lauraelaine

If anyone is going to Cleveland to see Circa Survive play at the Grog Shop on July 6th, you should let me know so that I can hitch a ride with you and give you gas money.

Thank you!

Tomorrow I am turning 21 and I have nothing to show for it.

I have not made any big accomplishments in my life...

I have decided that I am putting aside modeling.

I am sure no one will protest.


I modeling websites and that is the only way I can get contacts. I am too old to be signed to an agency. I am too fat to be skinny. I am too skinny to be fat. My creative juices for exciting shoots is all out. I am sick...
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There is a fire in my heart and he fans it!!!



I fall in love...well, 'love' way too much. I am always falling for random boys. Like...recently, it seems that I keep getting 'woo-ed' by drummers. I have always had a thing for drummers. My mom has always had a thing for drummers too. She has married 2. The first one was my father.

I...
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Last night, I had a dream about my best friend. We have been friends since the 7th grade. I love him.

I love him, love him.

He lives in New Mexico and I live here in Ohio. I would never tell him that I love him and that I want to be with him because I never want to lose him.


In one hand, I...
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It breaks my heart that people can sleep so peacefully with out me next to them.


It is not possible for me to get peaceful sleep when I am alone.

Here I am.








Rock you like a hurricaaaaanee.

The new look of the site excites my emotions.

I am still very ill. I have troubles moving at times due to the pains and the lack of proper breathing abilities and I have little energy. It takes alot out of me to accomplish simple tasks.

I would like very much for someone to heal me and to give me a new amazing job.


Thank...
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I spent close to 10 hrs in the emergency room yesterday. It was not the highlight of my week.

The doctors tell me I am not going to die, but I feel like I might.

I need a new job. My current job is making me contemplate suicide, giving me ulcers, and is making me so miserable that I have a hard time functioning.

If you know someone or are someone that wants to hire me, please message me.

Thank you.

I took my lip jewlery out today for a photoshoot and I am debating wether or not I should put it back in.

Part of me says "Leave it out. You have to take it out for photoshoots all the time." There is another part of me that says "Put that shit back in! Mike will be so disappointed if I let it grow in."...
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Dear friends and loved ones,

316 has suffered a great loss today. One of my babies has passed away. I am in a period of mourning and hope that all of you will understand.


Rest peacefully, dear James.