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Haha that's too funny. Yeah you missed a good one. The venue was amazing. It was worth going just to see the second (kinda mid floor thingy) and third floors of the Penthouse. the third floor was pretty cool! Hopefully they keep having it there.

i think we may be stuck on the same boat...where's gopher when you need him?!

I have missed your journal entries, but am sorry to read one such as this.

I can relate to a lot of what you say here. There was a time when you were doing more living, and that time will come again.

Question is - how to get through things as they are now......I know your grandma died, maybe that has something to do with it? In addition to the slow decent, as you put it, her death maybe was a catalyst for a lot of old feelings on top of what you were already struggling with. Which would include the death of your dear Morgan. I'm completely guessing here, but those are some pretty major losses....

I would not like to see your name gone from my friends list, but I can understand feeling like this place isn't of much use right now.

I hope things get better sooner rather than later. Take the best care of yourself that you can, whatever way you can. Email me to vent if you want to.

hi, long lost friend here stopping in and wondering how you're doing.

it sounds as if yyour grandma passed in a really nice state of mind...being reminded of something in her life that meant alot to her and could bring a smile to her face. i sometimes wonder about that moment of dying, if it's anything like the "set and setting" theory on LSD that (i think) Timothy leary talked alot about; he was taliking about a drug experience and how your state of mind at the beginning of the experience can affect and influence your entire experience-i don't know exactly what i mean, but like, if you die while in a certain mindset, especially if it is positive, could that open your spirit up somehow to all the incredible richness, both beautiful and ugly, of life and death? i think i might be babbling a little, but you're journal entry just sent my mind in a few different directions! I've always found death as a concept to be fairly simple; you live and so you must die. case closed. Of course, when someone close to you passes away, it makes that simplicity become profoundly awe-inspiring.

Wow...beautifully written sadness...I found myself feeling right along with you. Thank you for sharing this with us. I hope the sadness breaks a bit for a beam of celebration of the long life of memories that your Grandma experienced. Simply beautiful tribute.

Go ahead and ask her those things. I lost a pair of grandparents to alzheimers (well technically complications due to Alzheimer's - like AIDS it doesn't actually kill you directly).

But do it. As the short term memory disconnects, there are some incredible connections to long term memories, and as strange as it sounds engaging in conversation (instead of 'thats nice') is more likely to lead to a few precious lucid moments. They get to be very few and very far between at a point, but they're certainly worth having.

Good luck.

~Trilo~

How wonderful for the both of you that you are really there. My thoughts are with both of you.

It was good to read an entry from you.

Where is the UpDate?

Understatement of the year.

Poor sad little mice....

wow I didn't know that about mice. Apparently I should be stuffing bulbs of garlic in my ceiling then.

Happy Birthday

i suck and am most late on this.
but happy birthday.

Happy Birthday!

Happy Birthday.

I wouldn't survive without wireless.

Where have you been?

That's what happens when you surf wireless.

When I get back give me all the details from last Saturday's party.

Merry Holidays to you. I've thought about you all the time doing this turkey thing on my own. I'll let you know how it turns out! Hope you are haveing a great one!