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I hear you sister.
xoxo

It's all within your control, if you'll just take control. Don't allow those disgusting hands from your past prevent you from being happy and comfortable in your own skin now.

Your youth will only be over when you accept that it's over.

I'm aiming to stay young til the day I die.

Sorry about your dad. My family has always been there for me, so I can only imagine how bad it feels when that isn't the case. Thinking about you - hope you find a solution soon.

i'm really sorry i missed your journal before you took it down, i hope you are doing ok.

maybe not all the things you fight for are useless. it's weird but depression steals a lot of energy, maybe thats why you feel so tired

I don't think you are depressive, but from your previous blog I though you were a little depressed, that's all. This might be just a "I don't care" phase, better than be stressed right?

Humanity isn't one thing, good or bad. We're an infinitely complicated mixture of every possible color of the spectrum. The path to happiness isn't to deny all the bad - it's simply to shift focus ever so slightly slightly in the direction of the good. I think you are starting to make that transition, but there are bound to be some fits and starts. Just keep fighting to not let the inevitable negative stuff push you into the darkness.

Nobody is perfect, but some are vastly less perfect than others. The fact that we're all human does not in any way imply that we're all the same. Try to focus on the things that are in your control, and not so much on the things that aren't. You can't control all the crazy stuff other people do. Just concentrate on being the best, strongest person you can be, and try to reward good behavior and good-heartedness when you find it in others. Sure, a lot of folks do a lot of bad things, but that doesn't in any way prevent you from living your life the way you want to.

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It is often difficult to break cycles. There is always the question of if I finish this what will be next? and staring into the abyss of the unknown is difficult, but to change you must jump off the cliff and see where you land. Good luck with it.

Souvenirs!

love red heads. you'll look great.

i bet it really looks great on you too!!!!! hope you feel better soon hun!!!!

Ahhh... well this is something that truly you have to follow your base instinct and your heart for. I stopped going out for a long time because personally many things were (and some still) not right with how I felt about others. I am also a musician, now solo, and I can tell you that it isn't easy sometimes. To get people to see what you are on the inside is sometimes only something that time alone can help you with.

In my humble opinion, from some of your photos, I can definitely see that there is easily so much more to your character, which is why I find you adorable and real. I am touched (as I'm sure others are too) and happy to know you exist. For a lot of us humble souls, that is all we could hope for to keep it together in such a world. Let me say that I for one, stand by whatever you decide as long as it makes you happy, and helps you evolve to that beautiful human being you deserve to be. There's always MySpace to keep in contact with those you have grow to call friends in the end.

Meilleurs voeux mon cherie, et vous bnisse!