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***UPDATE***
this weekend is never going to end. i woke up thinking it was saturday--i should have just played along.
this sobriety thing is killing me.
i'm gonna crash, and its barely midnight. Too much valerian root.
And other such things.
So what do you do when you realize you have nothing in common with the people that occupy the area around you? I guess you gotta know when it's not worth it.

There's something purely foolish about attending any large gathering of men and women without benefit of some kind of philter or magic dust to blind you and weaken your critical faculties.

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If i were an unscrupulous man, but i'm not. So it's a non-issueit's moot. If i was more like David or Samuel, Jed, Jerry, Chuck, AJif i was more like them, but i'm not.
So i'm not.
It's weird how many situations factor that bit in.
heh.
So i'm thinking people are too human in all the wrong ways, and not human enough in the right ones. It's amazing how often people fall back on the old adage It's Human Nature.
But that gets you stuck. If you preface any interaction as such you leave no room to grow, i think.
I could be wrong. I could just think i'm better than everyonei'm told that a lot.
It's amazing how different i find myself to be. How often i suddenly realize that i'm the only person in the room that...
But whatever.
(i paused to look up song lyrics and missed my train of thought...damnit.)
I'm sure that if i were any other kind of social animal i'd have been picked off by now.
Fuck you, Darwin.
Bigger Picture Darwinism.
All i'm saying is that maybe we value the wrong things.

And with everything i've already said tonight, i find there's a ton more i should have said.

Boop.