punkinfanta

tell me who i have to be to get some reciprocity?...


kudos to someone who recognizes this off the bat

you don't even know how hard i try!!

"pure perfection"
i want to know on a deeper level.
so much inside. releasing in the oddest of ways.
i have never tried so hard.
and yet...it is somehow not good enough.
ha, that really shouldn't surprise me...yet it does.
glimpses of more, so grand' so lovely, so....far.away. perhaps for both of us.
not the first time i have had to say, please fight, this...
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in my head. all day. beautiful. it has been awhile since a new song moved me in a positive way.
makes me miss him...


When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that...
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i am heaven sent
don't you dare forget
i am all you've ever wanted
what all the other girls all promised



I just wanna believe, in us.

-65lbs
35 more to go. seems so far out of my grasp. i don't know why. i'm really good at not focusing on what has been accomplished in my life, just focusing on what i still need to do....

"To grow, you must be willing to let your present and future be totally unlike your past. Your history is not your destiny."

my past is perilous
each scar i bear sings
monuments to where i have been
melodies to where i am going

Kiss me
Infect me with your love and
Fill me with your poison

Take me
Wanna be a victim
Ready for abduction

you can tell
from the scars on my arms
and cracks in my hips
and the dents in my car
and the blisters on my lips
that i'm not the carefullest of girls

you can tell
from the glass on the floor
and the strings that're breaking
and i keep on breaking more
and it looks like i am shaking
but it's just the temperature...
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Met my match today
Felt the blood rushing and mingling
A curious and enigmatic thing
Spiders in my dreams
Synchronicity weaves like a web
When you were meant to be a meal

I want you bad!
I want you bad!
I understand why they say high school never ends

Never act my age
You can tell by the lines in my smile
That I have...
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my past is perilous
each scar i bear sings
monuments to where i have been
melodies to where i am going