-Everything I want to write here, I can't.
-Never any trust to begin with leaves no possibilities for success. A destined failure
-Too many drinks last night and too much drama (that I can't write about).
-The dreary weather makes me wanna cuddle up with a lover all day...and night.
-I miss my own computer dammit.
-Called in sick to work today and I think...
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-Never any trust to begin with leaves no possibilities for success. A destined failure
-Too many drinks last night and too much drama (that I can't write about).
-The dreary weather makes me wanna cuddle up with a lover all day...and night.
-I miss my own computer dammit.
-Called in sick to work today and I think...
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Tonight I went home (my old apartment) to get the rest of my stuff. Never did it hurt so bad. Not even the actual packing and moving process...
Everything was changed and not a hint of me was left. The bedroom, kitchen, living room, nothing left the same, and not even a picture that we placed upon the walls together made it through the change....
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Everything was changed and not a hint of me was left. The bedroom, kitchen, living room, nothing left the same, and not even a picture that we placed upon the walls together made it through the change....
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kitten:
nah. i just sing. and jump around like a spastic monkey! 
love:
I dunno what it is, but I know it's not good. 
I missed ya!
SGSF is doing a trip to SC soon, you should come hang if you're free. Hope things are getting easier for you. xoxo
I missed ya!
SGSF is doing a trip to SC soon, you should come hang if you're free. Hope things are getting easier for you. xoxo
I went out with the SGSC crew last night and had a ton of fun at the Blue.
Work was hell today though, too much fun= not any fun at work the morning after.
I may be MIA for a while because I am still in the process of moving and am not sure when I will have internet up and running!!
Thanks for all...
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Work was hell today though, too much fun= not any fun at work the morning after.
I may be MIA for a while because I am still in the process of moving and am not sure when I will have internet up and running!!
Thanks for all...
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britbritbaby:
congratulations! Don't work too hard at work, or moving!
shoegal:
Congrats on the modeling job, that's wonderful. What company/brand is it with??
-I am moving some stuff today!! wish me luck!!
-thanks for all the encouragement. You guys are amazing!
-I have another test shoot. Last one was in an old caddy, this one is on a chopper! The photographer said the last one was just "exceptional"! Can't wait to see me all hardcore looking hahaha.
-I am sex-starved and horny. (Had to add this one in...
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-thanks for all the encouragement. You guys are amazing!
-I have another test shoot. Last one was in an old caddy, this one is on a chopper! The photographer said the last one was just "exceptional"! Can't wait to see me all hardcore looking hahaha.
-I am sex-starved and horny. (Had to add this one in...
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albertine:
hey pick me pick me!!!! ( jumping up and down)
devilsnight:
i'll b your rebound if u want 
I'm lonely... I'm just not used to this being alone stuff. It's hard, too many years of being surrounded by someone. Him. It makes me want to take back what I've done, take back everything and go back to the way it was before, comfortable and boring, yet fulfilling and comforting at the same time. But, too much has been done and said and both...
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jackie113272:
Like I was saying, I did miss things about my 1st husband & I....but time healed my pain. So, no I don't think I made a mistake by divorcing him. Certain things a person you're in total love with does will turn you against them (such as, him holding a loaded gun to my head 2 separate times) Yeah, I'm totally serious.
So, it slowly became a very unstable relationship after a couple years together. We also wanted different things as the marriage progressed & didn't accept one another's outlook for the future...it was just sad for a little bit once I moved out because I was "alone" & I of course fell back into remembering the best times he & I shared....but I had to force myself to face the reality of it not being anywhere near a healthy marriage. And you know what? It was a great move on my part to leave.
Now I have no regrets over that. It's awesome to know I got myself out of that harmful situation, so I look back & am so proud of myself! My current (2nd) marriage is going fabulously - we accept & respect one another even through changes...which is one of the keys to a good relationship in my personal opinion.
So, it slowly became a very unstable relationship after a couple years together. We also wanted different things as the marriage progressed & didn't accept one another's outlook for the future...it was just sad for a little bit once I moved out because I was "alone" & I of course fell back into remembering the best times he & I shared....but I had to force myself to face the reality of it not being anywhere near a healthy marriage. And you know what? It was a great move on my part to leave.
Now I have no regrets over that. It's awesome to know I got myself out of that harmful situation, so I look back & am so proud of myself! My current (2nd) marriage is going fabulously - we accept & respect one another even through changes...which is one of the keys to a good relationship in my personal opinion.
naudia:
my poor friend hera. i know it feels hard now, but it really does get easier. do you want to waste your life on "comfortable"? when you think of how hard this is to hear, my mom once told me a really good way to gauge what your heart is telling you to do:
ask yourself, what would you tell your daughter to do in this situation? sometimes when you think of yourself, you will settle, but when you're thinking of someone else that you love, your opinion may change. that choice you made doesn't seem so bad, its what's best for you. even if you don't feel that way now.
feel better,
n
ask yourself, what would you tell your daughter to do in this situation? sometimes when you think of yourself, you will settle, but when you're thinking of someone else that you love, your opinion may change. that choice you made doesn't seem so bad, its what's best for you. even if you don't feel that way now.
feel better,
n
Long day... I am sooo tired and I have so much to do tomorrow. I am going to start by packing some of my stuff, I hate packing and this time I am very unprepared. VERY unprepared.
