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so i was cleaning fish guts out of the sinks in the labs today when it occured to me that life is really fucking beautiful, even when cleaning fish guts out of sinks. i sat down and cried and breathed in the stink of glyoxal and dead fish and it was perfect.

that is all.
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starisea:
Much gratitude for the happy green monkey year wishes. smile I have really good feelings about this one. All signs are auspicious so far, and even though I still struggle with the darkness, light is coming back to me in floods of unexpected generosity.

You have inspired my curiosity with your pictures. Thank you for that as well. I have learned much about nataraj because of you.

*Hugs and much respect*

PS~ I will have moss garden pics from the Japanese garden posted by this weekend. Spreading the quiet peace . . .
aenemated:
fish heads
fish heads
rolly poly fish heads
fish heads
fish heads
eat them up
YUM
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sorry i've been scarce. my girl was visiting, and i've had a surplus of work and drama in my life lately. the girl and the drama are unrelated, in case you're wondering. last year was madness, and this year is shaping up to be more of the same. that's good. i like to ride the ride.

i'll catch up on your journals when i can...
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ophelia:
yay girlness!
I hope you had fun kiss
starisea:
smile

You are one cooooool cat, my friend joyrider.

Right now I only practice the mani mantra with my mala. I haven't learned much about any other mantras, and I really feel like I need a teacher, because I have horrible pronunciation skills, so I am quite nervous when trying to learn mantras from books. I am slowly learning the gayatri mantra, because I have a audio sample of it sung by a woman, which I let loop during the day at work. It's beautiful.

Do you have any suggestions? I would love to have your insight if you have any to offer.

*Peace giggles and good grooves*
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(i bet the cut/paste job is totally going to fuck my spacing up. c'est la vie.)

steaming

the fall icemelt
dead leaves
in earth in oilslick under

cold shoes
and the toes
the atoms

the spaces, filled with the fire
the hot breath on the mirror

i move

behind me
the sidewalk crumbles
into dust and seconds
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viy:
don't mock my confused face! that is the product of many late night study sessions of trying to cram homework into my little brain!!
fred:

Good one. smile

Yeah I've the auto-HTML has spoiled a few attempts of mine too.
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never forget:
we walk on hell,
gazing at flowers.
- issa

a little zen thankgiving for you.
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rxqueen:
i think it has something to do with the more people around you, the easier it is to feel left out or ignored.
its arse.
its hard to find good company.
starisea:
Thank you so much for the book recommendation. I have connections at Powell's who will be getting a wish list soon. (Book junkies of the world unite!)

Please set me up with the link to the dj mix. I will definitely give it a listen. Yay for new music!

I think it may be time for me to go to bed. I seem to have lost control of the !! *giggles* !!!!!

Bye!

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a big storm rolled up against the mtns and dumped a bunch of snow on my town.

girlfriend is flying in at 9:15 and i keep refreshing the united flight update page - i know her flight is going to be late. it's always late, even when it's not snowing like mad in denver.

before she gets here i need to
- shovel the sidewalk...
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shifgrethor:
I miss living where I don't have to go to the mountains to see snow.
johncocktoastin:
cadaversandclovers@cox.net

adios, soul brotha!

see you on tha flipside.
miao!!
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i just slept 11 hrs. my cat woke me up: she climbed on my head to reach the window. i opened it for her, and saw the sun dipping low in the west. i got up and went downstairs, out on the deck, to soak up some solar power and warm my bones.

now it's time for laundry, eating, coffee, email. later my brother and...
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rxqueen:
my cat likes to bite my nose if hes hungry & i sleep too long.
ophelia:
*listens to Julie Doiron - Oh These Walls*
Thank you for telling me about this. smile
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this time i go for instant street
this life's a soulless excuse for all abuse and parenthesis.
the flyspecked windows and the stinking lobbies
they'll remain all the same, all the same.

this time I go. this time I go...


nah. not really.

i figured out how to get onto the roof where i work, *and* i have a key. mmm. what should i do...
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shifgrethor:
That'd be awesome ... limewire is stupendously lame when it comes to d/l'ding mp3's 1) reliably, and 2) of consistent quality, which makes up the body of my Satie collection.
I'd be willing to swap, too, provided I have something you'd want.

p.s. On the roof ... it might be funny to make a "help, I'm being held hostage" sign visible from helicopter, to see if the cops come and bust the place. Of course, that's really good only as a final sour grapes type of gesture.
ophelia:
Lay out a blanket.
Take a travel cup filled with hot chocolate.
And stare at the stars. smile

I'm in chat a lot. You should come find me sometime.
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what a fucking beautiful night. it froze and i ate some acid. i spent the evening on the roof, watching the stars wheeling overhead. dead leaves dropped from the trees. they floated down in front of me: rice paper origami backlit by the grey clouds. my cat came out there with me, and sharpened her claws on shingles. washboard symphony!

it is good to get...
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shifgrethor:
Yeah, tonight has been a nice ass night too, unusually warm. I must say, the upside of autumn around here is that there are some bitchin sunsets, that turn the entire ambient glow of things to an eerie reddish.

p.s. The Oliver Parker version of Othello is what has started me on Kenneth Brannagh's movies, he plays as good a Iago as you could want on screen.
johncocktoastin:
i vahnt to squeeze your cheeks!


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well that didn't last, did it? i think that's the first time i've ever gone grey.

life is good. work + clear steady eyes keeps me moving. not much time to update, not online, but days have been filled with love and violence and hot and cold and lost and found.

who wants to be happy all the time anyway? the ride is better with...
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fred:

Welcome back from the gray...
etienne:
joyboy, you gots to write back!
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i am worried about my friend Olivia. she is stressed out. please go give her some love. thank you!
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olivia:
kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss
ericj:
Aw, man, I WISH I could do that on a regular basis. I don't get to play much at all, so I like to get the most out of it when I can. smile
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news:

my cat ran away. after living in a shrub for several days and surviving on sprinkler water and bugs she decided to opt for the gilded cage again and came home. last i saw she was sitting on my bed after gorging on chopped lungs and gravy. wet cat food is gross.

incongruous: drinking a 7and7 while waiting for tacos to digest so i...
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scylla:
Dude, I totally went to the Helio Sequence concert back in August of last year with the Shins @ the Crystal Ballroom... I remember it quite well, it was the day after the Sonic Youth concert (which was fucking extraordinary). They seemed pretty decent to me, I'd catch them again if they were playing another good bill. I hope your kitty comes back soon! *insert cat icon cuz I'm too lazy to look it up*
fred:

You're cat "needed space", heh.

You need not apologize for having a life.
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one of the problems with having multiple journals is figuring out what-goes-where. once i only put insipid things on my lj, and artfag things on my diaryland page. now i keep a journal here as well. everything is mixed up. the lj is still pretty insipid, though. lots of chatlogs and pictures of stupid things.
then there's the hidden journal, which is where the truth...
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emperor_tane:
I haven't had a burrito in a long time. I am too boring to eat cool food, like burritos.

Tanewhatever