Stupid internal debate
I have these little sample sizes of Burt's Bees face cream with royal jelly in them. Being a vegan I'm like, well "that's not really vegan of me to use them". However, in my non-vegan head, and more my unlabelled head, I'm thinking "well it would be even worse to let it go to waste". But would it be? Am I making excuses just so I can use it? Or maybe I'm using it because I honestly don't want to waste something that came from an animal. Or maybe this is my brain torturing me because it hasn't had enough meditation lately. The stupid cyclical thoughts that haunt me, day in, day out, while I try to live my life but fail ever so slightly because I can't stop thinking about trivial bullshit like whether I should use some fucking face cream I didn't even buy.
Anyhow. There's my stupid internal debate. Back to studying and hopefully tomorrow I'll get a chance to meditate.
I have these little sample sizes of Burt's Bees face cream with royal jelly in them. Being a vegan I'm like, well "that's not really vegan of me to use them". However, in my non-vegan head, and more my unlabelled head, I'm thinking "well it would be even worse to let it go to waste". But would it be? Am I making excuses just so I can use it? Or maybe I'm using it because I honestly don't want to waste something that came from an animal. Or maybe this is my brain torturing me because it hasn't had enough meditation lately. The stupid cyclical thoughts that haunt me, day in, day out, while I try to live my life but fail ever so slightly because I can't stop thinking about trivial bullshit like whether I should use some fucking face cream I didn't even buy.
Anyhow. There's my stupid internal debate. Back to studying and hopefully tomorrow I'll get a chance to meditate.
saoirsemckenna:
I thought I had gotten over this guy who I was once completely in love with, but I'm not. I'm back to feeling totally lost for him. Shit. It's completely a waste of my energy and time. But my god is he hot, and interesting and fun. Fuck.