Wednesday May 04, 2011

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I have to say after all my tours in Afghanistan.....and many friend lost i am still happy to say that Karma is a bitch....

though they are Navy i still take my hat off to the SEALS

I need food
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kay:
I take my hat off to all that serve. We all bleed red, white and blue I suppose. wink
missmalice_:
"though they are Navy " biggrin I said the same thing. Oh well let the SEALS have their moment of glory.
I need food too, wanna drive out here and hit walmart?

Sunday Apr 24, 2011

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So ....I've been out for a while....I did a TDY trip to Maryland last week and got back around Friday ...My iphone took a dive the day before my trip so i traveled with no one's numbers. It sucked i have a better appreciation for smart phones now....

So after already 6 years in the army and 40 months in the hot hot heat I...
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luffy:
Thank you! Taurus' do run the world! haha
psyche:
Stop bulking/cutting I swear you have an eating disorder lol...

And yea. I bet you'd really like it if I became your pro-domme officer wouldn'tcha? wink

Tuesday Apr 05, 2011

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Life is what it is...

60 days until this thing called my divorce is over or at least she's not here...in the mean time i continue to train and I've got a hold of my drinking...

I go TDY to Maryland days before my birthday April 27th btw...i hope i don't' get stuck out there longer than that, then at the end of May i...
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the_libertine:
Keep me posted, 'lil bro. Give me fair warning, however. If you're not going to be on this coast, I'll need to make travel plans and stuff.
andrealaz:
Was your birthday? Happy belated!
How you're not catching jay Cole and electronica at the wireless? Isn't exactly when you're in London?
Electronica will come to Berlin mid July anyways - with Blackstar, public enemy, etc etc in any case you can always get to see good concerts in the US!

Oh yesss! Nas is the greatest! One of my top 3 favorites for sure! See, Jay Z could never cheer you up like he does wink

Hope you're doing alright and see you soon! Cake!

Wednesday Mar 23, 2011

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I shouldn't drink and look at old Photos...I felt like i lost my mind last night...
I guess i have survivors guilt coupled with a low opinion of myself frown

I have to start talking to someone about this shit before I end up hurting myself...I really need this fucking Vacation ....

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psyche:
Yea, you did miss a lot. Peep diz shit yo!

I had the craziest acid trip out in the desert man..... I will come back to tell you about it later...

shit has been flying all over the place..... my homeboy just got sent to the federal pen today frown ......... gonna have to make a road trip to put money in his prison account soon.

Sorry if I'm not making any sense....I'm withdrawing right now....... long story............ I'm going to disappear for a while and .......... when i come back.......... sometime in the summer.......... I will tel you alllllllllll about it. PEACE!!!!!! kiss
missmalice_:
I miss you too. This depression thing fucking sucks. you know I'm only a text away.

Wednesday Mar 23, 2011

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I hate my fucking life and everything in it...why could'nt i have just died in Afghanistan instead of him he was a better person than I.....while i am waste of fucking space and flesh....i am seriously thinking of slitting my fucking wrist right now...no one would give a fuck
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tinkly:
I am sorry your so sad frown I wish I could help.

Also I would beat you because I have something you dont .....

SPOILERS! (Click to view)

BOOBIE POWER!! biggrin biggrin
xxun:
You are not D:<

Wednesday Mar 16, 2011

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I feel like beating a dead horse with these shitty feelings...It sucks this is all i have to talk about ..but it is what it is....

I know I am not perfect by any means but I think I deserve to be happy and that seems to escape me ...I am in such a crappy mood right now...when you want something you'll not settle for...
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sealion:
You do deserve to be happy. You are awesome and deserve nothing but happiness!

Yes, times are shitty right now, things are complicated and stuff may not be going exactly right, but the fact is that you're already seeing the light from all the positive changes you've made. Your training has paid off with all your wins, the divorce is getting sorted out one way or another and it seems like work is going from strength to strength!

Focus on the good and things will keep getting better. Promise.

(P.S. I know I'm late on this one, but NATE DOGG!?!?! frown )
tinkly:
Sorry your having a rough time but if you do get to come over we can test your wrestling skillz. I have never been beaten tongue

Though tbf I play dirty wink

Tuesday Mar 08, 2011

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Waking up at 3 Am with a lot of time on my hands and various thoughts swirling around my head. I feel like my baser instinct and or just primary feeling in life is that of negativity and mental self destruction. I haven't for the longest time realized what caused lack of self esteem or just my inability to love anything about myself....Maybe one day...
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danipoo:
Thanks for the b-day wishes, my friend. Today will be spent relaxing at the beach followed by a good seafood dinner. It's the simple things in life that matter.
clio:
check out www.avocado-booking and www.mad-tourbooking.de, they're the 2 main hardcore booking agencies in europe.

Tuesday Mar 08, 2011

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How i hate this feeling....

I need to work out or drink
3 am and i can't sleep .....

on some days i think why do i even bother getting up
on other days i wish i would have been killed in the IED
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carina:
It could be that simple again. You just need to stop being mopey and work towards more healthy, happy, productive things. All this stuff is just going to prolong the feeling, not help get rid of it.
tinkly:
Sorry your having a tought time hunny frown Wish I could help.

Also - Nero - Good choice....a better choice than me I fear lol

Thursday Mar 03, 2011

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So i finished my Military Board and i did very well...I feel like one weight has been lifted off of my shoulders....only to have another in its place..I must apologize for this blog as i am a bit tipsy, I suppose this to be a form of celebration for my performance.. I hate the fact that i had to cut my hair this short ...it...
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moonlil:
when you pull out uber it has to be true!
cass17:
Man, you're a good lookin fella, and you've got a lot going for you. Stop being so hard on yourself! And I'm with Libertine man, scribblez gotta go.

We all have our shit. In fact, that's all we leave behind when we die, we leave all the shit we produced on the earth, tongue

So just accept it man! Deal with it as it comes and look forward to those moments that make life worth living for!

Despite our distance, I send you my bro love.

btw I'm so not MvC3 ready yet at ALL. I think I'm gonna do missions with everyone first to just figure out their connects and hit frames... that game is retardedly filled with madness.

Tuesday Feb 15, 2011

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Upward and onward...Valentines day sucked for obvious reasons...but I am at the point where i don't give a fuck..it is what it is..I want this divorce over in a bad way for both our sake....Work has been kind of whack lately as well I have been studying to go to a Military Board so hopefully that will work out. I have a 4 day weekend...
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mark_plus_beer:
I think like you i probably go in phases with my music taste.
the_libertine:
You're coming to Canada to train?! FOR REAL!? When?! Where?! Tell me it's in Victoria!!! biggrin

Tuesday Feb 01, 2011

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So ...
It goes nothing has really changed in the last couple of weeks.... I am still on my path to being single again. In a sense i want it to be over with simply to see what will happen next in life, and to be honest i want her to be able to get on with her life and enjoy it, while i try...
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the_libertine:
come on, bro! You know you could have checked the last post! it was all about telling someone they are beautiful.

Did you do it?
moonlil:
Games are the way of life.

Wednesday Jan 26, 2011

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In the end i guess things will work themselves out....granted i am saying this very drunk...
I love SG for all the like minded friends I have made.... I truly thank them for their support and love while i go through this bullshit....
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sealion:
So, how did it go? How are you doing, handsome?
missmalice_:
You dont text me anymore or are in chat and this makes me sad!
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