Figment said onMarch 21, 2005 12:02 PMDELETE
...In regards to the lack of a hardon you were babbleing about, go for a real woman and not an image of one and it might change.
(why havn't you engaged in any sexual activity for a year)
This got me to thinking, here's my reply:
Why havent i been laid in about a year? I think it has something to do with my overly casual attitude towards sex: i.e. i never actively seek out a lay.
Or, a no-strings-attached lay.
I'm peculiari prefer relationship sex to casual, it-dont-mean-shit fucking. It's just my preference.
If i'm just going out for a fuck, i might as well visit a hooker, you know, to save some time and be done with it. Dig?
I'm one of the few that enjoy the emotional release/entanglement that one receives from a sexual act.
This isnt to say that i'm a fucking prude that disapproves of casual sex, it just aint my cup o' tea. If someone's into that, more power to emshit, i'll provide the condoms and everything.
Or, i would if i was in the correct moodit all depends on when ya catch me.
So, with my affinity (i dont think this is the right word, what whatever) for relationship sex explained, the next logical question would be: Why arent you in a relationship?
It's easy for one to say that they're too busy for it, that they have no time, but it's harder to get another to believe it.
Most think it to be some line or something.
I lead a third-shift lifestyle; meaning, i'm up nights. When i'm not slaving at my part-time gig, i'm either parked behind a monitor editing, or standing behind a camera shooting.
With the few hours i spend not doing that, at the end of the day (your early morning), i'm planning shots and shoots, writing, reading, chilling, and hoping i crash before mid-morning or noon hits.
It comes down to the ability to maintain a solid (SOLID!!!) relationship and the actual desire to handle one.
The latter of which i'm not really interested in right now.
Maybe when my shit's straight, when i'm a bit more stable, not so bogged down and distracted, i'll feel differently.
But, as it stands, relationship shit aint even in my top five list of shit that needs done.
That's not to say that i would shirk relationship responsabilities if i ever woke up and found myself in one, it's just saying that i'm not looking to be in one.
I cant/dont want to pull myself to actively look for one.
I mean, even friendships i'm finding a bit taxing. It would have to be a special thing for me to want to start/engage in a new one, dig?
And about the real one thing, In regards to the lack of a hardon you were babbleing about, go for a real woman and not an image of one and it might change, they (society) kinda frown upon public masturbation, some Decency Law, something about kids and etiquette or something. Exposure or something.
Believe me, i cant come within 100ft of GameStop for that very reason.(Did you get the double entendre? Clever and subtle)
Or were you referring to something that was covered in the above rhetoric?
In other news, finished the JC video that i was working on. More or less. i need to tweak some stuff, but other than that, it's in the bag!
S and i ran out to the cemetery tonite, shot about a min of footage with G's lil DigiCam. I only needed 12 seconds, but it's good to shoot coverage (a lesson long learned...the hard way--This Time It's Personal!...er...)
Fun stuff all around. I'll post some screens and stuff tomorrow, maybe.
Time to start on the Akira/Deftones AMV i've been putting off for a year and a half. If for any reason, to keep up the momentum.
I found out that i have to work thru friday this week...fucking blows...
I just realized that the DVD box for Finding Neverland looks kinda like the box art for Brotherhood Of The Wolf... 'cept for that whole Picture of the Year thing thing at the bottom...er...and other such anachronisms..er.
Kinda sorta maybe, yeah?
Boop.
...In regards to the lack of a hardon you were babbleing about, go for a real woman and not an image of one and it might change.
(why havn't you engaged in any sexual activity for a year)
This got me to thinking, here's my reply:
Why havent i been laid in about a year? I think it has something to do with my overly casual attitude towards sex: i.e. i never actively seek out a lay.
Or, a no-strings-attached lay.
I'm peculiari prefer relationship sex to casual, it-dont-mean-shit fucking. It's just my preference.
If i'm just going out for a fuck, i might as well visit a hooker, you know, to save some time and be done with it. Dig?
I'm one of the few that enjoy the emotional release/entanglement that one receives from a sexual act.
This isnt to say that i'm a fucking prude that disapproves of casual sex, it just aint my cup o' tea. If someone's into that, more power to emshit, i'll provide the condoms and everything.
Or, i would if i was in the correct moodit all depends on when ya catch me.
So, with my affinity (i dont think this is the right word, what whatever) for relationship sex explained, the next logical question would be: Why arent you in a relationship?
It's easy for one to say that they're too busy for it, that they have no time, but it's harder to get another to believe it.
Most think it to be some line or something.
I lead a third-shift lifestyle; meaning, i'm up nights. When i'm not slaving at my part-time gig, i'm either parked behind a monitor editing, or standing behind a camera shooting.
With the few hours i spend not doing that, at the end of the day (your early morning), i'm planning shots and shoots, writing, reading, chilling, and hoping i crash before mid-morning or noon hits.
It comes down to the ability to maintain a solid (SOLID!!!) relationship and the actual desire to handle one.
The latter of which i'm not really interested in right now.
Maybe when my shit's straight, when i'm a bit more stable, not so bogged down and distracted, i'll feel differently.
But, as it stands, relationship shit aint even in my top five list of shit that needs done.
That's not to say that i would shirk relationship responsabilities if i ever woke up and found myself in one, it's just saying that i'm not looking to be in one.
I cant/dont want to pull myself to actively look for one.
I mean, even friendships i'm finding a bit taxing. It would have to be a special thing for me to want to start/engage in a new one, dig?
And about the real one thing, In regards to the lack of a hardon you were babbleing about, go for a real woman and not an image of one and it might change, they (society) kinda frown upon public masturbation, some Decency Law, something about kids and etiquette or something. Exposure or something.
Believe me, i cant come within 100ft of GameStop for that very reason.(Did you get the double entendre? Clever and subtle)
Or were you referring to something that was covered in the above rhetoric?
In other news, finished the JC video that i was working on. More or less. i need to tweak some stuff, but other than that, it's in the bag!
S and i ran out to the cemetery tonite, shot about a min of footage with G's lil DigiCam. I only needed 12 seconds, but it's good to shoot coverage (a lesson long learned...the hard way--This Time It's Personal!...er...)
Fun stuff all around. I'll post some screens and stuff tomorrow, maybe.
Time to start on the Akira/Deftones AMV i've been putting off for a year and a half. If for any reason, to keep up the momentum.
I found out that i have to work thru friday this week...fucking blows...
I just realized that the DVD box for Finding Neverland looks kinda like the box art for Brotherhood Of The Wolf... 'cept for that whole Picture of the Year thing thing at the bottom...er...and other such anachronisms..er.
Kinda sorta maybe, yeah?
Boop.
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I totally understand and respect the desire for relationship sex as opposed to fucking. I actually prefer it as well... but it kinda requires a relationship and I'm a commitment-phobe... this poses a slight problem... otherwize I suppose porn works too but copious amounts of masturbation causes one of two things happen. you either become a minute man or you will last for hours and hours and hours and not be able to achieve orgasam with a female. (that's when you pleasure her first and then finish up with your own hand and or her mouth depending on how much you wore her out.)
I went to the beach today. already it's 840 and I'm back. with sandy feet... I love sandy feet! they're the best part of the post beach experience! I'm loving it. anyways, while at the beach this morning... I let go of alot of stuff. trinkets that I'd been holding on to, baggage and emotional crapola associated with all ofit.
I feel much lighter now... I've also not been to sleep yet. and am starting to feel it. pulling an all nighter is starting to kick in.
sigh.
I wish I weren't so beat and could get stuff done for an hour or two and then sleep.
curious.
casual sex isn't ever casual, in my experience. it's just an excercise in repression.