss...
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cipher:
Eh, my previous post has nothing to do with it. Going to my hometown for the holidays, rather earlier than necessary, too.
You should post whatever you come up, and indeed good luck. I'd love to do that sometime, but that's such a herculean task.
Glad that tumor's gone.
You should post whatever you come up, and indeed good luck. I'd love to do that sometime, but that's such a herculean task.
Glad that tumor's gone.
phoolsfire:
your a salad...wait i don't know what that means...
if these were my "salad years" i'd be having way more fun
[Edited on Dec 19, 2005 9:43PM]
if these were my "salad years" i'd be having way more fun
[Edited on Dec 19, 2005 9:43PM]
few things.
1. Lean Pockets are of the devil.
2. I have testicular cancer, and every time i think this i legs get shakey.*
3. Saw Suzy B today for the first time with make-up. Really cute--like Jodie Foster with make-up.
*It's unconfirmed, and i'm an alarmist, but...there go my legs again.
1. Lean Pockets are of the devil.
2. I have testicular cancer, and every time i think this i legs get shakey.*
3. Saw Suzy B today for the first time with make-up. Really cute--like Jodie Foster with make-up.
*It's unconfirmed, and i'm an alarmist, but...there go my legs again.
cipher:
Why are Lean Pockets in particular the devil?
judas:
lean pockets, as well as their kin, hot pockets, are indeed of the devil. fucking nasty, well below par ingredients. i had one in the last couple of years, remembering a child's joy at microwaveable self-contained foodstuffs (and that these things were all good). i was really not pleased with the "cheese" sauce, "broccoli" and ::shudders:: "chicken" i kind of consumed. after some gagging, it all went in the trash.
you don't have testicular cancer. there. i said it. now you can go on with your life. (i know these things, so don't question me)
i have no idea who suzy b is, but if she's cute like jodie foster in makeup (even though i'm pretty sure i prefer jodie foster sans makeup), then i give her a thumbs up.
you don't have testicular cancer. there. i said it. now you can go on with your life. (i know these things, so don't question me)
i have no idea who suzy b is, but if she's cute like jodie foster in makeup (even though i'm pretty sure i prefer jodie foster sans makeup), then i give her a thumbs up.
This is how my life goes:
Shit's good, then it's bad, then it's good again. Then it gets bad, then really bad, then worse, then super-worse, then i stop caring.
And shit gets good again.
My life is all about happiness. I honestly believe it's the meaning of life. Happiness. The general response i get when i tell people this is ...That's stupid.
And it's...
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Shit's good, then it's bad, then it's good again. Then it gets bad, then really bad, then worse, then super-worse, then i stop caring.
And shit gets good again.
My life is all about happiness. I honestly believe it's the meaning of life. Happiness. The general response i get when i tell people this is ...That's stupid.
And it's...
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judas:
so, you getting really pumped for 'brokeback mountain' yet?
phoolsfire:
to me hapiness is good parking spot, its a cold beer at the end of a shitty dat... of which i will be having mant tonight.
my life is pretty balanced right now...avian flu aside, i pretty much only notice when things don't go as planed, this causes stress. and this is bad, but with proper planing, most of the time this can be avoided.
my life is pretty balanced right now...avian flu aside, i pretty much only notice when things don't go as planed, this causes stress. and this is bad, but with proper planing, most of the time this can be avoided.
Because Fuck You isnt really an acceptable response, i can do this. Money isnt the problem, really. Time isnt the problem, really. Ability isnt a problem. Inspiration isnt a problem.
Motivation kinda hits me hard. As does the fact that i'm scared shitless.
I'm a pussy. there, i said it.
Fuck you anyways.
Motivation kinda hits me hard. As does the fact that i'm scared shitless.
I'm a pussy. there, i said it.
Fuck you anyways.
fuck this. fuckthisfuck this. fuck it. worst weekend ever. ever. almost got fired. might still.
fuckit, i might quit. i fucking hate this. i'm sick of it. if i quit or get fired i could work for my dad. but it would only be part time. i need to get my ass in gear. i need to start pre production. i need to leave. i...
