Well I have come to another chapter end in my life.
Time to move on and all the hard work of the last couple of weeks has meant that today is possible and I am able to shut one of the less eventful and fruitful chapters in my life and move forward into this new forward looking chapter.
Its time to move on and take...
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Time to move on and all the hard work of the last couple of weeks has meant that today is possible and I am able to shut one of the less eventful and fruitful chapters in my life and move forward into this new forward looking chapter.
Its time to move on and take...
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"holly calamity, scream insanity"
I aint going to join the handsome boy modelling school getting my haircut here.
So i kept the length like I asked her too. My fringe needed a touch more off. I was aiming more fro a jim carey cut from spotless mind i ended up looking like jim carey in dumb and dumber. She has crucified me, my mates will...
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I aint going to join the handsome boy modelling school getting my haircut here.
So i kept the length like I asked her too. My fringe needed a touch more off. I was aiming more fro a jim carey cut from spotless mind i ended up looking like jim carey in dumb and dumber. She has crucified me, my mates will...
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happy st patricks,
left all my friends to come and do some work, thats not really happening. shit. i never learn. wish i was still out.
Hope u had fun pretending to be irish, my gran was irish, that makes me irish for 1 day a yr only.
work, got to do work.
bye
left all my friends to come and do some work, thats not really happening. shit. i never learn. wish i was still out.
Hope u had fun pretending to be irish, my gran was irish, that makes me irish for 1 day a yr only.
work, got to do work.
bye
rubyrouge:
Good luck with everything.... everything will work out O.K, you just have to have faith, and follow your gut instinct!
Here is a little good luck monkey for you:
Here is a little good luck monkey for you:
rubyrouge:
Thanks for that. I kind of had second thoughts about pouring out my soul like that... hence deciding to delete it all half an hour later. I'm always a little conflicted as to what to write in my journals. Half of me wants to be super honest, even when I am down, and the other half has this pride thing going on where I wont let myself!
On a positive note, my Brazilian chappie just called and I'm going to hook up with him tomorrow. Am very weary about meeting blokes after chatting to them for once night whilst very drunk.... but he actually seems alright. Cheered me up a bit anyhow.
When I feel misrable about being lonely, I just remind myself that its just the other side of the same coin. The only reason we can feel connected to someone and be intimate and feel close to someone is because the opposite of that i.e loneliness exists too.
Always makes me feel a bit better.
Hooray for monkeys
On a positive note, my Brazilian chappie just called and I'm going to hook up with him tomorrow. Am very weary about meeting blokes after chatting to them for once night whilst very drunk.... but he actually seems alright. Cheered me up a bit anyhow.
When I feel misrable about being lonely, I just remind myself that its just the other side of the same coin. The only reason we can feel connected to someone and be intimate and feel close to someone is because the opposite of that i.e loneliness exists too.
Always makes me feel a bit better.
Hooray for monkeys
how do I express my feelings at the minute, just come back from a wicked holiday in prague with 6 of my old u ni mates and i am totally depressed.
I hate feeling this way i wnat to be more positive and up beat at the minute but the holiday stirred up alot of old emotions too long and complicated to go into at...
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I hate feeling this way i wnat to be more positive and up beat at the minute but the holiday stirred up alot of old emotions too long and complicated to go into at...
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1ginge:
my darling
1ginge:
stuff
rubyrouge:
We are going here around 8-ish tomorrow. Wearing hats supposedly. Come along and bring whoever!
rubyrouge:
Oh, O.K now i get it. Its that silly American system so I put in 7th of March instead of 3rd July! Oops. Hows you doin'?
Have you ever seen one of your friends freak out so much you thought they were going to die?
Tuesday in the middle of Dam square mr Carlton from the photos freaked out so much me and mr owells nearly joined him in totally spinning out. I have never been so scared as I was that day. Convulsions fitting mad starring eyes strange voices lock...
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Tuesday in the middle of Dam square mr Carlton from the photos freaked out so much me and mr owells nearly joined him in totally spinning out. I have never been so scared as I was that day. Convulsions fitting mad starring eyes strange voices lock...
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natsuko:
Yes that is the very same Hunter S Thompson. He shot himself in the head. 
hi
I am back, got in late last night so here is a taster
what a trip, it had highs it had lows.
i have posted some photos but will put up more photos once i have worked out how to get the file size small enough.
now everyone be the best you can because even typing is hard for me at the minute.
