rainwolfkin

its ok I know you didnt mean it in a nasty way, it just made me think a bit. Im usually overloaded with emotions which creates dramatic situations. In a way I've been concious enough of that and want to move away from that and switch off my emotions in a way. Of course you change one aspect of your personality, purposely or not, and it changes the balance of yourself so I've become more of a physical person - someone who wants to experience stuff, consume stuff rather than let my head judge whether im happy or not with things. Am I allowed a Smith's quote? Pllllease?!

'does the body rule the mind or the mind rule the body?'

Well my mind wasnt doing a good job so he has been relegated for the time being. I realize that by becoming more outgoing and forward as a person I will probably create more drama..but jesus, what can you do?

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your accent...is cute. You know what? I do think your voice is a little strange compared to other Americans Ive spoken to but thats cool. Sometimes when we talk, the first line you say to me makes me notice your accent but from then on I just hear C talk. I hope you are not paranoid about it, Ive been called Welsh & Australian before by Americans ..hehe

Manchester doesn't have any cool castles, but we do have a Roman fort! Sort of. Bit of a reconstruction of the original built by Julius Agricola back in 79 AD, with a couple of trenches that look to the casual observer as if they might have been the legion latrines. 'Manchester' is a corruption of the Latin 'Mamucium', or 'breast like hill'. Yes, it was named - hopefully by homesick legionaries, starved of female company and in a dismal, unfamiliar land - after a pair of tits.

I loved sin city! See it again without having to do the peepee dance. It was a great movie. It's just so different from any other movie I've seen.
You don't really need to read the graphic novels first. I didn't!

BATMAN ROCKS. Seriously, the new Batman flick is VERY well done. There is some very good dialogue in the beginning, and very good character development throughout. I'd tell you more but I don't want to spoil it for ya.

what a vigorous Protestant work ethic you have

flex those proletarian muscles, baby

I find physical labor - hard physical labor (hauling freight for Wal-Mart) to be stimulating to my creativity

in the end there just aren't enough hours in the day - and you must make choices that enhance your life

I love solving analytical problems - and I love working with my hands

my application to the international brotherhood of electrical workers is pending - I have to pay my dues and test into an apprenticeship either as a construction electrician or as a lineman (more dangerous and more lucrative)

thanks for the birthday wishes! Too bad I'm off to work, but LA and my chums are waiting for me!

ps. you should go be friends with my new profile while I'm waiting for official status. My name is kayliane

Just cruzin by on my way to the outer limits.

SAAAAAArrrrth-end.

I'd have said what Leola said, but she beat me to it. Some are still nice and profitable and well kept, but some, nooooo and have never successfully regenerated. Cleethorpes from up north is getting to be the northern equivilant. Which is sad for those who live there.

They're fun though, pure simple fun. And still, in this "modern day and age" (sounding old now) a good place for families to spend time together.

Hey the mods were ok..some good polo shirts them boys.

The best thing about Southend? Being able to leave it..

How's robo-arm girl today?

Oh my god...you disgust me!

Well I only came along to the picnic to see Mr Danger obviously...oh, Im mean arent i?

Hey you know that I like spending time with you in the kids corner. A round of frappucinos and good company..what could be better?

OUCH!!!

Are you getting the whole arm done in black to cover up another tattoo?

We had a great time too yesterday! Looking very forward to seeing you too

Hope your picnic went well and lots of fun and frivolity was had by all

Yeah 600 emails, it's bloody crazy! Penis extensions, viagra, scam eBay and Paypal emails.........the list goes on!

Love and kisses
Michelle xx

well I'd scheduled a lunch/meeting with the more easy-going of the 2 bosses, but when I turned up the other more hard-assed one, who I don't get on with, was there too.

Basicly I don't think they like me much on a personal level (that's OK, it's mutual) as I'm not the kiss-ass company man, but I've consistantly delivered, have more filming experience than almost anyone else in the company and the clients like me, often becoming friends... they need me more than I need them etc.

But over the last few months, they've been fucking me around, promising one thing doing another, taking projects off me... basicly my attitude/response has been angry and I just asked what plans they had because they weren't really using me and what was I doing there.

I didn't really expect to get fired unless it got heated and I or they said something we'd regret. Though to be honest part of me wished they would as it would be the kick up the arse I probably need to really make this going independent thing happen. Of course the whole time the last several months I'm secretly pitching and approaching for independent gigs, but it's a lean time in UK film-making and they know a lot of people.. so I have to be careful.

Ultimately I'm not worried (I could probably walk into any of the 3 or 4 major rivals and get a job tomorrow), but I am fucking frustrated.

Anyway the meeting could have gone better, 2 against 1 it started as largely a criticism of me, but I did stump them several times along the lines of:
'We're not happy with when you did/said this...'
"well that's because you did this... and at the time you said this..."
'oh yes.... sorry - our mistake, that was wrong of us'

ultimately no real resolution, so I don't know where it's headed. Keep taking the money for the moment while I plot secretly, take the holiday soon that they owe me and then with any luck resign; feels like the plan for now

jeez what an essay... how you doin'?

as sailor would say "rockin' good news!"

where'd you have in mind?

Thats quite allright. I hope things are better.

The idea of a picnic sounds lovely. I imagine we can all go for a drinking session afterwards under the leadership of Mr Bateman.

I will bring veggie burgers.

Uuuh...seems as if my hangover is more firmly entrenched than I anticipated...I will write tomorrow I promise, when I hopefully will have a couple of neurons firing. That's assuming, of course, that I have any left after Sunday. Ouch.

x

*drool* coffe cake... I agree on the said yumminess.

One of my old roommates was a stripper! She always had some crazy stories about what went on at her club.

I once made Expresso Cupcakes. Man, those were strong coffee.

I've seen that happen far too many times. At least in my interpretation of your story. A person will take another under their wing and care for them, and help them out any way they need. It may seem selfless at first, but that is not always the case.
Sometimes the giver really is trying to make the receiver fully dependant on him. The giver needs to be needed and will find a person to fit that role. This can turn into a very possessive, controlling, and competitive relationship.
This has happened to friends of mine, and even(I suspect) to my parents. It usually goes unnoticed though.

(hug)