I didnt have time to plan the outfit, so all the sexy stuff I thought might make the grade got tossed in a bag this morning, and away I went to work. After work I flew to a friend's house to change and prepare for the event. I wind up in cheap fishnets (the kind that are fishnets all the way up, with no nasty...
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laputa64:
awesome!
The rattle of skates across a wooden floor.
The feel of wind in my hair.
The sweat on knees and elbows beneath the pads.
The stretch as I push to do things I've never done before.
The hoot and holler of the girls.
I am addicted. Tonight I almost threw it in, Deb wasnt going and I really only wanted to sulk. I know, its...
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The feel of wind in my hair.
The sweat on knees and elbows beneath the pads.
The stretch as I push to do things I've never done before.
The hoot and holler of the girls.
I am addicted. Tonight I almost threw it in, Deb wasnt going and I really only wanted to sulk. I know, its...
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I cant count the good things that have happened to me of late. Fantasm, derby, parties, playtime after playtime. There is so much brightness all around me, people who care, fun things to do, places to be, so much to cherish and love.
And still I'm going under. I dont keep up the journal anymore because despite having something to say, I cant bring myself...
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And still I'm going under. I dont keep up the journal anymore because despite having something to say, I cant bring myself...
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laputa64:
well i enjoy the time i get to spend with you and i absolutely adore you. i hope you are able to work your way out of this funk and have people closer to you than i am, to be there for you.
babygiantsquid:
i don't know the details of what you're going through, but try to remember (just in case it's relevant) that depression is the mindkiller, baby - take it from one who knows. if you can get yourself to a place where you consciously realize that it is a false consciousness, that it is temporary and that it WILL pass, then just hang on right there for dear life and wait for the turn. sometimes that is all you can do, and in those moments it is enough. in time you will inevitably return to a more lucid perspective of the world and yourself.
I feel like I'm in mourning.
I'm in mourning for a way of life--I have watched over the last several years as increasingly many scenes have died. Not the yuppie scenes, if it has a dint of respectibility, its alive and well, you can be sure. But even as dreadlocks, piercings, and tattoos become mainstream and yuppified, the forrunners of these acts of rebellion are...
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I'm in mourning for a way of life--I have watched over the last several years as increasingly many scenes have died. Not the yuppie scenes, if it has a dint of respectibility, its alive and well, you can be sure. But even as dreadlocks, piercings, and tattoos become mainstream and yuppified, the forrunners of these acts of rebellion are...
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chimericalme:
I thoroughly enjoyed dinner and the movie with you. Hope to chill with you again.
genghisx:
I just stumbled on your journal after traversing the journal of a mutual friend on here, and I definitely believe this warrants a response in my own journal. I'll get some sleep on it and begin expounding.
What is your definition of conservatism? Are you more upset with the moral conservatives, fiscal conservatives, or the general idea that we're effectively living in an oligarchy?
What is your definition of conservatism? Are you more upset with the moral conservatives, fiscal conservatives, or the general idea that we're effectively living in an oligarchy?
Is there life out there?
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stuzzy:
sort of
mrlucky:
Hello?
10 Things I Have Done That You Probably Haven't
10) My Florida walking story just goes to prove I came to complete stubbornness early. I wasnt more than Destinys age, maybe a little less, when my mother, in the thick of an argument with me, pulled the trick of If you dont like it, get out and walk. Much to her shock I opened the...
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10) My Florida walking story just goes to prove I came to complete stubbornness early. I wasnt more than Destinys age, maybe a little less, when my mother, in the thick of an argument with me, pulled the trick of If you dont like it, get out and walk. Much to her shock I opened the...
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the_mekon:
heh. i'm a big fan of canals. my walk to work in the mornings takes me along a canal that winds through central london. never seen any giant croakasses. saw a terrapin swimming around the other day. it had obviously been abandoned by its owner, and looked quite a surreal sight in the cold murky water
also moored on the canal is a rusty red boat, with a skull on the bow, pictures of jesus in the portholes, and little rubber skeletons dangling from the trees around it. will have to take a picture when i finally get around to buying a camera..
also moored on the canal is a rusty red boat, with a skull on the bow, pictures of jesus in the portholes, and little rubber skeletons dangling from the trees around it. will have to take a picture when i finally get around to buying a camera..
the_mekon:
coool. my everyday images of canals are bleak, industrial things. i'm finding it hard to picture what they are like in florida. you paint a great picture though
Fan-fuckin-tastic.
I'm gonna wake for my interview tomorrow bright and early and with a full blown case of the creeping crappola. I wonder if I can make a good impression with a nose as bright as Rudolph's?
I feel like shit. *goes to bed*
I'm gonna wake for my interview tomorrow bright and early and with a full blown case of the creeping crappola. I wonder if I can make a good impression with a nose as bright as Rudolph's?
I feel like shit. *goes to bed*
everytimeibry:
Interviews are kinda like vaccum cleaners. 
everytimeibry:
Whippersnappers... hmm.. . Never heard of this... Sounds like fun!
