my best friend amy was here for all of memorial day weekend, and, as always seems to happen whenever we hang out, life was spicey, surprising and...ahem...eventful.
on friday we dressed as vintage tarts and promoted for a peaches show on sunday in the party van, complete with strobe lights, smoke machine and loud music.
on saturday we met a pirate and he...
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on friday we dressed as vintage tarts and promoted for a peaches show on sunday in the party van, complete with strobe lights, smoke machine and loud music.
on saturday we met a pirate and he...
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my favoritist poet in the whole wide world is Mary Oliver. she won the pulitzer prize for poetry, and for me, reading her is like finally being given oxygen. especially because no one else has ever been able to say so precisely all that i think and know and feel about nature...not only the nature of this green earth, but also the nature of...
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oldgreeneyes:
I just discovered you. I'm sorry. I'm a little slow sometimes.
This is March from M.O. It's my favorite of hers.
"There isn't anything in this world but mad love. Not in this world. No tame love, calm love, mild love, no so-so love. And, of course, no reasonable love. Also there are a hundred paths through the world that are easier than loving. But, who wants easier? We dream of love, we moon about, thinking of Romeo and Juliet, or Tristan, or the lost queen rushing away over the Irish sea, all doom and splendor. Today, on the beach, an old man was sitting in the sun. I called out to him, and he turned. His face was like an empty pot. I remember his tall, pale wife; she died long ago. I remember his daughter-in-law. When she died, hard, and too young, he wept in the streets. He picked up pieces of wood, and stones, and anything else that was there, and threw them at the sea. Oh, how he loved his wife. Oh, how he loved his young Barbara. I stood in front of him, not expecting any answer yet not wanting to pass without some greeting. But his face had gone back to whatever he was dreaming. Something touched me, lightly, like a knife-blade. I felt I was bleeding, though just a little, a hint. Inside I flared hot, then cold. I thought of you. Whom I love, madly."
peace, joy and love
This is March from M.O. It's my favorite of hers.
"There isn't anything in this world but mad love. Not in this world. No tame love, calm love, mild love, no so-so love. And, of course, no reasonable love. Also there are a hundred paths through the world that are easier than loving. But, who wants easier? We dream of love, we moon about, thinking of Romeo and Juliet, or Tristan, or the lost queen rushing away over the Irish sea, all doom and splendor. Today, on the beach, an old man was sitting in the sun. I called out to him, and he turned. His face was like an empty pot. I remember his tall, pale wife; she died long ago. I remember his daughter-in-law. When she died, hard, and too young, he wept in the streets. He picked up pieces of wood, and stones, and anything else that was there, and threw them at the sea. Oh, how he loved his wife. Oh, how he loved his young Barbara. I stood in front of him, not expecting any answer yet not wanting to pass without some greeting. But his face had gone back to whatever he was dreaming. Something touched me, lightly, like a knife-blade. I felt I was bleeding, though just a little, a hint. Inside I flared hot, then cold. I thought of you. Whom I love, madly."
peace, joy and love
oldgreeneyes:
mad love that is
i went and looked at a room last night in the upper haight. a beautiful old victorian, very classic and well kept, but not so polished that you feel uncomfortable. six people living there, all ages, all interests. they felt good to me. a full two stories, roof access, washer and dryer. 2 blocks from the haight (which also means no parking EVER). the downstairs...
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nickfaust:
Having just moved after 12 years in the same place, I can testify to its soul cleansing properties.
I have found letting go of attachments and bringing myself into the present to be a lifelong, but sublime exercise.
While we had enough space to bring the things that we had accumulated, we left behind friends and family that had been our sense of connection to the earth. We are now having to forge new connections.
Always a slow thing as I thrive on isolation, but a good thing nonetheless.
Good luck.
I have found letting go of attachments and bringing myself into the present to be a lifelong, but sublime exercise.
While we had enough space to bring the things that we had accumulated, we left behind friends and family that had been our sense of connection to the earth. We are now having to forge new connections.
Always a slow thing as I thrive on isolation, but a good thing nonetheless.
Good luck.
frenchy:
A fresh start is a blessing....
let's play 100 questions. thank you to Quinne for the list. answer as many or few as you like. here we go!
