before i got my heart broken i was depressed then i just fell. barely stayed afloat. i was a quiet person so when i didnt do or say anything i didnt think people noticed. i have good friends and family. after the first few months i was nothing, then mostly bad days with a good moment here or there. moving into the roller coaster; im up, im down, im up, im down, im up, up alittle more then down again. pot sorta helped but also made me think too much into my problems so i was down again, but since i was high i was up again. i couldnt drink as much as i wanted to. i already went threw a heavy drinking phase before that relationship, reasons were for being lonely and feeling unloved. i tried a mild anti-depression med but i never like the idea of having to rely on meds, plus it felt like it worked but i didnt know if it was the meds or placebo effect. also i would forget to take it alot cus i am not used to needing a med. . . . its been abt ten months give or take since my break up, i stopd try to count after 2 months, i never did care to keeping time. its been maybe 2 months since iv have an anti-dep med. and i feel good! for the most part!