grey

i hear that i'm kind of negative.
well, tonight i went and had a fun time a different place where my adorable ex-boyfriend and his friends that i consider mine performed. then i went home and watched law and order. and i'm not sure how uplifting watching a man that i left four years ago look cute and then retiring to beers and tv is...
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snow makes everything outside of me quiet and everything inside of me loud and i don't think that it's possible to say anything about snow without sounding like you're trying to say something that means something except for "this snow fucking sucks" which is what i usually say about snow. all i mean is that i didn't mind my walk to school so much today...
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i got, like, a deer park water bottle almost empty and a half a pack of parliment lights. there is nothing appealing me to stay up any longer. please give me a reason because sleep and then school is not working for me right now.

the doctor said that i should drink sprite. i told her that she was insane. i'm sorry that my hands shake but i'd rather have seizures every half hour than give up diet mountain dew. that's why i'm drinking caffeine free diet mountain dew out of an aquafina bottle right now.

people always think that songs are about them so when someone tells you that...
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home too early and drunk too late, i'd be really down for some cereal right now, like rice krispies or granola (with raisins) or even golden grahams. i could do cinnamon life by the handful now though i'm really keen on milk.

sorry i've been so gone. i've been busy working. working-working, working on keeping my computer alive, working on keeping my newly single friend entertained, working on pulling fate out of a napkin.
you know. same old shit.
so how are you guys?
i'm at work now. before work i was at kroger and i was thinking about how the cashier that i used to think...
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my friends keep moving.
i've got a half a couch and a half a scene able to crash here and meanwhile i'm staying locked inside as much as possible.
as much as i can while i'm helping the work through break-ups, sleeping in my jeans on "his" side of the bed.
most times i'd rather stay locked at home.
most times i want to say...
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3:10pm three days after christmas, time to do inventory, time to put away the santa bikinis, time to go grocery shopping and clean the house. my new pots, pans, swiffer, and blender have inspired me to have my mother over for hamburger helper (a huge challenge for me.) hopefully this will stop the constant reminders about how she hasn't been in my apartment in six...
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merry christmas.

i've got leftovers.

i've also got a swiffer wet jet which i (who has a father who thinks swiffers suck up money) and my floors (which think they should live off off cheddar rice cake crumbs) are suprised but delighted to have received. i've also got a bunch of other stuff that i felt guilty for having in my backseat when i stopped...
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i've been fighting with stoplights for a few days but i got "the" phone call tonight so i stood behind the boas in the stockroom hoping that customers couldn't hear me as i stammered unplanned crap and smiled.

i mean, i'll still be fighting with stoplights, i'm just saying.

business has been good at the store but i'm glad to have an unexpected day off...
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