mirima

I recently realized lately that when I talk to people, I stare at their mouths. When I notice this, I try to look into their eyes, because I think that's more respectful. I'm not sure why I do this though.

I fell for it again...sadness.

I've been talking to my dear friend Carolyn, from high school. We liked each other in high school, and we still like each other now. We talk everyday, and laugh, we're really into each other. We've been listening to Tegan and Sara, and she's coming to visit me in December. I think she might be the person I want to be with. I knew when...
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Sometimes I feel like I don't have any real friends. Sometimes I feel like I only exist on the internet. I need something, someone, real in my life.

Alright, I'm officially getting sick of Okcupid. First of all, I've got all these guys who are messaging me asking for sex. Now, I'm having a conversation with some guy who seems totally legit, but now he's bitching at me that I don't write long enough responses. Then, I get some random guy who feels the need to put me down for being polyamorous. Says...
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I'm not sure if you guys heard about the snowstorm we had on the east coast. It was a massive snowstorm on Saturday night, and all of Western Mass lost power. We didn't get power back until Tuesday afternoon. In the meantime, we froze and read by candle light, because that was all we could do. Chicopee got their power back sooner than we did,...
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Still feeling low and discouraged. I am going back to school tomorrow, hopefully I'll be able to get through it. Could use some encouragement and cuddles though.

Ross and Rose broke up with me this weekend. I'm officially single. Not that that's anything to brag about. I loved them more than anything. I guess as my depression got worse, so did my relationships, and they just couldn't do it anymore. I hope they are very happy together. They're done trying to be with me. And I guess I'm done trying to be...
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I just figured out that my ex girlfriend's current girlfriend is a second soprano in Page Singers with me at my school. She stands right next to me. This is awkward.

Also...I just found out I may have conjunctivitis. And I am in a large poly community, with a lot of interconnectedness. Which means if one person gets something, chances are the rest of the...
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I've been invited to join a new D&D campaign that some of my friends are doing. It's a vampire game, and I'm a person, maybe a childe, who has never heard about the game and knows nothing about it, and as I learn about my character, I learn about the game. I haven't developed a character yet, but here are some of my ideas:

Social...
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Having the Jehova's Witnesses come to my door, I always have the compulsion to take all of my clothes off.