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So this has been one fucked up week!

But I am discovering that my true life is out there waiting for me I just have to go out there and find it. maybe soon.

With good friends in my life and the prospects of an actual career in the not so distant future, things can only go up from here.

On a side note, if...
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So I lost my fucking job today!
Really how much more can I take? or maybe I should say get, because I can take a lot. However the weird part is my former employer is paying me for the next 2 weeks???
I had a nice dinner with my mother tonight, which consisted of mostly wine, and a side ceasar salad. I think she might...
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Here I am trying to be the hardass that I'm not. I am very heartbroken and it keeps getting rubbed into my face. I don't guess it really matters, I just want to move on with my life. I am getting a new apartment, all by myself. It will be good for me. Grrlhavoc gets to keep it all because she really likes it. I...
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I suppose that all is not lost. I just have to pick myself up and carry on. What I could really use right now is some good friends who understand what I am going through. If anyone out there knows any lesbians who are worth befriending, please send them my way.

I will make it through this no matter what I do. Grrlhavoc was a...
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what do you do when it appears that all is lost? give up? fight for what you believe in?
i'm just not sure anymore. a life that was once so beautiful to me, now seems so unreal and unclear. i don't think i will ever understand the way that love works. i have inherited a trait that i sometimes wish i didn't have. it is...
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Hello again. The love of my life and I (grrlhavoc) had finally gotten our apartment set the way we wanted it and we were so happy. And then came a tidal wave, or monsoon, or whatever you might want to call it. A pipe above us burst and ruined our walls, ceiling, carpet, couch, one computer, lamp, food, and other things I am...
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Hello all!

I have not written in a very long time, but, I am still here. Just a bizzy bizzy bee!!! I love my new job. I am very happy making more money, and working regular mon-fri. 9-6!!!! yeah!!!!

Anywho... don't really have much to say, just waiting for 6:00 to roll around and here it comes.

I feel like I have been rather delinquent...
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Okay, so the past several days have been very hard. The loss of Grrlhavoc's father, has been a great loss and sadness for both of us. Obviously more so fer her, but also for me. I was fortunate enough to get to spend quite a bit of time with him and get to know him over the past several months.

Her dad was such...
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okay! okay!
I know I am really bad at this journal thing, but come on... I sit at a computer for 8 hours a day miserably, why would I want to do it when I get home to???

But all of this is about to change... I was just offered a better job, for better money, better hours, TWO weeks paid vacation a year, PAID...
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Wow.... it's been a while...
Well since the last time I wrote, things have gotten much better for Grrlhavoc and me, I seemed to have turned over a new leaf in life, I have turned 22, and quit smoking cigarettes (TODAY).
WOAH! A lot has happened... The cigarette thing is really hard, but I am using the patch and am chewing tons of Wrigley's and...
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I have been very sick for the past several weeks, and don't seem to be getting better.

I feel like Grrlhavoc is about ready to leave me, cut my throat or just plain kill me. She doesn't really communicate how she feels with me, and it's hard to get her to talk. The longer we are together, the more I feel like I don't really...
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Sorry I have not been around much lately. I have been sick with stomach troubles i picked up in the hospital while visiting Grrlhavoc, but i am going to the Dr. to get things checked out this morning.

Grrlhavoc is doing better day by day

i will update more later