1. First grade teacher's name: Ms. Schrader. the scarey thing is, i almost couldn't remember!
2. Last person you kissed: seth
3. Last words you said: "oh yeah? did it start raining?"
4. Last song you sang: 'smokin in the boy's room' by...
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1. First grade teacher's name: Ms. Schrader. the scarey thing is, i almost couldn't remember!
2. Last person you kissed: seth
3. Last words you said: "oh yeah? did it start raining?"
4. Last song you sang: 'smokin in the boy's room' by...
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bombshellbetty:
Okay, where's my lollipop? And my hug? 
stellafly:
1. First grade teacher's name: Mrs. Franken
2. Last person you kissed: Wes
4. Last song you sang: 'Knights In White Satin'
5. Last person you hugged: Nat, she's so stressed about our project that I had to comfort her!
6. Last thing you laughed at: Chris standing on Hiske's feet then falling off (an acrobatic move.......of some sort)
8. What's in your CD player:: Tragic Kingdom by No Doubt
10. What's under your bed: Suitcases and porn
11. Current status: Single and breathing
12. Current taste: Let's see......indie vs flapper vs boho vs Sloaney
16. Current longing: The man who I have known for so long. Happiness. To pass my first year at uni.
21. Current favorite article of clothing: A new Sgt. Pepper style jacket. Just call me Ringo baby, love, love me do.
22. Favorite physical feature(s) of the opposite sex: Eyes, hair, arse, nose
23. Last CD that you bought: It was really old compilation album from a charity shop.
24. Favorite place to be: The gardens at dawn.
29. Current favorite word/saying: Brutal
35. Favorite day: Every day
41. A random lyric: 'Always, I know, you'll be at my show, watching, waiting, comiserating'.
DESCRIBE...
47. Your heritage: Scottish, Irish, German
48. The shoes you wore today: Tan riding boots
DO YOU...
65. Smoke: yes, ocassionally
68. Take a shower everyday: Yes.
69. Have a crush: Yes
71. Think you've been in love: No.
74. Want to get married: yes
78. Get along with your parents: yes
IN THE PAST 3 MONTHS:
80. drink: yes
81. smoke: yes
82. done a drug: nicotine and alcohol count? Other than that no.
83. made out: yes
84. go on a date: yes
HAVE YOU EVER
96. gotten beaten up: Er.........yes. That is why I dumped him.
97. changed who you were to fit in: yup
98. cried at something beautiful: Yes.
100. cried when someone died: of course.
[Edited on May 12, 2005 3:05PM]
2. Last person you kissed: Wes
4. Last song you sang: 'Knights In White Satin'
5. Last person you hugged: Nat, she's so stressed about our project that I had to comfort her!
6. Last thing you laughed at: Chris standing on Hiske's feet then falling off (an acrobatic move.......of some sort)
8. What's in your CD player:: Tragic Kingdom by No Doubt
10. What's under your bed: Suitcases and porn
11. Current status: Single and breathing
12. Current taste: Let's see......indie vs flapper vs boho vs Sloaney
16. Current longing: The man who I have known for so long. Happiness. To pass my first year at uni.
21. Current favorite article of clothing: A new Sgt. Pepper style jacket. Just call me Ringo baby, love, love me do.
22. Favorite physical feature(s) of the opposite sex: Eyes, hair, arse, nose
23. Last CD that you bought: It was really old compilation album from a charity shop.
24. Favorite place to be: The gardens at dawn.
29. Current favorite word/saying: Brutal
35. Favorite day: Every day
41. A random lyric: 'Always, I know, you'll be at my show, watching, waiting, comiserating'.
DESCRIBE...
47. Your heritage: Scottish, Irish, German
48. The shoes you wore today: Tan riding boots
DO YOU...
65. Smoke: yes, ocassionally
68. Take a shower everyday: Yes.
69. Have a crush: Yes
71. Think you've been in love: No.
74. Want to get married: yes
78. Get along with your parents: yes
IN THE PAST 3 MONTHS:
80. drink: yes
81. smoke: yes
82. done a drug: nicotine and alcohol count? Other than that no.
83. made out: yes
84. go on a date: yes
HAVE YOU EVER
96. gotten beaten up: Er.........yes. That is why I dumped him.
