I thought it high time I posted a normal pic of me for my profile, at least for a little while.
I thought i'd try to get this one up before I die my hair back to something more like it's original color.
I hate that picture but then again I hate all pictures of myself.
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I thought i'd try to get this one up before I die my hair back to something more like it's original color.
I hate that picture but then again I hate all pictures of myself.
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miyu:
Cool! I figured since I rarely go face on I should just give'r nails. Hehehe......
sarcasticmenace:
Daytime??? 
Greetings and salutations to all my SG friends.
I know it's been quite a while since i've given a real update but i've been a busy little bastard and my computer hookup has his new girlfriend over constantly and their fucking is putting a serious strain on my internet habit, the selfish assholes.
Well then, yet another IWF show has come and gone and boy...
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I know it's been quite a while since i've given a real update but i've been a busy little bastard and my computer hookup has his new girlfriend over constantly and their fucking is putting a serious strain on my internet habit, the selfish assholes.
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kay:
I miss you when you do not update!
You need to follow your heart my friend. Though I'm not sure the reality of which you have to work with, however, one can make family obligations, and financial obligations work. Being happy is the only thing we have, ultimately. Have you ever considered packing up and getting on an oil rig contract? Travel, killer money. I'm not sure what your skills are, but it might be nice for you to get a way for a time. *hug*
~cheers
You need to follow your heart my friend. Though I'm not sure the reality of which you have to work with, however, one can make family obligations, and financial obligations work. Being happy is the only thing we have, ultimately. Have you ever considered packing up and getting on an oil rig contract? Travel, killer money. I'm not sure what your skills are, but it might be nice for you to get a way for a time. *hug*
~cheers
evilwillow:
thanks. 
yeah, well.
I also use a ruler to make sure the books on my shelves are completely in line.
I gots me some issues.
yeah, well.
I also use a ruler to make sure the books on my shelves are completely in line.
I gots me some issues.
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sarcasticmenace:
Hola...que pasa?
sarcasticmenace:
*under construction* 
[Edited on Aug 10, 2005 1:17AM]
[Edited on Aug 10, 2005 1:17AM]
I'm tired of feeling bad.
I'm tired of being depressed.
I'm tired of trying to be hopeful.
I'm tired of trying.
I think i'd like to try being nothing for a while.
If the world had a neck, i'd probably break it.
Or not.
Fuck it, just fuck it, fuck it all.
I'm tired of being depressed.
I'm tired of trying to be hopeful.
I'm tired of trying.
I think i'd like to try being nothing for a while.
If the world had a neck, i'd probably break it.
Or not.
Fuck it, just fuck it, fuck it all.
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kinkykurlz:
Why? You are so great. You always make me feel good anyway. So have you missed me? I have been away too long. I hope you cheer up cause I am way to cheery being 21 and all for you to be unhappy. 
Oh P.S. if you ever need to chat I listen. 
Oh P.S. if you ever need to chat I listen. 
moya:
Thanks anyway. 
Is the Grass Pass just more restricted areas? I've heard that the grass pass people are designated to an area farther from the stages or something.. I'm not sure what the person meant, though. How were your experiences?
Is the Grass Pass just more restricted areas? I've heard that the grass pass people are designated to an area farther from the stages or something.. I'm not sure what the person meant, though. How were your experiences?Wrestling tonight in Nashville.
Wrestling tomorrow night in Cookeville.
Thank fuck for wrestling, because no matter how shitty it may be at times at least it's better than sitting at home listening to all the bullshit in my fucked up head.
Maybe if i'm lucky this weekend will tire me out so badly I won't have the fucking nightmares and can actually get some halfway...
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Wrestling tomorrow night in Cookeville.
Thank fuck for wrestling, because no matter how shitty it may be at times at least it's better than sitting at home listening to all the bullshit in my fucked up head.
Maybe if i'm lucky this weekend will tire me out so badly I won't have the fucking nightmares and can actually get some halfway...
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acidslug:
I remember a while back (I think), you saying something about even wrestling not giving you what you needed. Sounds like that might not be so true now? Hopefully. We all need something/
valen:
I hope the wrestling went well and no one was hurt too badly.
Are you doing alright bro?
Are you doing alright bro?
I come bearing advice.
Never, EVER, listen to Pink Floyd "The Wall", both parts mind you, while being well and truly depressed.
"Goodbye, blue sky
Goodbye, blue sky.
Goodbye.
Goodbye.
Goodbye."
Unless of course you enjoy laying in the dark and sobbing like a little girl. You never know, some people go for that sort of thing.
Ahhh, my fucked up head.
I guess it's...
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Never, EVER, listen to Pink Floyd "The Wall", both parts mind you, while being well and truly depressed.
"Goodbye, blue sky
Goodbye, blue sky.
Goodbye.
Goodbye.
Goodbye."
Unless of course you enjoy laying in the dark and sobbing like a little girl. You never know, some people go for that sort of thing.
