Hello, my name is Aadie Lee Suicide...
On Saturday night I lost My friend Andrew to lymphoma. I really don't have the vocabulary to express how much this hurts. The rabbit holes falls deep.. The Canadian health care system failed him. Pretentious 'Doctors' need to pay money out of pocket for specific tests... Instead they're deemed unnecessary and over looked.... The Result. ..
1. I will never see him smile again.
2. I will never hear his laugh again.
3. I will never listen to his stories again.
4. We will never party together again.
5. He will no longer physically experience our world.
6. He's actually gone.
There is sooo many other things I want to express but I just can't. I feel hollow with void. I feel stuck with loss.
Yes.. Stuck.. Its weird. I want to be angery, I want to scream. I want to curse..But all I can muster is tears and hyper ventilation ....and that wont even help me.
I knew you were going to leave us Andrew... But i was really never redly prepared.
To make matters worse.. in theory.. I am told.. Andrew, knowing his life was nearing its end on our planet... He told all of us that he was getting better and since some of us hadn't visited.. 'I'll see you when i'm out," he said.
Saturday I received a phone call while running on the treadmill at the gym.. Andrew was gone.
Like a rabbit loses its last breath in the mouth of the hunting dog.. I felt my breath escape me and lungs collapse.. I struggled off of the stupid fucking treadmill.
Im sorry Andrew... I wish I had come ad seen you again.
I wish I had.
and I hate myself.
I love you, You really are/were wonderful.
I seriously will miss your physical presence.
Only the good die young, Rest softly andrew of 23 years, I'm so sorry.
My Heart goes out to your family...
Oh its hurts so much.
On Saturday night I lost My friend Andrew to lymphoma. I really don't have the vocabulary to express how much this hurts. The rabbit holes falls deep.. The Canadian health care system failed him. Pretentious 'Doctors' need to pay money out of pocket for specific tests... Instead they're deemed unnecessary and over looked.... The Result. ..
1. I will never see him smile again.
2. I will never hear his laugh again.
3. I will never listen to his stories again.
4. We will never party together again.
5. He will no longer physically experience our world.
6. He's actually gone.
There is sooo many other things I want to express but I just can't. I feel hollow with void. I feel stuck with loss.
Yes.. Stuck.. Its weird. I want to be angery, I want to scream. I want to curse..But all I can muster is tears and hyper ventilation ....and that wont even help me.
I knew you were going to leave us Andrew... But i was really never redly prepared.
To make matters worse.. in theory.. I am told.. Andrew, knowing his life was nearing its end on our planet... He told all of us that he was getting better and since some of us hadn't visited.. 'I'll see you when i'm out," he said.
Saturday I received a phone call while running on the treadmill at the gym.. Andrew was gone.
Like a rabbit loses its last breath in the mouth of the hunting dog.. I felt my breath escape me and lungs collapse.. I struggled off of the stupid fucking treadmill.
Im sorry Andrew... I wish I had come ad seen you again.
I wish I had.
and I hate myself.
I love you, You really are/were wonderful.
I seriously will miss your physical presence.
Only the good die young, Rest softly andrew of 23 years, I'm so sorry.
My Heart goes out to your family...
Oh its hurts so much.
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Hope you're ok Aadie.