97. changed who you were to fit in: yup
98. cried at something beautiful: Yes.
100. cried when someone died: of course.
[Edited on May 12, 2005 3:05PM]
oh my god that was so hard. i feel flayed.
tell me what you love right now.
tell me what you love right now.
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zenasskickin:
I love life and the fact it gives you the chance to learn from everything that comes your way... good or bad
that and pets.
that and pets.
i feel opened like a can of sardines....my defenses peeled back, exposing soft, oily, salty tenderness. such deep healing this last week, these last few days.
dov is moving out...a perfect situation landed in his lap. and so here's the end of this chapter, of these last 8 months of challenge, adversity, anxiety, softening and love. there's been many teary conversations and expressions of deep...
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dov is moving out...a perfect situation landed in his lap. and so here's the end of this chapter, of these last 8 months of challenge, adversity, anxiety, softening and love. there's been many teary conversations and expressions of deep...
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retroactivwe:
I'm curious to know how things turned out. You and I are sooo different. Even though I know it would be meeting her on her level, furthering the drama, being unbudda-like, etc, I would pummel her with sracasm and snark and then figure out a way to force her out.
Hopefully you know I'm not a complete aggro asshole; if you're a freind I'll do anything for you, but if you act in a way that's hostile to me or my freinds I will not let it continue.
Hopefully you know I'm not a complete aggro asshole; if you're a freind I'll do anything for you, but if you act in a way that's hostile to me or my freinds I will not let it continue.
papawheelie:
im having a 'tigerlily rocks' moment so I thought I'd come do it here. thanks for your email. sorry about my raging phoenix virgo on the rise... he burns up without much fanfare for the most part but he still has his moments. "it's an outrage!" "I'm going to write my congressman!" *flash*
you wanna have big screen movie night with ultra-violet and I this next week? we can pig out on vegan snacks and whatnot ( i.e. chocolate )
you wanna have big screen movie night with ultra-violet and I this next week? we can pig out on vegan snacks and whatnot ( i.e. chocolate )
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funktion:
hehe thanks 
yeah happy and scared, i just don't put that all down. 
its interesting, I didn't know what to expect, and I still don't i guess, I'm just winging it! I just hope to really learn some things about myself, and also have some cool experiences. though at this point, im still in the "if i really think about what i'm doing too much I freak out" phase, so I'm just enjoying each day..
first lesson I learned.. Sleep is expensive
hope you are well as always!!
yeah happy and scared, i just don't put that all down.
its interesting, I didn't know what to expect, and I still don't i guess, I'm just winging it! I just hope to really learn some things about myself, and also have some cool experiences. though at this point, im still in the "if i really think about what i'm doing too much I freak out" phase, so I'm just enjoying each day..
first lesson I learned.. Sleep is expensive
hope you are well as always!!
bombshellbetty:
Done. Now you go give Sailor Billy a for me...
for me...aaa!!! yay!!! it happened again! it's weird and i feel like i've won some sort of lottery i didn't know i'd entered, but it sure is wonderful!
another surprise gift from amazon arrived this morning...the 'suicide girls' book!!! yes, i know it's insane that i didn't have it yet...and oh it's wonderful....everyone is gathered in my kitchen right now looking at it.
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another surprise gift from amazon arrived this morning...the 'suicide girls' book!!! yes, i know it's insane that i didn't have it yet...and oh it's wonderful....everyone is gathered in my kitchen right now looking at it.
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melli:
It's like xmas all year round.
cast:
The book?! *hangs paws in front of panting face* I didn't know there was . . . . . . . a book.
i'll give you a nickle if you can tell me where "twitterpated" comes from.
and no fair googling it.
i'll tell you one thing,
it's spring, and i'm definately all twitterpated.
and no fair googling it.
i'll tell you one thing,
it's spring, and i'm definately all twitterpated.
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abigorna:
id love to see you dancing
dappergatsby:
hey hey my fantastic wonder of a Lady and
kind supportive friend of mine!
I'm estatic that you're feelin' fancy free!
Oh if only I were nearer, I'd be dancin' in the streets,
showering you with flowers for hours!
