shivasshakti

Nada E Nada , nice new profile pic girlie

I miss the sense of wonder, of everything being the first time. The first time you smoke a cigarette or do drugs, or drink, the first time you have sex. The first time you stay up all night with your best friend talking about the universe. The first time your parents really disappoint you, that you learn to think of them as failable humans. The first time you drive. The first time you smoke pot with all your friends looking at you because you're probably inhaling wrong and everyone laughing when you say you don't feel anything and then start giggling uncontrollably on the playground in Cherry Hill at four am, waiting for the cops to roll up.

I miss all that stuff.

I don't miss not getting. Missing stuff, not being smart/experienced enough to always keep myself safe. I don't miss not knowing what I had until after it was gone. Not even a bit.

How the hell are you, dear?

Didn't you recently celebrate a birthday that I forgot to wish you well on?

And how's the ShivasSteve entity?

no problem my dear thank you for joining ^.^

Oh i have to make myself some of that
Papaya Sparkle sounds yummy!!

Fav thing about spring: The return of flowers and green grass

In FL, there is no such thing as spring. There's fall-ish and then summer. But when I lived in Chicago, I loved watching the leaves growing back on the trees. And green green grass.

I always hate living on the first floor becuase of the people upstairs, their bathroom is always right above my bedroom, so I can hear them pee at like 4am.


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I don't know what happened, they were working when I posted them.

where were you then?!!

summer meal?? anything vegetarian

my slave?

sounds best
long hours and lots of study but oooo sooo rewarding
ahhh yes you will need impeccable taste
well
and to taste good hehehehehehe
btw if there is impeccable taste is there peccable taste???
weird
anywayssssssssssssssss

dont worry I will give you a litle showt out the next time I go also give a little love to Dr Chaos foor informaly introducing us gus. Le Bok

Don'tcome back to Reno it is still freeeeezing balls here seems like it will never end, I thought you were taking about the cellular phone company. Le Bok

check out
independence day or
the sportswriter by Richard Ford. sportswriter comes first but I read them the other way and it really doesn't matter. really great and compelling, I loved them both

nope graudated law school five years ago. I worked in legal publishing for five years, and, bizarrely enough, just ended my first day of real lawyer work an hour ago (I may not go back tommorow - seriously).

idealist realism. Realism abiout the world and your expectations of others, idealism about your life and how great it can be...

YAAAAYYYYY! I got a lil rediculous.....

Nay, got drunk with my photographer friend as she worked a show. Good times, but whiskey and I are going to be on the outs for awhile....

my two cents? youre thinking about this in reverse. dont think about it as there being a thing out there that you must find, but rather that you already are the thing and now its just a matter of selling it to this otherwise uncolorful world. do it with style, and do it with pride, and the rest of the world will be sucked into your gravity. you tell them what the thing is. hell, from the short time ive gotten acquainted with you, frankly it seems like youre already there. the only limit is imagination. now go get em killa.

LOL, Menace2sobriety...what a guy huh? His words are free, yet so insightful.....s'pose that's why I count his as a best freind....

....OK, enough gushing, first of all, your profile pic is beautiful. Your 'thing' seems to radiate from you. I hope to meet you in person some day, as I wouldn't mind having some time in that lime light that you shine....omg, cheesy, but true!

Lastly, (again, I hate this word, but dammit, it just fits so....well...ugh...) I think my 'thing' is my tenacity....now it's just a means of chanelling it into the right vein....oh, and I can network the pants off of just about anyone! lmao....ok, self horn tooting officially OVER!

I met a woman once who set me on fire. Writing is more calm and reflective, I rarely write about a muse untill she's gone...

God and I haven't been reading enough either. Maybe Spain will live me up this autumn

I am so glad you're back! How's married life? I'll tell you more about my life ion a few days, but I must run now...

Oh, where to begin. My whole life has turned upside down since we last spoke. Was I in Portland when you left?
I moved here with my girlfriend of seven years, in hindsight we were and had been so unhealthy and unhappy for so long. We broke up, I suffered, couch surfed/lived on the street for a few months. Found a place, with the help of an old friend that I hadn't seen in ten years. Met a wonderful woman, fell in love, got a great job (good money 3 day weekends every week), she moved in, we paid off all debt and now I am saving for travel. Life is sooo good right now.

Excuse the poor use of words here, only on my first cup of coffee. I feel as if I have made a breakthrough as a writer. I am sending you a new part of the project I was working on before, as well as a few short things from old blogs. Welcome back again, I am so pleased!

Oh, honey, I have got enough dirt to write a novel! How the hell have ya been!?!!?

i feel the same way!
i mean, sorta ...
i mean, i guess i do ...
oh, never mind.

by the way - welcome back!