Monday was reserved for hanging out with Shea until I had to take him home. Disaster followed that as my truck became completely useless and his mom had to come pick him up. If you've been following any of this over the last year, you probably still wouldn't realize how I felt about my ex.
Apparently, I feel a lot. It was the 1st time...
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Wow 8:47, I've been up for 7 hours!!! and yet I'm still not done with the blubbery bullshit. Someone just put me out of my misery.
nocturnalink:
Monday was reserved for hanging out with Shea until I had to take him home. Disaster followed that as my truck became completely useless and his mom had to come pick him up. If you've been following any of this over the last year, you probably still wouldn't realize how I felt about my ex.
Apparently, I feel a lot. It was the 1st time in, I think 3 weeks, since I had seen her. And I was struck by how much I missed her. We kissed like more than friends but, less than lovers and I subconsciously made a reach for her hand. She slipped any touch, as if she was dreading the feel. And then Shea was ready to go.
and that's pretty much when it began.
I was overwhelmed by the feeling that I had thrown away something/someone extremely important. And that's when the flood gates opened and quite frankly they haven't stopped since. I feel better MS wise but, I'm typing this about 36 hours later and I STILL have a tears rolling down my cheeks.
Apparently, I feel a lot. It was the 1st time in, I think 3 weeks, since I had seen her. And I was struck by how much I missed her. We kissed like more than friends but, less than lovers and I subconsciously made a reach for her hand. She slipped any touch, as if she was dreading the feel. And then Shea was ready to go.
and that's pretty much when it began.
I was overwhelmed by the feeling that I had thrown away something/someone extremely important. And that's when the flood gates opened and quite frankly they haven't stopped since. I feel better MS wise but, I'm typing this about 36 hours later and I STILL have a tears rolling down my cheeks.
1:21am, hello old friend. We've been seeming to meet quite often in the last year. And, while I should be following the advice of the two people who care enough to give it and complete some of my unfinished writing; I find myself bitching instead. And then I just catch myself in moments like these, tears and snot streaming down my face and I comically,...
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dreading the lonliness once my son has gone home to his mother's
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pax_:
I'm sorry. 
nocturnalink:
Worse is that it's a combination of his leaving and missing her......
can you believe Enter Sandman was 17 fucking years ago?!
Today was a bitter sweet day. I had to cancel taking part in today's, this year's Walk MS. It hurt to have to miss this event to raise awareness, I'd been "training" for the walk by using my own two legs and cane to get around everywhere for the last 5 months. I said NAY to the scooter at the supermarkets and WalMart, it got...
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pax_:
I'm sorry about the Walk, but at least the day did turn out well. 
Saturday nights all right.
If you can keep your eyes open for longer then 10 minutes or so at a time and your not being asked if you're OK every time they are open. I have Multiple Sclerosis, of course I'm OK. It's only a chronic, incurable, debilitating, auto-immune disease of the Central Nervous System. Everything about knowing that your own body is trying to...
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If you can keep your eyes open for longer then 10 minutes or so at a time and your not being asked if you're OK every time they are open. I have Multiple Sclerosis, of course I'm OK. It's only a chronic, incurable, debilitating, auto-immune disease of the Central Nervous System. Everything about knowing that your own body is trying to...
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Today started out INSANE, Had to drop off the hospital prescription at the pharmacy, called the hospital, my neurologist, my insurance, my 8th grade teacher, and the priest who baptized me, trying to get approval. It seems 1,000mg of prednisone over 2 days and 500mg the next 4 is an excessive amountnormally. Long story short at the end of the day I shelled out $40...
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pax_:
Goodness! I'm sorry it went like that! I have the same problem with prescription pain meds. And that's after I fight with the drs to give them to me that strong. You are right about children though. I love getting hugs and kisses from Connor.
I love getting hugs and kisses from Connor. I hate hospitals but, I practically live there?
I spent the better part of yesterday, 3pm to 12am, in an uncomfortable bed in the Emergency Department of UMDNJ. I felt an exacerbation coming on and went to my doctor, who agreed with me, that the symptoms that brought me to his office might very well be a flare up about to happen, or beginning to...
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I spent the better part of yesterday, 3pm to 12am, in an uncomfortable bed in the Emergency Department of UMDNJ. I felt an exacerbation coming on and went to my doctor, who agreed with me, that the symptoms that brought me to his office might very well be a flare up about to happen, or beginning to...
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Wow today was a shitty day. Guess I have to pay for all my good days with MS sometime right? The entire left side of my body feel wonky and it's a bitch trying to get up and walk. And the MS Walk is SUNDAY!
I will make it, I will make it, I will make it. I can't walk to the bathroom today but,...
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