I am back, got in late last night so here is a taster
what a trip, it had highs it had lows.
i have posted some photos but will put up more photos once i have worked out how to get the file size small enough.
now everyone be the best you can because even typing is hard for me at the minute.
1ginge:
da dam
Is it wrong to wish your life away!?!?
I cant wait for the weekend(that sounds like it should be a hook for a shitty dance Toon. Wha'ya mean someone beat me to it
) From friday I will be in cov, l'pool, nottingham and finally Amsterdam. i'm soo excited
I am going to drink smoke and eat my way to oblivion.
Earlier this week I...
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I cant wait for the weekend(that sounds like it should be a hook for a shitty dance Toon. Wha'ya mean someone beat me to it
) From friday I will be in cov, l'pool, nottingham and finally Amsterdam. i'm soo excited
I am going to drink smoke and eat my way to oblivion.
Earlier this week I...
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rubyrouge:
Have a fantastic time in Amsterdam!!!!! Am very envious of you. Have you been to the Rockery coffee shop? That's my favourite one. Is it going to be a proper lads weekend away?
This is what I do when I'm confused....
I sit down and write a list of all the things in my life that I want to achieve, i.e all my dreams
Then I explore why I want those things and write a list of reasons behind wanting those things. If there are loads of things, I just focus on one of them.
Then I write a list of reasons why I might be afraid of getting those things.
I think our thoughts and the way we think are a lot more powerful than we realise, and so often we don't get where we want to be in life, because we are afraid, or we have certain negative beliefs associated with what we want. I.e you might be fed up being broke all the time, but you have a (sometimes subconcious) belief that rich people are materialist or shallow, and that belief can prevent us or hinder us from having money.
I think no one gets anywhere in life by letting things happen to them. Everything involves a conscious choice. Super succesful people dont get where they are because they sit around and wait for things to happen.
What I find so infuriating is that no matter what life style you have, how much money you have, there are always things to moan about.
Like when I worked a nine to five job last year, I was constantly misrable because I didnt have enough time to myself. Now I'm pissed off because although I have loads of time to myself, and have complete freedom to work whenever I want, I cannot switch off. I can't get home from work and not think about it. For the first time in my life, I can't get to sleep at night, because ther's never a time when I'm not thinking about work.
Anyways, I divulge. Everything is made up of energy, that's a scientific fact. and our thoughts are energy too. Miracles, or 'magic', or yogis staying really warm even in freezing conditions is just a conscious manifestation of thought, a conscious manipulation of energy. And I believe that we do this every day without realising it, on subtle levels. If you say to yourself, 'I am ugly and no one will ever want to go out with me', you will create that scenario: no one will go out with you. If you say to yourself every day, 'I'm going to get cancer, or I'm afraid of getting cancer', then it will probably come true. This is why positive affirmations, even if they are really cheesy, work. Because with your thoughts, you are manipulating energy, you are manifesting thought.
The one thing that really successful people have in common (i.e people who have made their dreams come true), is that very early on they had a 'vision' of themselves as successful people. To me, their success has to do with the power of their thoughts. Instead of thinking 'oh i wish i was sucessful', they think of themselves as being successful. It is the manifestation of thoughts. That's the way the universe works.
Gosh, that was rather longer than I intended. Does that sound feasible or ridiculous to you?
Anyways, have a lovely time in 'Dam and I look forward to hearing about it when you get back.
Oh, and I prefer to use tit tape (is that taupee tape?) and no, it doesn't hurt when you take them off. But truth be told, my nipples arent as sensitive as other peoples.
This is what I do when I'm confused....
I sit down and write a list of all the things in my life that I want to achieve, i.e all my dreams
Then I explore why I want those things and write a list of reasons behind wanting those things. If there are loads of things, I just focus on one of them.
Then I write a list of reasons why I might be afraid of getting those things.
I think our thoughts and the way we think are a lot more powerful than we realise, and so often we don't get where we want to be in life, because we are afraid, or we have certain negative beliefs associated with what we want. I.e you might be fed up being broke all the time, but you have a (sometimes subconcious) belief that rich people are materialist or shallow, and that belief can prevent us or hinder us from having money.
