I always hear or read about "The Good 'Ol Days." I sit and listen as people discuss in great detail what they did when they were young and wild and foolish, even when, supposedly, the still are. Under thirty and you're already old and reminiscing? Lately, in moments of boredom, I flip from journal to journal, and find time and again stories of those old...
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The night is my companion
And solitude my guide
Would I spend forever here,
and not be satisfied?
I'm in love with my bookstore.
I go sometimes, on a whim,when I have a little extra somethng to spend. Going without that somethng extra is a sure way into disaster for me, I'm not compulsive about much, but my books have a hold on me that...
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And solitude my guide
Would I spend forever here,
and not be satisfied?
I'm in love with my bookstore.
I go sometimes, on a whim,when I have a little extra somethng to spend. Going without that somethng extra is a sure way into disaster for me, I'm not compulsive about much, but my books have a hold on me that...
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Isn't it odd how extreme pain and extreme pleasure sound so much alike? Aside from the wet quality of tears in a voice, the patterns of gasps and moans are a largely exact replica.
The observation seems important for some reason.
The observation seems important for some reason.
Heinlein said in one of his books that when confronted with a snake, a child bitches and screams and moans and cries and makes drama over it, while an adult very simply and as efficiently as possible does what they can to deal and dispose of it. Does this sometimes include drama? Well, yeah, we're all human. But the end point and the end result...
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Its all about the lie:
"I'm sorry, I cant, my schedule is just so busy..."
Followed by my lie:
"I understand, but you're always busy. I'd really like to see you. Catch coffee maybe?"
Followed by his:
"Tell you what, call/email/whatever me back later, I'll check my schedule and we'll try to set something up."
Followed again by my own lie, not in the words--until...
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"I'm sorry, I cant, my schedule is just so busy..."
Followed by my lie:
"I understand, but you're always busy. I'd really like to see you. Catch coffee maybe?"
Followed by his:
"Tell you what, call/email/whatever me back later, I'll check my schedule and we'll try to set something up."
Followed again by my own lie, not in the words--until...
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buzzhum:
Thats Heavy...and very well written and personal. I actually wonder for a moment now if its fiction or if it really happened. Thats a compliment btw.....
So, in this life there are two types of risk. One is driven by desperation, you take these because you're running from something. Maybe a bungee jumper is running from stagnation in his life, or the spouse who cheats on their mate is running from the pain in a souring relationship, or the extreme hiker from the press and stress of civilization. There's lots of...
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luis:
They're called rack servers because they go on a rack to save space in data centers. They're basically just flat computers. I found a decent pic, this one shows the insides, which is irrelevant, but you get the idea.
whorlwind:
One of the best farside comics ever, wife amoeba says to husband amoeba: "Stimulus response, stimulus response, don't you ever think?"
If you mean purely physical danger, I've always studiously avoided it since I was old enough to realize pain hurt.
As for emotional and life risks, I tend to find the first kind always ends up being the second kind in the long run. There's no where you can be that isn't where you're meant to be, go go ga joo.
Or since I'm psyched for fight club on the big screen.. it's only when you've lost everything that you're free to do anything.
If you mean purely physical danger, I've always studiously avoided it since I was old enough to realize pain hurt.
As for emotional and life risks, I tend to find the first kind always ends up being the second kind in the long run. There's no where you can be that isn't where you're meant to be, go go ga joo.
Or since I'm psyched for fight club on the big screen.. it's only when you've lost everything that you're free to do anything.
So just imagine for a moment....a warehouse, and as far as the eye can see, nothing but used computer parts...and evey other day, a mac truck come in delivering more...stuff from Disney, from hospitals, from Chick-Fil-A, as well as from law firms, computer manufacturers, and from large corperations across the country....
.....and they all come to me. *gloats*
I'm being paid what I understand is...
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.....and they all come to me. *gloats*
I'm being paid what I understand is...
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luis:
Sweet. 
Do you have any 1 U servers? If you dont know what I mean, its basically a computer server that goes in a rack.
Or is it all mainly consumer PC parts?
EDIT: WTH? I thought you were about 22 when I met you.
[Edited on Jul 13, 2004 10:52AM]
Do you have any 1 U servers? If you dont know what I mean, its basically a computer server that goes in a rack.
Or is it all mainly consumer PC parts?
EDIT: WTH? I thought you were about 22 when I met you.
[Edited on Jul 13, 2004 10:52AM]
fragile21:
soooo, ummm...yeah. want to get me a job? 
I like it when ppl think I'm younger than I am. I know it'll pay off for when I'm actually really old. lol.
I like it when ppl think I'm younger than I am. I know it'll pay off for when I'm actually really old. lol.
A friend once looked down on me for being so open, told me I should post more of my angst and emotions in private. Like I should be ashamed, or something. But later, someone who's opinion I respect said they couldnt respect people who hid, who couldnt be honest. That struck me, though I said nothing, because at that point I had finally taken the...
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adhamlyn:
right on. never surrender.
newark:
Do what you need to do -
why do people judge anyone of us
Do what you need to do -
why do people judge anyone of us
Just a little bedtime story:
She arrived well after daybreak, hours away from the original plan. There was something about this hair-brained idea that should have been done in the middle of the night, when the world slept and things went on in secret that would never see the light of day. It was just appropriate somehow. But first the bus was an hour late,...
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She arrived well after daybreak, hours away from the original plan. There was something about this hair-brained idea that should have been done in the middle of the night, when the world slept and things went on in secret that would never see the light of day. It was just appropriate somehow. But first the bus was an hour late,...
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I send him, as per request, naked pics of myself I have hanging around online (don't ask). And this is what starts the whole extremely flattering conversation.
Me: you may have seen that one before
Him: Whoah
Him: Not THAT one.
Him: THAT's HOT
Him: *swallows hard*
Him: really hot
Him: You know. . .
Me: hmmm?
Him: That one was hot enough to make...
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Me: you may have seen that one before
Him: Whoah
Him: Not THAT one.
Him: THAT's HOT
Him: *swallows hard*
Him: really hot
Him: You know. . .
Me: hmmm?
Him: That one was hot enough to make...
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wyspurr:
good luck girly-kins
fragile21:
why can't I ask, huh? if you tell me I can't do something then that just makes it that much harder...errrr. lol.
Good luck in NY!
Good luck in NY!
I dreamt I didn't sleep at all...
My dreams were in the corners.
The shutters rattled in the wind.
My fear was lonely for me.
My dreams were in the corners.
The shutters rattled in the wind.
My fear was lonely for me.
fragile21:
I really like that. It suits me perfectly right now.
I had one that was a dream within a dream the other night.
I had one that was a dream within a dream the other night.
swanlee:
I dreamt I was dreaming and couldn't wake up, turned out to be sleep paralysis, ended up watching the clock for 45 mins while I couldn't move. Not fun
New York fell through with a bang and a thud, hich is just as well, I suppose. I slept today until nearly 3pm, just that exhausted and sick. Next week, this will all happen next week.
*dances!!*
*dances!!*
fragile21:
I got up early today and then slept the rest away. I'm so reclusive. Or just avoiding my stepdad's grotesque mother that is visiting. lol.
I hope you feel better!
I hope you feel better!