I share an opinion not my own now, though in many ways I agree!
There are two things that I have come to realize. One is that it is scary to wake up in the morning and realize you have no idea where your life is headed. The second is, that it is even scarier to realize that this puts you in the same boat as ninety percent of the people around you. Some people say it is the journey that counts and not the destination. I disagree. You can't go on a journey without having a destination. There is a word for going on a journey without knowing where you are or where you are headed. Lost.
The journey and the destination are two parts of a single entity. We spend most of our lives striving for a certain goal, and less than a moment revelling in our success. So how is time spent in between sucesses and failures? It certainly shouldn't be spent worrying about all the little things that go wrong. Life will always change, and so do plans. Things will always go wrong, but often times success comes in ways we weren't expecting. Control over life is an illusion. We can only control our reactions to the challenges it presents us and which direction we point ourselves.
Life isn't scary, nor is death. But to look back on your life and realize you havent lived, that is a tradgedy. That is the thing that scares me the most. the thought of wasting such a precious gift.
So how's this for a toast? Here's to living life, making mistakes, making friends and falling in love. And here's another toast; To those who love us, who aren't afraid to call us on bullshit, and those people that are there when we think our world is falling apart.
"I had always heard your entire life flashes in front of your eyes the second before you die. First of all, that one second isn't a second at all, it stretches on forever, like an ocean of time... For me, it was lying on my back at Boy Scout camp, watching falling stars... And yellow leaves, from the maple trees, that lined my street... Or my grandmother's hands, and the way her skin seemed like paper... And the first time I saw my cousin Tony's brand new Firebird... And Janie... And Janie... And... Carolyn. I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me... but it's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst... And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life... You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. But don't worry... you will someday"
-American Beauty
A good friend once told me that he was only as good as the people he surrounded himself with. He said he was not a complete person on his own, but in fact he was a piece of everyone he has ever cared about. He was right.
To all of my friends, I hope you all find happiness in your life, because you have all brought plenty to mine.
How can you thank someone for giving you a part of themselves and never expecting anything in return, or for being part of a moment that shapes you? How can make them understand in mere words, that they are your life? I don't know that you can, I can try though.
Thank you, for making my life rich.