I think no one gets anywhere in life by letting things happen to them. Everything involves a conscious choice. Super succesful people dont get where they are because they sit around and wait for things to happen.
What I find so infuriating is that no matter what life style you have, how much money you have, there are always things to moan about.
Like when I worked a nine to five job last year, I was constantly misrable because I didnt have enough time to myself. Now I'm pissed off because although I have loads of time to myself, and have complete freedom to work whenever I want, I cannot switch off. I can't get home from work and not think about it. For the first time in my life, I can't get to sleep at night, because ther's never a time when I'm not thinking about work.
Anyways, I divulge. Everything is made up of energy, that's a scientific fact. and our thoughts are energy too. Miracles, or 'magic', or yogis staying really warm even in freezing conditions is just a conscious manifestation of thought, a conscious manipulation of energy. And I believe that we do this every day without realising it, on subtle levels. If you say to yourself, 'I am ugly and no one will ever want to go out with me', you will create that scenario: no one will go out with you. If you say to yourself every day, 'I'm going to get cancer, or I'm afraid of getting cancer', then it will probably come true. This is why positive affirmations, even if they are really cheesy, work. Because with your thoughts, you are manipulating energy, you are manifesting thought.
The one thing that really successful people have in common (i.e people who have made their dreams come true), is that very early on they had a 'vision' of themselves as successful people. To me, their success has to do with the power of their thoughts. Instead of thinking 'oh i wish i was sucessful', they think of themselves as being successful. It is the manifestation of thoughts. That's the way the universe works.
Gosh, that was rather longer than I intended. Does that sound feasible or ridiculous to you?
Anyways, have a lovely time in 'Dam and I look forward to hearing about it when you get back.
Oh, and I prefer to use tit tape (is that taupee tape?) and no, it doesn't hurt when you take them off. But truth be told, my nipples arent as sensitive as other peoples.
rubyrouge:
Ahem,
London SG member get together: next week on Thursday, location to be decided! Pencil it in your busy schedule! Tell any one you know!
London SG member get together: next week on Thursday, location to be decided! Pencil it in your busy schedule! Tell any one you know!
I like this picture because I am happy and with friends.
It may not be real sunshine, but to me it is as good as.
The colour of my hair has been described in the past as the colour of a spring sunrise.
I like that.
So in many ways this photo has all the sunshine anyone could ever need.
It may not be real sunshine, but to me it is as good as.
The colour of my hair has been described in the past as the colour of a spring sunrise.
I like that.
So in many ways this photo has all the sunshine anyone could ever need.
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rubyrouge:
God, I hope the business thing takes off, but I have to cope with my horrible self-doubt and pessimism every day. That, and toxic glue fumes. I worked with a glue gun for about 3 hours today and felt seriously high afterwards. And high in a bad way, not a good way.
Tell me 10 random things about you. For inspiration check out mrSmithers journal for today.
P.S. 7 foot trannie has called 5 times and has turned out to be an absolute psycho. Tells me all about his therapist and 2 x-wives. I NEVER give my phone number out usually and the one time I do I regret it. Why does the world work that way?
Tell me 10 random things about you. For inspiration check out mrSmithers journal for today.
P.S. 7 foot trannie has called 5 times and has turned out to be an absolute psycho. Tells me all about his therapist and 2 x-wives. I NEVER give my phone number out usually and the one time I do I regret it. Why does the world work that way?
rubyrouge:
BOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!
Did I scare you? Ooops.
Went to the market today and didn't do very well - only sold one thing, but had a wicked time anyway and want to do it regularly. Met so many nice people and felt very happy there
I don't know Barca that well but my sister lived there for the past year. Do you want me to ask her? Its no problem.
My other favourite quote.... when asked what he thought of Western civilisation, Ghandi replied:
"It would be a good idea."
Have a great weekend whatever you're doing
Did I scare you? Ooops.
Went to the market today and didn't do very well - only sold one thing, but had a wicked time anyway and want to do it regularly. Met so many nice people and felt very happy there
I don't know Barca that well but my sister lived there for the past year. Do you want me to ask her? Its no problem.
My other favourite quote.... when asked what he thought of Western civilisation, Ghandi replied:
"It would be a good idea."
Have a great weekend whatever you're doing