( if you can call that 'normal'... I'm used to it since it's been ongoing since I turned 15, with the exception of one year - just one - where no one I knew/that I was aware of died )
BUT sometimes the loss hits harder, is closer to your heart than the others are/were, means more than you expected when you get the news...
on Thursday evening I got the world that my oldest friend, Jenny, had died... she was one of those few that I always had a place for, that was always welcome in my life no matter the circumstances
there had been times/years where we had lost track of each other, but somehow reconnected in time (5yrs was the longest period - in one of the hardest times, strangely enough)
yes, she was my oldest friend - having known each other longer than my head-damaged self is able to recollect, she had told me since camping as kids, so unquestionably she wasthe oldest of friends *sighs*
as for the latebloomer that I was, not long after I turned 18 she was my first kiss - humorously we tried dating twice, which didn't even last days *smirks*
nonetheless, she had recently told me/reaffirmed that she knew she could always trust me... which I'm glad for, being able to be that for someone after so many, many years
aye, she had a place in my world, even if I seldom spoke of and seldom saw her or heard her voice in more recent years ( miles away and all that jazz )
worlds change, but there are always those few, those wonderful beloved few
Jenny will be remembered, a part of my weird and sometimes wild life
I'm one that often takes inspiration from the tragedies in my life, but in this case I'm only filled with the memoria
and in this particular case, much welcomed memoria -
her smile
her purposefully ignoring the naysayers (of which there were, sadly, more than a few)
her recommendations and advice (which I never paid attention to *laughs*)
her caring for others (many of whom had no idea)
( I only very vaguely remember that first awkward kiss, so can't give any details there... )
Moving On...
in a mere week from today, I will traveling the open skies with my fathre joining en route, on our first joint vacation in 25 years!!
very, VERY excited... so looking forward to this
aye, it's not quite a week we'll be in Nevada, but it's a vacation with my fathre, demn it!
it'll be the first one where we're actually getting along and civil to each other :)
'course, this means I'll be having to pack a lot into next week's 4/5ths of a workweek - a lot that has to be done before I leave
and likely a helluva lot will be waiting for me 'pon my return *sighs* ... but that's ok
there's a lot of changes in the pipeline for work in the next few months, of the good and necessary kind :)
ANYways... remember that Life is about Living, my lovelies and gentlefolk !
random twits ::
1/4 :
"it's like he fills me up with something..."
I believe it's called semen
"why do I talk to you?"
:)
1/5 :
I have reason to believe that children are truly just daemons that evolve into humans as they get older...
This Week's Random Playlist ::
Helloween - My God-Given Right [entire album]
watched recently :
via netflix/hulu:
Lucio Fulci's The Beyond
Galavant (2nd Season)
Heroes: Reborn (1st Season)
Supernatural (4th Season)
ownedflix:
The Twilight Zone (1st Season)
Angel (1984)
Hot Tub Time Machine 2
Go
Detention
Ted 2
Fantastic 4 (2015)
Police Academy
-thom Wolfox sR Rhose
unusualist - I have yet to find a religion and/or spirituality that fits my own personal beliefs... other than, of course, the fact I am a (fallen) god.