You've come to the right place if you lack in self-esteem and would appreciate some validation. One of the nice things about this site is how open and supportive everyone is of one another. The pics you've posted show a very pretty individual so it's not like you're some deformed zombie-person who is looking for Stevie Wonder. You'll see how much positive feedback you get and for sure a lot of encouragement to be brave and daring (it IS, after all, Suicide Girls). I say go for it. And by the way, it's nice to meet you.