alice

i've been such a total mess lately. between school eating up a good majority of my time and my personal life being a little crazy, i've been feeling like an uber mega bitch.

school is hard. relationships are fucking difficult. sometimes everything seems like it's so fucking hopeless. but giving up is stupid. and... i don't know.

the expections you make for youself just for...
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i have my first set built for the animation part of my thesis. i'm shooting animation tests on my bolex this week, and i had planned on doing some of it today, but i'm shooting in my studio at home which is currently spewing with water. not such a good place to shoot at the moment with lights and whatnot, so i guess i wait...
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i've been going non stop and full force like a crackfiend/workaholic since monday the 30th, averaging twelve hour days of school, work, homework, working on my thesis, and working on other productions. without a single day of rest and usually 5 hours of sleep a night. i am so fucking exhausted. the soonest i will have a day to relax is the 15th.

i am...
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nam june paik passed away. that really kind of sucks.

went home for xmas. my aunt bought me a brand new serger. sometimes i'm a really spoiled girl. i love my serger!

went to vegas over winterbreak too. we stayed at treasure island, and the fireworks for the pirate show that happens 4 times EVERY night went off from the roof of the building right below our hotel window. the fireworks were literally right outside...
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i was only in munich for a week. i've been back for awhile, but i've been busy with school. at last the fall semester is over! and i plan on busting my ass off doing tests for my thesis and chilling. i just bought a cable release for my bolex for the stop motion part of my thesis. woohoo!

so about munich...
it was a...
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holy crap.

i'm in munich. it's fucking cold, but it's so beautiful that i don't care. i had the first screening of my film today. i wanted to barf.

the germans have just been ridiculously nice and helpful. i feel like such a stupid american. everyone is cute and friendly. it's amazing. i'm having fun. i got in last night and tonight i partied on...
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when i'm really busy, i long for days and days of doing absolutely nothing. contrarily, when i have absolutely nothing to do, i long for days and days of being insanely busy.

always wanting what i don't have. but overall, it's so nice to be back in school, that a part of me never wants it to end.

but i do finally have a sexy...
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not much going on over here. summer has been pretty chill.

i got readdicted to playing san andreas.

i worked on a shoot at sfmoma a few weeks ago. the greatest part of that trip was watching a drug deal go down as i walked into a liquor store on a monday night, then walked out to see the same people smoking their crack on...
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love, hate, and some bullshit.

blah blah blacksheep. have you any crack and hookers? no sir, yes sir. 8 times bored.

i'm tired of stupid car stuff. i feel like i'm always having a new issue with a car. stupid car battery dying on me. stupid needing to replace my brake pads. stupid stupid me.

i graduated like 4 weeks ago. i'm starting grad school...
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time for an update...

what a fantanstically maniacal and sleepless world i've been to since i
last updated.

i've been hovering over the flatbeds at school feverishly working on my
film. i've pulled a lot of late nights at school (i.e. getting home from school usually about 3am or so). i finally locked my film (picture and sound) last friday night and had my sound...
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