Ahhh, my fucked up head.
I guess it's...
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sakita:
when is a good time to call you? i wont be around tomorrow but wednesday and friday i will be free. would love to chat again. miss ya.. 
bleeder:
Elliot Smith + Jack Daniels= Sad sad times.
I changed my profile picture.
I couldn't stand to look at myself over there anymore.
I don't like me so much right now. Of course, I never liked me that much to begin with, even less now.
BLAH-BLAH-BLAH-BITCH-BITCH-BITCH-whatever.
Oh well, back to the pictures of the pretty naked ladies.
I couldn't stand to look at myself over there anymore.
I don't like me so much right now. Of course, I never liked me that much to begin with, even less now.
BLAH-BLAH-BLAH-BITCH-BITCH-BITCH-whatever.
Oh well, back to the pictures of the pretty naked ladies.
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0theamazingrando:
I like chicken. I like liver! Meow mix, meow mix... please deliver!
sluttygoodgirl:
man, things don't sound so good 
i hope you like yourself again very soon.
i hope you like yourself again very soon. Fuck.
Fuckitty-fuck-fuck-fuck.
I've got too much going on in this fucked up brain pan o' mine and I got no idea how to get it all out.
Normally I wouldn't worry about getting it all out but see it's gotten so bad recently that i've had that weird feeling stuck in my chest that you get when everything's all fucked up emotionally. Y'know the one...
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Fuckitty-fuck-fuck-fuck.
I've got too much going on in this fucked up brain pan o' mine and I got no idea how to get it all out.
Normally I wouldn't worry about getting it all out but see it's gotten so bad recently that i've had that weird feeling stuck in my chest that you get when everything's all fucked up emotionally. Y'know the one...
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sakita:
josh, are you ok.. do you want me to call? i love you and you know that i am there if ever you need me.
smuffy:
hey how's it going?
♥
♥
I'm back.
To those who might have noticed and/or cared, I apologize for the unannounced absence.
To those who might have noticed and/or cared, I apologize for the unannounced absence.
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need2xcap2:
welcome back dear....good to see you back!
monsterjoe:
Dude, don't be doin' that kinda crap. If you must leave then email me all of your porn toons first man.
Good to have you back Josh
Good to have you back Josh
There's a hole in my chest where my heart use to be...
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perversia:
Thank you!
What's up anyway? Why'd you go anon and scare me like that?
What's up anyway? Why'd you go anon and scare me like that?
sarcasticmenace:
Nice to see you back.
Well, at least my hardly ever being here means that whenever I do luck up and get a few minutes online I actually have something to update about.
Here's to the day I have nothing much to write about.
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I got a very surprising phone call the other day. It was my very good friend and fellow SG member Sakita.
It was the...
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Here's to the day I have nothing much to write about.
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I got a very surprising phone call the other day. It was my very good friend and fellow SG member Sakita.
It was the...
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squee_:
Hope your show went well. Sad about the kitties. Hope you find a way to keep them.
Miss seeing you around on the boards. Your absence there was one of the first things I noticed when I came back.
Here is to hoping that the things that are going well continue to do so and that the other things improve soon.
Miss seeing you around on the boards. Your absence there was one of the first things I noticed when I came back.
Here is to hoping that the things that are going well continue to do so and that the other things improve soon.
thejuanupsman:
Hope you get the internet back soon. Glad to hear things with you and the wife are better. Wish I could say the same. 
My very good friend TheLastBeliever asked for a real update rather than a punk rock classic and I suppose he has a good idea since I so very rarely get to come here anymore.
Life is, as ever, a four letter word.
I'm tired of fighting, tired of dealing with the drama, tired of all the bullshit.
I guess I should be really happy right...
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Life is, as ever, a four letter word.
I'm tired of fighting, tired of dealing with the drama, tired of all the bullshit.
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thejuanupsman:
I get so tried of fighting too. Not just me fighting with other people, but other people constantly fighting around me. Sometimes I feel like I don't know how much more of it I can take.
I also relate to what you say on the weight loss. When I first started losing I though I had somewhere between 100-125 to lose. When i had lost a 100 and realized I was only half way there it hit me hard. It was pretty discouraging. Then when I started to gain some back it just depressed me more. I am starting to get it back under control again, but it isn't easy.
I just know I can't give up. On any of it.
I really hope you don't either. No matter how hard it gets. Hang in there.
I also relate to what you say on the weight loss. When I first started losing I though I had somewhere between 100-125 to lose. When i had lost a 100 and realized I was only half way there it hit me hard. It was pretty discouraging. Then when I started to gain some back it just depressed me more. I am starting to get it back under control again, but it isn't easy.
I just know I can't give up. On any of it.
I really hope you don't either. No matter how hard it gets. Hang in there.
squidproquo:
dude. good thoughts to you right now.
good thoughts to you right now.