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I'm baaaack. For three months it seems. Someone renewed my account.

Thank you, mysterious gifter.

<3
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letigre:
internet stalkers are the best. wink
mro:
Rain says Hi. Well, she would say that but she has my cock in her mouth at the moment so it's more of a mumble.... biggrin
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Since You Heard from Me Last (or: What I Did In August) i had a month long manic episode, broke up with my girlfriend, moved out of her house, moved into a trailer with one of my best friends & a 56 year old man named Bob, moved again to a cute little house in my college town. i've also been seeing a girl who...
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letigre:
youve been busy. smile
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isn't it funny how a knock-down-drag-out explosive fight, which nearly ended when i shoved my girlfriend (behavior which isn't really like me, mind you, but sure as hell used to be) can result in a cleansingly honest conversation...which turns out to be all the relationship really needed the whole time?
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So we're all moved into our new house.

Pics soon...
ria:
friendly is the world at times. cloves, and i see that you're still kicking around this place. i love moving. i love kitchenware.
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my girlfriend is buying a house. it is a cute house. & i get the master bedroom, master bath with jacuzzi tub, TWO (count 'em TWO!) walk-in closets, tray ceilings, & french doors leading out to the back deck with a view. oi. i am a lucky little soul.

the strangest thing -- i don't feel a whole lotta fear about moving in with her....
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rainwolfkin:
funny timing that is because i believe my account expires in a few days or at the end of the month or something...and i'm poor as fuck until i get some full time work.

anyway. i miss you and would love to talk soon. if you have some free time next week drop me a line and let me know when i can call you. we haven't spoken for ages and i have about 4 million things going on at the moment. much to discuss/update. besides, i want to hear how you are too.

and i think its probably a good sign that you are not afraid to move in with your lady. with some people, you just intuitively know that things will go well. i liked you from the start and it still blows me away how you could complete my sentences so quickly after meeting me. (unless i'm just that simple?! shocked )

i love you. kiss
rainwolfkin:
ah, weiner. this brings laughter to my heart.

m'friad i now have exams. but i shall try to call you anyway. cuz i miss ya.

(jacuzzi bath. i am SO envious...i love my baths.)

[Edited on Apr 28, 2006 8:09PM]
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i met Michelle Tea at the Sex Worker's Art Show a few weeks ago!

She's an amazing person, artist, & writer, & is especially cool for starting Sister Spit.

I gave her a signed copy of my girlfriend's book.

I told her I loved her & gave her a hug.

I'm a dork. a lucky one.

blush

letigre:
I love Michelle Tea.

Your gf is a writer? What has she written?
mro:
Dork!

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well, being in graduate school has just about absorbed every single "free" moment i think i must have had not long ago. what did i do in that time? value changes so abruptly, supply & demand baby...

i recently tried to get a slight promotion at work in order to have a more flexible schedule next semester so i can take more than 2 classes...
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rainwolfkin:
witty. i should have ticked witty on your johari.
rainwolfkin:
naw. it wasn't me. although i did call you a week or so ago, but i leave few messages if any unless its important.

my life's a mess at the moment. busy busy and running around all the time. i dont have time to eat or even dress myself properly anymore. when it all settles down for a minute i'll give you a ring. i miss your twang. tongue

kiss
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i went home to NY for the holidays. it was mostly shit. i got to see my sister, though. she'll be 16 next month. woah.

seeing all the people i used to know that didn't make it out of bumfuck nowhere was really depressing. i'm proud, but feel a bit guilty. i'm lucky.

my mother wouldn't let me borrow the car unless i ONLY TOOK...
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rainwolfkin:
woah indeed. i think she was 8 the last time i saw her. i can't picture her driving a car. or even have boobs.

i'm sorry things have fallen to shit with your roomies. at least july isn't too soon...

i miss you. come and live with me. smile

[Edited on Jan 08, 2006 11:26AM]
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i miss the attention span that allowed me to be on suicidegirls for hours. then again, i don't miss the loneliness & despair which gave me the apathy & sloth that bore the attention.

i emanate light.

couldn't fake it if i tried. ooo aaa
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rainwolfkin:
i am so happy that you are beaming. i'm beaming too. biggrin
mro:
It's true what rainwolfkin said - I've seen her beam. Honestly! She looks like this --------> biggrin
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my immune system has called out sick. she's laying in bed, smoking pot, drinking beer, & blowing cigarette smoke into the cold air.

i'd fire her, but she's got too much control. she's never delegated -- she prefers to do everything herself, because then she knows it'll be done properly & to her standards. only she's also a perfectionist -- if she can't get it...
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letigre:
i hope you feel better. frown
rainwolfkin:

we used to talk about shuttling down the side of one of the towers; the first time i mentioned it was when we did acid between our freshman semesters. i remember staring up at them in the crystalline winter, crisp air, numb lips. it seemed the most beautiful way to die. as a last wish, given to fly for only a few seconds. but then, what is a second?



i remember in the early days of acid - i remember that crystalline crisp winter - i remember coming across a tree entirely coated in ice - the beauty of it. what i still find most beautiful is the understanding - the complexities of understanding. between the experience and the person. between you and me.

i've seen so many things and done so many horrible things to myself in search of...something. i miss you. but i've never left you in a way and sometimes feel like that missing isn't so missing after all.

if any of that makes sense.

you know, i loved you the most too. still.

and i danced around the issue because you felt like my soul mate already, so nothing else needed to be done.

i've felt the urge to fly more times than i can count.

i value you because i can say that. because you understand the feeling. and the cold. the winter, the ice - and not its symbology, but the experience of it. the brute down to life 'i am here' and 'it just is' of it all.

i love you.

the words will linger on my tongue perpetually.