So I was walking through snow until I was shown a cave. "Look," he says. I did so and out comes a creature who's not quite a bear. It looks at me and I scream for it to go away, because warmth radiates off it like the warmth of a protector, and I'm not dealing with another lie. I am called to heel, told to...
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Highlights of the evening from the Midwinter Tiki Party at the House of Yes (this is literal, anything goes):
Telling Evil Mike; "you know, you can either have scantily clad, half naked females or low heating bills; choose." and without hesistation having him reply; "I'll go turn up the heat." And then promptly go do so.
Dipping my lei in my drink and spilling it...
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Telling Evil Mike; "you know, you can either have scantily clad, half naked females or low heating bills; choose." and without hesistation having him reply; "I'll go turn up the heat." And then promptly go do so.
Dipping my lei in my drink and spilling it...
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"Where's the blood? Am I really supposed to believe that the sanitized symbol has any relationship to the real thing..."
This is what someone recently asked me. So in the historical trivia of the day, we have...the heart.
The reason we have the heart as a symbol of love and romance is not because it is a representation of a human organ. In fact, its...
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This is what someone recently asked me. So in the historical trivia of the day, we have...the heart.
The reason we have the heart as a symbol of love and romance is not because it is a representation of a human organ. In fact, its...
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burning_bellhop:
That's the general problem with american culture. What can I sell you today ? The flash and glitz of most of the trash they stick in your face only pushes the surface thought, not the meaningful reality. At Christmas for example I usually try to make something. Frame a great panoramic shot. Buld a piece of furniture , or do a great mixed cd. The depth is the thing , but you seldom see it. Here is a real piece of me.... I love Venitian masks. I acutally have several pretty cool ones. They bring out a great essence of another time. Those scenes in eyes wide shut where everyone was masked. Awesome...
I am becoming seduced by femininity. I am seduced by affordable prices, by delicates that run and snag, by short skirts and sassy clothing, by things that hint of sweet and tough and sexy. Friday night I dressed for the weather and surprised myself. Short plaid schoolgirl number that only looked like a skirt--it was shorts, but a pair nicely hidden. Heavy cloth stockings, covered...
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burning_bellhop:
This is fairly comprehensive , so I must take my time. Backwards , I think.
Restlessness always seems to surface after an unestimated time of being alone. Sometimes this can be days, sometimes minutes. I often think of the things I should be doing. Listen to this, research that, create. Creation seems to be king. The pain that one human being can cause another can be endless it seems. The most personal relations are the one who sting the most. I am almost always aprehensive of new people myself. It's funny, but the net and this site in particular seems to allow me to feel strange a sense of community though with new people. The closeness of a person in some way. not in the truest sense, but you see all the things you know or have mutual understanding of just by looking to the left....
The searching never ends, what for? Sometimes I think I will never know. That hunger and drive in one avenue that leads to a dead stop on the next.The faces and motives do always seem to change in some fashion.
The changing rush and pass of emotions is never ending . I can't have a period obvouisly, but the body, the planet, and life cycles. You can only hope you get smarter as time goes on.
As for Femininity, I am seduced by it every day. Almost by the minute it sometimes seems. The animal inside tries to push to the surface every chance it can. The shape of a neck, a smile, lets face it, a beautiful figure, whatever shape that might be this minute. Eyes.....
The underwear , bras , and garterbelt thing just pushes the whole animal side over the edge. I can't stand it. Ok those two paragraphs are way more sensual than the two photosets that went up today. The power of words and imagination is ridiculous , but in the best way. The thought of you spilling out of your clothes is too much.
Nothing quite like an intelligent and imaginative mind....
Restlessness always seems to surface after an unestimated time of being alone. Sometimes this can be days, sometimes minutes. I often think of the things I should be doing. Listen to this, research that, create. Creation seems to be king. The pain that one human being can cause another can be endless it seems. The most personal relations are the one who sting the most. I am almost always aprehensive of new people myself. It's funny, but the net and this site in particular seems to allow me to feel strange a sense of community though with new people. The closeness of a person in some way. not in the truest sense, but you see all the things you know or have mutual understanding of just by looking to the left....
The searching never ends, what for? Sometimes I think I will never know. That hunger and drive in one avenue that leads to a dead stop on the next.The faces and motives do always seem to change in some fashion.
The changing rush and pass of emotions is never ending . I can't have a period obvouisly, but the body, the planet, and life cycles. You can only hope you get smarter as time goes on.
As for Femininity, I am seduced by it every day. Almost by the minute it sometimes seems. The animal inside tries to push to the surface every chance it can. The shape of a neck, a smile, lets face it, a beautiful figure, whatever shape that might be this minute. Eyes.....
The underwear , bras , and garterbelt thing just pushes the whole animal side over the edge. I can't stand it. Ok those two paragraphs are way more sensual than the two photosets that went up today. The power of words and imagination is ridiculous , but in the best way. The thought of you spilling out of your clothes is too much.