Oh and as for the origns of "twitterpated"
Well, I'll not google as you've asked but I do have an
inside lead on it I believe!
I'm a big movie buff and I LOVE the ole classics the best.
In 1936 Frank Capra made quite a populist masterpiece called
Mr. Deeds Goes to Town
starring the ever groovy Gary Cooper.
(not to be confused w/ that pablum the Sandler remake I'm sure was)
Well in a climactic courtroom scene where the local yokels are trying to prove that Cooper's crazy for giving away the dough..
they call as witnesses two elderly prude types..
you know, real pollyannas..
who proceed to exclaim that Mr. Deeds has always been funny in the head,
eccentric so to speak..
they refer to him as "twitterpated"
then of course they claim everyone else in the town is twitterpated and the defense crumbles!
It's a delightful flick and I'm sure I haven't ruined too much of the climax since it's a feel good kinda movie.
I think your sense of being all twitterpated
is much more tempting!
love, love, love
to you!
~J
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kind supportive friend of mine!
I'm estatic that you're feelin' fancy free!
Oh if only I were nearer, I'd be dancin' in the streets,
showering you with flowers for hours!
Oh and as for the origns of "twitterpated"
Well, I'll not google as you've asked but I do have an
inside lead on it I believe!
I'm a big movie buff and I LOVE the ole classics the best.
In 1936 Frank Capra made quite a populist masterpiece called
Mr. Deeds Goes to Town
starring the ever groovy Gary Cooper.
(not to be confused w/ that pablum the Sandler remake I'm sure was)
Well in a climactic courtroom scene where the local yokels are trying to prove that Cooper's crazy for giving away the dough..
they call as witnesses two elderly prude types..
you know, real pollyannas..
who proceed to exclaim that Mr. Deeds has always been funny in the head,
eccentric so to speak..
they refer to him as "twitterpated"
then of course they claim everyone else in the town is twitterpated and the defense crumbles!
It's a delightful flick and I'm sure I haven't ruined too much of the climax since it's a feel good kinda movie.
I think your sense of being all twitterpated
is much more tempting!
love, love, love
to you!
~J
[Edited on Apr 12, 2005 6:43AM]
ok. which one of you did it?
i received a gift off my wish list yesterday...from someone i don't know. thank you! whoever you are!
it's "A People's History of the United States" by Howard Zinn. any of you kids read it?
so funny too, because just the day before i was thinking about "Apocalypse Now" which i had just seen for the first time...
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i received a gift off my wish list yesterday...from someone i don't know. thank you! whoever you are!
it's "A People's History of the United States" by Howard Zinn. any of you kids read it?
so funny too, because just the day before i was thinking about "Apocalypse Now" which i had just seen for the first time...
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zode:
Do tell is the mystery solved?
tahliana:
wow thats so bizarre!!!!!! its the sg collective conscience for SUREEEE. xcoxoxo did you get my email btw?
there was a comment posted in my journal yesterday, from one Ms. Rose Marie. she is an absolute heart's delight, and my own aches everytime i remember she's far away in texas. but then i also feel so much gratitude, for having spent the little bit of time with her that i did. and most of all, that the time spent was quality enough, that...
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rosemarie:
You are so sweet, Tigerlily.
Come to Austin!
Come to Austin!
bombshellbetty:
We didn't do coffee this weekend, so I hope you're free this Sunday night. I emailed you!
yesterday i did DMT. 
it was wonderful.
read here only if you are really bored and have no idea what DMT is. and it doesn't really describe my experience at all.
i don't know that i can describe the experience. just that it was gentle, and lovely, and i want to do it again very soon.
it was wonderful.
read here only if you are really bored and have no idea what DMT is. and it doesn't really describe my experience at all.
i don't know that i can describe the experience. just that it was gentle, and lovely, and i want to do it again very soon.
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papawheelie:
mmmm, mothballs...
careful posting stuff like that in public hon, it _is_ illegal you know.
careful posting stuff like that in public hon, it _is_ illegal you know.
rosemarie:
You have a new testimonial, kitty cat. 
...and how about some recordings of Leo's Metal Song
So let's plan to meet up next week after you get back. Have a fabulous, sparkly and feathery time out there. It's going to be so amazing. Please take lots of pictures!!!