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fuckit, i might quit. i fucking hate this. i'm sick of it. if i quit or get fired i could work for my dad. but it would only be part time. i need to get my ass in gear. i need to start pre production. i need to leave. i...
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slackerinchief:
Sounds like alotta lotta shit, sorry man. I kinda feel like crap right now myself actaully, but I think that will wear off by the morning.
Your gonna be alright man, *pats gently on the back*
Your gonna be alright man, *pats gently on the back*
figmentation:
you've been awfully quiet lately...
still kickin over there?
still kickin over there?
al gore invented the interweb just so i could pay my credit card bills the day before they're do.
judas:
there's nothing to get.
NOTHING!
it all means nothing!
NOTHING!
it all means nothing!
runk:
Yo, I'm back. Taste the happy.
I'm not a hypochondriac as much as i'm an alarmist. Because every phantom bump is a tumor, every unusual mole is skin cancer. Lower back pain is my kidneys going out. I cant tell you how many times i've had blood poisoning or a deviated septum.
Dysentery.
A sprain is a dislocation. Ears ringing, brain tumor.
And my cold is H5N1. Avian bird flu.
Son...
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Dysentery.
A sprain is a dislocation. Ears ringing, brain tumor.
And my cold is H5N1. Avian bird flu.
Son...
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judas:
if you sleep with your chicken, you'll almost certainly kill it.
Update: fuck talking smilies.
Update: I will no longer say "...gets me hard." i'm officially changing it to "...gets me wet."
More updates as they come.
Update: There's a photo at work of a cat with it's arm (leg...?) around the shoulders of a dog.
The cat's dressed as a pilgrim, the dog an Indian (yeah--Indian--i said it. fuck you)
it says "Happy Thanksgiving" along...
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Update: I will no longer say "...gets me hard." i'm officially changing it to "...gets me wet."
More updates as they come.
Update: There's a photo at work of a cat with it's arm (leg...?) around the shoulders of a dog.
The cat's dressed as a pilgrim, the dog an Indian (yeah--Indian--i said it. fuck you)
it says "Happy Thanksgiving" along...
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judas:
brother ali is radness. total albino.
i just saw atmosphere last night. so bittersweet...
i like to say that things "make me happy in my pants". especially when i am not wearing pants.
i just saw atmosphere last night. so bittersweet...
i like to say that things "make me happy in my pants". especially when i am not wearing pants.
Among the things written on my body:
Jeremy London; twin
Matisyahu (mat-iss-yahoo), these arms are snakes danger doom
six-nine diamonds
room bills water cigarettes 14p. good morning.
Jeremy London. 665.
so, why did i just buy Oxeneers... by These Arms Are Snakes?
this review:
It's hard to describe in words what Oxeneers does for me musically. I don't think I've heard a band with so...
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Jeremy London; twin
Matisyahu (mat-iss-yahoo), these arms are snakes danger doom
six-nine diamonds
room bills water cigarettes 14p. good morning.
Jeremy London. 665.
so, why did i just buy Oxeneers... by These Arms Are Snakes?
this review:
It's hard to describe in words what Oxeneers does for me musically. I don't think I've heard a band with so...
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rephrased:
I haven't listened to the Mars Volta. They were crazy hyped when the first one came out. I'm extremely distrustful of hype.
judas:
that's right, i win.
but, i do find constructive ways to tell the truth, "what do you think of this sweater?" i pause. think. well, it makes you look like a very pale sausage encased in a very pale sweater. but i say, "honey, i think you shouldn't like what that sweater makes your stomach look like." she told that story at parties/gatherings/work for at least six months afterward, praising my brutal honesty.
i also recoil with lightning speed away from liars. of any kind. in fact, the casual liar is the worst, because those are the lies that are easy not to tell.
your never a tag a along, and as far as i know we always have a good time together.