hellstorm

so woke up today pretty bummed. the lack of a job and the piling debt I'm facing is not something to help my mood. seriously.

what really gets me is the fact that I am in part to blame for this. if I did this or did that, then things would be different. I'm the type that always replays scenarios in my head...and I've been doing that a lot lately. might explain part of my problem with sleeping.

have a few jobs to apply for. I was just told today that a school district in the area is in desperate need for a Long-Term sub...great. but no posting...huh? what do I do? write "I hear you have an opening"? maybe "Hey, if you have an open position, please feel free to consider me?" dunno.

the US Government called today. I registered at USAJobs.gov recently. basically a recruiter called. great...my knees aren't too great, my shoulders constantly bother me and my back bothers me. yeah, don't think the reserves is my thing. plus I'm in my 30's. if I could get a position tied to the military as a civilian, great. but not a military person myself.

yeah....I think that's about it. here's hoping something breaks soon! besides my sanity!