I can't believe it's been over a month since my last post. I feel like I keep moving farther away from this site and everyone on it. When I first became a part of this community I was definitely more involved. It was also so new and exciting. I feel like there's more going on in my life that I am paying attention to now and I'm sure it doesn't help that I have the crappiest computer and dial up right now. I get so frustrated with the speed of this thing. Once I get my own place I plan on changing that.
My own place. I'd like to say that I've been on my own since I was 19. I moved out of my mom's when I was 19 to a place I had never been, where I knew absolutely no one and moved in with somebody. That didn't work out. I moved into a friend's that I had met through SG. She was kind enough to help me out. Let me stay with her, helped with groceries and such. I was looking for a job but was not succesful. I had met a guy through her at an SG party. He was very kind. He ended up taking me in. He took a lot of care of me. It was with him I finally found a job. It was with him that I learned how to get my shit together. We had a good relationship. Some people looked down on our relationship because he was much older than I was. At times it was a little weird for me because I felt like he was some kind of father figure. He was gone for most of our relationship because of his job but even in our conversations over the phone he was very helpful in keeping me in line on my new journey in adulthood. I met many great people some who I consider good friends through SG. SG Seattle helped me to feel more at home in my new world. But it was 6 months later that I found myself moving back to Florida to be with my ex. We had dated all throughout high school. A lot of ups and a hell of a lot of downs. But things were good. We had our time apart..our time to grow. And surprisingly we had both grown in so many ways in those 6 months. We got our own place and it was then that I was actually paying rent and bills. Working full time and moving up in the business. For just over two years things were great. We were great. Being on my own was great. All of a sudden...I felt that I needed a change. I never wanted us to end but that's what it came to. I was supposed to move to Los Angeles but never did. However, I did end up back in WA for a few months and now here I am living back at my mother's house. There's nothing wrong with that but after 3 years of having my own place it's weird and I feel like went backwards in life. I have since started dating somebody. We are both at a turning point in our lives and we are going through it together. He helps me out and I help him out. It's weird. It's a completely different kind of relationship than I had with my ex. We dated for 7 years off and on and we never had this kind of relationship. I'm not saying that it's bad...we definitely had something. He will always be in my thoughts. But I am happy where I am at in life. I know things are going to better. They're going to back to normal again soon. I have a car, I'll be getting my own place and hopefully going back to school soon.
I guess what I'm trying to say is...SG, I am sorry for not being a big part of this site lately but I appreciate everything I've ever gotten out of this community but I am going through another turn point in my life and am trying to pay close attention to it.
My own place. I'd like to say that I've been on my own since I was 19. I moved out of my mom's when I was 19 to a place I had never been, where I knew absolutely no one and moved in with somebody. That didn't work out. I moved into a friend's that I had met through SG. She was kind enough to help me out. Let me stay with her, helped with groceries and such. I was looking for a job but was not succesful. I had met a guy through her at an SG party. He was very kind. He ended up taking me in. He took a lot of care of me. It was with him I finally found a job. It was with him that I learned how to get my shit together. We had a good relationship. Some people looked down on our relationship because he was much older than I was. At times it was a little weird for me because I felt like he was some kind of father figure. He was gone for most of our relationship because of his job but even in our conversations over the phone he was very helpful in keeping me in line on my new journey in adulthood. I met many great people some who I consider good friends through SG. SG Seattle helped me to feel more at home in my new world. But it was 6 months later that I found myself moving back to Florida to be with my ex. We had dated all throughout high school. A lot of ups and a hell of a lot of downs. But things were good. We had our time apart..our time to grow. And surprisingly we had both grown in so many ways in those 6 months. We got our own place and it was then that I was actually paying rent and bills. Working full time and moving up in the business. For just over two years things were great. We were great. Being on my own was great. All of a sudden...I felt that I needed a change. I never wanted us to end but that's what it came to. I was supposed to move to Los Angeles but never did. However, I did end up back in WA for a few months and now here I am living back at my mother's house. There's nothing wrong with that but after 3 years of having my own place it's weird and I feel like went backwards in life. I have since started dating somebody. We are both at a turning point in our lives and we are going through it together. He helps me out and I help him out. It's weird. It's a completely different kind of relationship than I had with my ex. We dated for 7 years off and on and we never had this kind of relationship. I'm not saying that it's bad...we definitely had something. He will always be in my thoughts. But I am happy where I am at in life. I know things are going to better. They're going to back to normal again soon. I have a car, I'll be getting my own place and hopefully going back to school soon.
I guess what I'm trying to say is...SG, I am sorry for not being a big part of this site lately but I appreciate everything I've ever gotten out of this community but I am going through another turn point in my life and am trying to pay close attention to it.
To me, you ae not the fun loving eccentric daughter that I once knew, and this is a whole different side of you I never knew. But maybe you are growing up and changing as a person. I love you either way. But I do feel us drifting apart these days, and again, that could just be you trying to be your own person.