clearlii

I talked to gord462 today and he told me I was supposed to say hi....he's not exactly online anymore...

The moon and I are good friends.

I'm glad that high quality food doesn't make me fatter, it just makes me healthier. Though I don't think my genetics are capable of becoming fat.

It is very natural to feel loss in such a situation. If you'd like a helpful meditation to do then try this. Write down all your feelings of loss on a piece of paper. Then burn that piece of paper allowing the flames to transmute and transform your emotions to a higher vibrational energy. Then get another piece of paper and write down all the positive things you can think of about the situation and how good it will be for everyone involved. Then keep that piece of paper around for awhile and reread it if you start to feel sad again.

Peace, love, and healing

I've had the shy experience in highschool. And nothing ever came of it.

I've more recently had similar experiences at raves, and nothings come of it either.

My eyes get bluer when my energy is flowing freely.

(wipes drool off shoes) Your pictures always make me want to nuzzle. Preferably with you but Ill take who I can get.
Here goes...

I wish I didn't love you so much
Then it wouldn't hurt not to feel your touch.
then my mind wouldn't have to wait then rush
I take everything I can but it's never enough

And I wish you wouldn't leave me this way
If I'm not talking to you there are no words to say
I go through the same pain like every day
I know you have to leave. Can I beg you to stay?

and I wish you were here and not there
When your gone I see your face everywhere
I try to act like I really don't care
but I broke down when I found a strand of your hair

Without you I do things I don't understand
like imagining that I wasn't your man
then imagining that I was your man
and then I try to replace you with the palm of my hand

but it never works.

That church sounds pretty interesting...I'd love to check it out with you sometime. I have a book you might want to look at for your debate called "The Bisexual Option". Not only does it talk about different continuums of gayness, but also the flip flop thing, and it even has a fun little grid to plot yourself on!! Anyway, just wanted to stop by and say hi. I've been crazy busy lately settling in....but now I'm all moved and finally have internet at home. Sorry if my crazy drunk friend scared you when you came over to visit! She's a little much sometimes.

Haha, it's like the hot older guy from college who has a car while you're still in high school. I'm a cradle robber!

i think thats pretty cool.i usually try and give the little old lady that goes through our garbage canned food or food i just dont feel like eating .like potatoes and stuff.i keep thinking i should invite her in for tea..but then i never do..hm, i think i will next time.for some reason i feel more inclinded to help out dumpster divers than people sitting on the street panhandling?

I completely understand your journals. i just didn't get that reference. And I still don't but that's ok. I still like you. A lot.

You did more than most people would have done. You defiantly did more for him than I would have.

Last night was amazing
but this morning was better
Before i went to sleep I prayed.
I prayed that would wake up before you
So I could watch you for a bit.
And wonder.
What your thinking.
Who's in your head.
Obviously God only heard you
I awoke to you cutting your eyes away from me
i've never felt so special.

Sounds unfortunate..

Hope things are going okay all-in-all...

Is it the season? Or do things just by fluke seem to be taking a dive right about now?

two virgins kissing on the church steps
It starting raining outside and we both got soaking wet
you started smiling but I didn't know what it meant
my friends said you wanted my money but I didn't have a cent
you asked me why I kissed you with my eyes closed
I said cause what I was feeling was like walking around blindfold
truth be told I didn't know any other way to do it
anyone could speculate but nobody really knew it
pursue it was all I was thinking at that space in time
I was to twisted to back it up, press stop and rewind
most of our dreams are irrelevant, had to stay in my element
or else I'd be treated like some third grade experiment
it's evened you didn't want me or my kind
so when you send your invitation don't be mad if I decline
what's the use of telling a secret to someone who would never understand
I could have put the whole world in your hand
but you wouldn't see it
it was a puzzle you couldn't complete it
what if I told you it was the fruit of truth of would you eat it
or perceive it
you would. you cram to understand because you couldn't
you'll never really see me cause you're too busy looking.

I must say that page 17 has often been my favourite.

So many pages ... so little titled 17...

Alas...

Hey kid, how's life been treatin ya?
I've been really busy lately, but managed to make it up to LA yesterday and had a little fun. Hope all is well, I've got to start a 15 page research paper I've been putting off all weekend.

I wish I could visit... You are so far from me though..



Alas...

How did your Hallowe'en go? I had a good one... better than usual..

Make you smile?

Hmm..

You are absolutely stunning!

Did it work?

Just what exactly does a good girl do?

No partying and loving sounds like discipline.

Peace & Love, and may your brain function at it's peak performance.

I live right behind Bar Dynamite, well not exactly behind there but close enough to walk there. I go there ocassionally, they spin good hip hop... Im usually at Shakespeares across the street..

Would any of you find it insulting to have a coloring book and crayons left on your doorstep?

Nope, I would feel the good intent of another.

Reiki Master. I have three who reside on my Dad's side. Might contact if you think it may help.

The Testosterone. Hmm.

Is there's nothing better than Southern Cali weather, from Spring to the Summer, till the middle of November. Never need a sweater cause it barely gets cold. - Kings Spade-. Sideproject of Kottonmouthkings. Looking good all the time.

Clearlii It must be? I wouldn't know how to react, no snow. I think I would love everybody there. Or the few like you


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How do you read tea leaves? I've heard of such a thing but never looked it up. As for kids. It would have to be an act of the supreme lord to give me the chance to conceive. This is alittle of why I act the way I do. I have below normal testosterone, I finally got a testosterone patch, put it on today. I don't feel I'll have any growth spurts to make my physical a supreme reality, but these are my cards. I'm learning to play.

haha,i'm confused ..what am i suppose to do?..

Love your entries..



Just kiss the guy... I know if I were in his shoes I'd not complain.

Gross with the needle, huh? Lucky you didn't get poked... I'd say be careful, but how weird and unexpected this is leaves me to wonder how you'd ever be prepared for it...

I'd love to hear your music when your done..