Sunday I have another test shoot! The first went really well, I think. They gave me a shirt and some awesome jewlery. I'm crossing my fingers that the...
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Sunday I have another test shoot! The first went really well, I think. They gave me a shirt and some awesome jewlery. I'm crossing my fingers that the...
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prozach:
5 days til my arrival........hey do you know Craig Haney?????????
ooomermaidooo:
Well I was in the mindset to start dating again, then Friday I heard my ex is dating and living with someone. (we have been broken up barely a month) Then today I was going down to the Pride parade in Seattle and I see him and his new girlfriend. 
I am back at being damaged goods. We are in the same boat.
I am back at being damaged goods. We are in the same boat.Finally good stuff to post...
Found out I got some rad modeling jobs, SUPER rad and super good money, but I ain't naming names just yet, I don't want to jinx the whole thing!
I have a test shoot tomorrow which should be fun, for an ad I'm doing.
One of my closest friends is coming to visit next weekend!!
AND I may be renting...
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Found out I got some rad modeling jobs, SUPER rad and super good money, but I ain't naming names just yet, I don't want to jinx the whole thing!
I have a test shoot tomorrow which should be fun, for an ad I'm doing.
One of my closest friends is coming to visit next weekend!!
AND I may be renting...
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smokymcpot420:
You are sooo beautiful. I totally can't wait for your set to come up
guillaume:
lucky you, you have good stuff to post.
i wish i had too.
i've posted lyrics from a song i love. im such a loser!
i wish i had too.
i've posted lyrics from a song i love. im such a loser!
I think I need to update my journal with something a bit more cheery after that last entry. It was a bit depressing.
Yet, not a single cheery thought is entering my mind right now, and the good thoughts that are I simply cannot post on here
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On a different note, I have been eating frozen food for the past week, my personal cook...
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Yet, not a single cheery thought is entering my mind right now, and the good thoughts that are I simply cannot post on here
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On a different note, I have been eating frozen food for the past week, my personal cook...
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silencenoir:
Dishes I hate dishes!
Hope you feel better sweetie... heres lotsa
Hope you feel better sweetie... heres lotsa
starla:
Soon you will learn to eat out of your hands 
Fuck dishes
Fuck dishesI'm embarking on a new journey in my life. I have questioned everything, my beliefs, my cultural identity, my ways of coping, of feeling, of being. After all this I have come to the conclusion that I really don't know if I'm making the right decision or not. I really don't know what truth or love is after all the years of thinking that I...
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fetishstix:
The only advise I can give is to be yourself. Believe in what you are and who you are. Everything that has happened up to today has made you who you are. Decisions that you make should be a reflection of what you believe and feel.
Besides, lonely ain't so bad. Some doors in life you have to go through alone.
I hope this helps you a little. If not, play your drums til your arms hurt!
Kisses
Besides, lonely ain't so bad. Some doors in life you have to go through alone.
I hope this helps you a little. If not, play your drums til your arms hurt!
Kisses
treachery:
im in my new place my life is in boxes
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naudia:
very pretty!! thanks for the nice stuff you said too
-n
-n
gadget:
no, i didn't punch anyone, I was more back up...I was on weave retrieval. Someone's gotta look after the weave.
I was at the beach yesterday enjoying the sun and reading when a wedding party, bride, groom, and family came down the stairs and onto the beach. They were going to have the ceremony right in front of my fuckn towel. I had the urge to yell at the top of my lungs "Don't do it!" So I had to leave...
-Got some more pics...
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lydia:
Thanks!
wow, holy glamour shots!
wow, holy glamour shots!
machiavel:
Hello back at you lovely friend
While driving on the freeway today I got the urge to let go of the wheel for a split second and close my eyes. It felt soo damn good to do. hmmmmm... life metaphors.
RockstarINC is right I need to stop thinking so much.
I say FUCK LOVE, give me a beer (or 5) tonight!
RockstarINC is right I need to stop thinking so much.
I say FUCK LOVE, give me a beer (or 5) tonight!
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xhavokx:
thank you!!! my puppy thinks you are cute too
twitchmc02:
Well what are ya waiting for? Pack your things and lets get our asses down to the VI's!
Good luck with work! I always expect the worst when I call in, but it doesn't usually turn out to be that bad. Hope today is happier for you!
[Edited on Jul 15, 2004 5:22AM]