Nothing quite like an intelligent and imaginative mind....
oryon:
that's a lot of post to talk about femalst stuff, but i read it all
and GO YOU!!!
and GO YOU!!!
Me: *blinks*
Me: my EX wants to contact me
Me: the one who hit me
Me: he wants to offer me land in Canada
Him: ?
Him: You have the strangest damn life. . . .
Me: my EX wants to contact me
Me: the one who hit me
Me: he wants to offer me land in Canada
Him: ?
Him: You have the strangest damn life. . . .
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burning_bellhop:
I wouldn't mind living in Canada.... If it wasn't so cold. On the other hand the idiot who offers the land is even less desireable than the cold weather..... Hey I think we like you here better anyways.
Delerium Innocente.... I love the lost witness and Tiesto mixes.
You can't see my eyes
You can't see my eyes
They don't see yours
Hear me when I say
They don't mind at all
It's the rain that I hear coming
Not a stranger or a ghost
It's the quiet of a storm approaching
That I fear the most
It's the pain that I hear coming
The slightest crystal tear, drops to the ground
In silence, when my love is near.
Darling, when did you fall? When was it over?
Darling when? When did you fall? When was it over?
It's marching through my door now
The stony cold of lonesome
A bell tolls for my heart and then my lonesome song begins
It's marching through my door now
The stony cold of lonesome
A bell tolls for my heart and now my lonesome song begins
Darling, when did you cry? I couldn't hear you
Darling when? When did you cry? I couldn't hear you
I suppose it is the price of falling in love
I suppose it is the price of falling in love
It's the rain that I hear coming
Not a stranger, not a ghost
Of the quiet of a storm approaching
That i fear the most
It's the pain that i hear coming
The slightest crystal tear drops to the ground
In silence when my love is near
It's marching through my door now the stony cold of lonesome
A bell tolls for my heart and now my lonesome song will end
Darling when did we fall? When was it over?
Darling when? When did we fall? When was it over?
I suppose it is the price of falling in love.
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Delerium Innocente.... I love the lost witness and Tiesto mixes.
You can't see my eyes
You can't see my eyes
They don't see yours
Hear me when I say
They don't mind at all
It's the rain that I hear coming
Not a stranger or a ghost
It's the quiet of a storm approaching
That I fear the most
It's the pain that I hear coming
The slightest crystal tear, drops to the ground
In silence, when my love is near.
Darling, when did you fall? When was it over?
Darling when? When did you fall? When was it over?
It's marching through my door now
The stony cold of lonesome
A bell tolls for my heart and then my lonesome song begins
It's marching through my door now
The stony cold of lonesome
A bell tolls for my heart and now my lonesome song begins
Darling, when did you cry? I couldn't hear you
Darling when? When did you cry? I couldn't hear you
I suppose it is the price of falling in love
I suppose it is the price of falling in love
It's the rain that I hear coming
Not a stranger, not a ghost
Of the quiet of a storm approaching
That i fear the most
It's the pain that i hear coming
The slightest crystal tear drops to the ground
In silence when my love is near
It's marching through my door now the stony cold of lonesome
A bell tolls for my heart and now my lonesome song will end
Darling when did we fall? When was it over?
Darling when? When did we fall? When was it over?
I suppose it is the price of falling in love.
[Edited on Jan 28, 2005 11:15PM]
burning_bellhop:
Yeah life is seldom simple . That can always be a blessing and a curse.
That delerium song seemed somewhat relavant to the situation and I like them as well so it seemed a good comeback.
I sometimes wish I lived somewhere in europe. Canada has some beautiful areas for sure. I love Montreal and Niagra , but who wouldn't love the falls.
I'm such a wimp when it comes to the cold now though. The last three years I lived in Pa, I worked outside through the winter and it changed me . I used to love to ski. Every year I visit my family around the holidays and it is cool to see the snow for a few days. I am always glad to escape it , but not really the family....
Oh my god. I just looked again and saw Manowar on that list. That is so funny. I had almost all of the albums at one time. I still have The Triumph of Steel somewhere. Ultimate cheese !!!
OOOHHHHH OOOHHHHH !!!
That delerium song seemed somewhat relavant to the situation and I like them as well so it seemed a good comeback.
I sometimes wish I lived somewhere in europe. Canada has some beautiful areas for sure. I love Montreal and Niagra , but who wouldn't love the falls.
I'm such a wimp when it comes to the cold now though. The last three years I lived in Pa, I worked outside through the winter and it changed me . I used to love to ski. Every year I visit my family around the holidays and it is cool to see the snow for a few days. I am always glad to escape it , but not really the family....
Oh my god. I just looked again and saw Manowar on that list. That is so funny. I had almost all of the albums at one time. I still have The Triumph of Steel somewhere. Ultimate cheese !!!
OOOHHHHH OOOHHHHH !!!