akasnuggles

Bits and Pieces.

I saw Jeehan today, the first time inna while. We talked a bit, mostly about his son, his wife, their plans, and how long it takes the new students to warm up to me, when, out of the blue, he says, Your hair's turning brown!
I say, Yeah, it's time to dye... I dont think he understood what i meant at first, because the look on his facei couldnt help but laugh.

I rocked my I Like Me Red Vs Blue shirt todaylike my Security Shirt, my RvsB shirt is a definite confidence builder.
As well, Season 3 of Red Vs Blue is on DVDi must purchase asap.

I'm afraid of alotta stupid shitspiders, earwigs, food poisoning, traffic, getting lost, doctors, being alone when i really want to be with someone, saying something inappropriate, the Irishbut more than anything, i'm afraid of overstaying my welcome. Of being that guy that hangs around when you want him to leave.
The guy that inserts himself into your life when you dont want 'em to.
The guy that drops in unexpectedly.
I dont wanna be that guy, so i'm always cautious about being him. I dont show up out of the blue, i dont press issues, i dont bug people about things they dont seem interested in talking about, and i alwaysALWAYSleave before i'm asked to. Generally when shit seems to be winding down or when my presence begins to wear thin, i take off.
More than anything, i dont want people to say, I didnt think he'd ever leave.

Ong Bak is the coolest martial arts movie EVER. Tony Jaa is a god.
DVDS Bought over the Weekend:
Blade 1-3
Constantine 2disc Edition
Layer Cake
The Beach
Ong Bak
The Jacket
and something else i cant remember...damn.

Saw this really interesting docuthingie about parrots and the beatnik that loves them. Because i'm a little girl i got choked up at the end.

If i cant name any big specifics about what i did over a weekend, it's a good weekend. If the smile-to-nonsmile ratio is good, i'm happy.
It doesnt take much.

Watching Real Time, take a hit every time i agree with somethingi'm dead-eyed before a quarter in.

Deftones, B-sides and Rarities came out todayi need to pick that up.

I honestly cant remember the last time i woke up and didnt feel like shit. I cant remember the last time i didnt wake up in the middle of dying. I cant remember the last time i woke up without panicking.
This shit is getting old. I need to fake myself out.

I didnt take any St John's Wort today and i think i felt better for it.

I was never a fan of being a fan. I'd rather watch the crowd than be a part of it.

If i always said what i wanted to say i'd have no friends. But on the other hand, if i always said what i wanted say i'd probably get laid more. If that makes any sense.

The closer i feel to someone, the more guarded i am around them. Anyone that knows me knows my ...Nevermind rap. I'm so afraid of fucking shit up.

I should have stayed to swim.

Boop.


you move like I want to
to see like your eyes do
we are downstairs where
no one can see
new life break away
tonight I feel like more
tonight I
you make the water warm
you taste foreign
and I know you can see
the cord break away
cause tonight I feel like more
tonight I feel like more
tonight I feel
feel like more
you breathed
then you stopped
I breathed then dried you off
and tonight
I feel like more
tonight