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valium, opiates, and a presciption to cuddle
i'm sort of waking up, the pain shot me up about an hour ago. surgery is done, for now. bed rest and books. thank you for the books...i am going to need them!
i can't really sit up, but just wanted to say hi and thank you to everyone for your encouraging words. i can kick this cancer's...
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i'm sort of waking up, the pain shot me up about an hour ago. surgery is done, for now. bed rest and books. thank you for the books...i am going to need them!
i can't really sit up, but just wanted to say hi and thank you to everyone for your encouraging words. i can kick this cancer's...
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rabidbuttons:
sending positive energy
darqkloud:
*hugs*
Wishing you a speedy recovery!
Wishing you a speedy recovery!
i am sitting in a black vinyl booth at a bar downtown. i used to work here...sort of...good friend owns the bar, and they are building a new stage. i just came along, to get out of the house. i did drink jager on new year's eve........which led to cosmos, then more jager, more jager, more jager, cranberry vodka, dancing on the bar, woke up...
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lilli:
Sending love and blessings for your surgery and recovery!!!
jnthn:
I know. Was it Jaeger? Was once vodka. Poison, one of them I guess.
I'll come back. I expect you to be there -- and fine and dandy!
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I'm in WVA at my parents'. I'm basically in NYC, not much running around but I had to go to DC for a week for recording. Now I'm here escaping.
I'll come back. I expect you to be there -- and fine and dandy!
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I'm in WVA at my parents'. I'm basically in NYC, not much running around but I had to go to DC for a week for recording. Now I'm here escaping.
the only thing i want for christmas is to write each and every one of you back. you know who you are...you have been around for five years, you have wrote me for the past six months, you get me through the day, every word of encouragement, every poem, every single word. i sincerely fucking love you.
so i made a promise with myself to...
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lauralily:
Best of luck with your treatment, I'm sending you all the good vibes I can 
Stay strong and good will come.
Stay strong and good will come.
james:
this is funny and might make you laugh:
keep smiling.
keep smiling.
i have cancer. blah. i guess i'll write more later.
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m0ngrel:
this is becoming a more and more common comment from people i know or know of
my girlie is always on the edge of this, she's lived with a brain tumor her whole life, but just in the past 11 years has known about it. she deals. she finds that her best doctor visit results are when she's been eating really healthy and practicing her ashtanga yoga every weekday.
I'm hoping for the best for you, i know you've made me smile many times with blog posts n such
You rawk, dont get too down about things, there are treatments
Happy Holidays girlie
my girlie is always on the edge of this, she's lived with a brain tumor her whole life, but just in the past 11 years has known about it. she deals. she finds that her best doctor visit results are when she's been eating really healthy and practicing her ashtanga yoga every weekday.
I'm hoping for the best for you, i know you've made me smile many times with blog posts n such
You rawk, dont get too down about things, there are treatments
Happy Holidays girlie
anemona:
OMG!!! you are a strong women!!!!!
I know is hard and really suck but I sent all my good energies to you
I know is hard and really suck but I sent all my good energies to you
not living in reality isn't so bad...at least my dreams remain beautiful 
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inks:
reality is not its all its cracked up to be
lelaina:
mmmmmm sweet dreaming..................xx
i'm allergic to myself
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vada:
i hear the only specialists are yourself as well. =/
<3
<3
asdeputas:
maybe you are allergic to beauty.....
happy hallolween! i love today 
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littledevil:
You are my favorite girl suicide
doozer:
You have no idea how bad I wanted to use that Burroughs quote on someone lately.
Any good movies or books to suggest
Hope you're gettin' through things alright.
Any good movies or books to suggest
Hope you're gettin' through things alright.
i want to dance again. it hasn't crossed my mind in years, since i quit the tour...3 years ago? or was it 4, 5? i don't remember. you wait your whole life to live your dream and then you give it up, for no reason...or you give it up for the wrong reason. sometimes things happen so fast that you can't even comprehend what has...
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maiwan:
fuck art lets dance! mwah, thats what i think you should do. If you wanna do it, do it. I love burlesque, ive done a few shows myself and oh my oh my what good times, its the best adrenaline rush ever! i saw your set on the first tour dvd, you were hot! morrrrrrrrrrre!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mwah ha ha.
julliette:
snow is old school. represent!
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missaphex:
wowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
loveit!
I leave to greetings and enormous kisses you miss enchants your to me sets passs by my site thanks with love aphex
loveit!
I leave to greetings and enormous kisses you miss enchants your to me sets passs by my site thanks with love aphex
brookdawg:
Snow,
Don't be uncomfortable. Wake up and feel the rain on your head.
Breathe it in and taste it.
Don't ever let go.
Taste life.
Live.
Don't be uncomfortable. Wake up and feel the rain on your head.
Breathe it in and taste it.
Don't ever let go.
Taste life.
Live.
i think i need to move away from the rain.
i have big eyes and one bottle of wine. i thought i was clear, but i have a biopsy on tuesday.
i erase everything that i write. this leaves me with nothing, with silence. if you are there, will you write me...
it isn't any fun when a saturday night feels just like a wednesday...
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i have big eyes and one bottle of wine. i thought i was clear, but i have a biopsy on tuesday.
i erase everything that i write. this leaves me with nothing, with silence. if you are there, will you write me...
it isn't any fun when a saturday night feels just like a wednesday...
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dino:
I love you. Come visit.
badsun2:
Sometimes rain is right. It cleanses. When I lived in the desert I longed for it and when thunder crashed and it came pouring down I ran out to dance in it. But rain without end just melts you away over time. The dampness just creeps in.
It is cold under the sheets
damp, from the sweat of my back
when you reach for air, there is no skin. When you call for him, you fail
only in September.
You were mistaken and I smoked by the window
The hole in my chest
It will not heal
I fear 4am, the snow, the white roses
Salt. It tastes clean and I confess
damp, from the sweat of my back
when you reach for air, there is no skin. When you call for him, you fail
only in September.
You were mistaken and I smoked by the window
The hole in my chest
It will not heal
I fear 4am, the snow, the white roses
Salt. It tastes clean and I confess
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misslolo:
you're my fave pearl^^
when i saw you on the first tour dvd, i wanted to become a SG!
♥
when i saw you on the first tour dvd, i wanted to become a SG!
♥
j01:
This was excellent.
<3 <3 ps we should talk more
P.S. you rock!!!!!
Hugs and kisses and xoxox
Your Fan Matt