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Post op appointment. Hope everything looks good. Got a new tattoo fours days ago to celebrate my freedom. That's all. My life has been pretty boring. I rather my life be boring than filed with unwanted drama, though.

Has anyone ever tried the Tampico freezer pops??? I had one and it tasted like a salt pop, and I am afraid to try another one.

I saw my doctor yesterday and he was extremely pleased at how good I look. It's pretty obvious to everyone that I have lost weight. He is very encouraging. For the first time in years, I actually had a smile on my face when the nurse weighed me. Keep up the good work I guess. Of course it will become increasingly harder to lose more...
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Blah. I have surgery tomorrow. That's all. Hopefully everything will go well. I hope everyone has a great week. And good luck to everyone in MR. I have seen some awesome shit, but I will get to that some time later.

Love you all.

Oh well. At least I tried. Maybe next year.

Thanks to everyone for your kind words.

Apparently I have to have surgery because I need a second biopsy and must be asleep for it. I have a preparation on the 11th, and the surgery is the 19th. I am sure everything will be fine.


Beside that, nothing much has been going on. Oh yeah, I have managed to lose 20lbs somehow. But I will...
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Had the biopsy last week. (READ: Not pleasant!! Avoid that shit at all costs!!!)

FAIL.

I have to have a consultation with the surgeon next week.

Good grief.

Um okay???? So besides the fact that my ex husband was an alcoholic spouse abusing, dog beating sociopath who ruined my life..... we can now add "and he almost gave me cervical cancer".

Really, mofo???

I have never had STD in life. Why would anyone think to use protect to someone they are married to? I was more concerned with the possibility of conceiving a...
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Hey guys. I read your comments today. If I worried anyone, I am sorry. I have always been sensitive, but since marrying my husband, I have been WAY more sensitive, and my social anxiety is ridiculous. I've been told I have PTSD. Plus I feel like a failure.

But right now I want to stop talking about myself right now and repost Drave Suicide's post:...
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I got weighed at clinic today. 188. Three months ago I was 155. Sigh. At least I am going to be put on anti diabetic drugs which should hopefully fix the weight issue.

What is going on? Why do I suddenly want to give up and be a shut in. Why??

Why does everything I say and do have to backfire so badly. I don't...
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And somehow I got a 90% on the exam I thought I screwed up. I'm still an honor student. But I am still not going to take anymore chances.

I had my baptism interview yesterday, which I passed.

I really wish my hair would grow faster.

I need to take a break from the internet. I am not saying I am going to, I am just saying I need to. I screwed up my honors GPA because I couldn't get my priorities straight. Sigh.

Oh yeah, thank you all for the hugs and nice words on my last blog. I didn't respond, but I really appreciated it.

I have been watching...
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Tomorrow will be the last time I will see him in person. I wish I had the courage to tell him certain things, but I don't.

Oh well. Life goes on.